- Excerpts from Julia's testimony during the Assumption -   

(August 15th, 2012 )

  Praise be Jesus ! and Praise be the Blessed Mother !

I am glad to see all of you! Has Fr. Su already explained well about today ?

Jesus gave us infinite love together with the Blessed Mother. I hope that today all of you will receive the fullness of that same love to the brim.

I could hardly wake up this morning although I am still healthy and also was able to stretch with the participants during the summer camp (the camp of love ) yesterday. Upon looking at me, Peter Kim said “ It's going to be okay after the camp, it will be okay after the Youth retreat.” However, I could not sleep last night.

I slept here (Julia's waiting room on the Blessed Mother’s Mountain) last night. As a matter of fact, I always sleep here during the summer camp in order for me to spend more time with the retreat participants.

The reason was " he Meeting with them" part of the program. But I was not able to wake up on time.  It was about 1:30 a.m when I woke up. Then I said to the volunteer,“ Now, it is time for me to meet them." But they told me," they all left already." On hearing that, I was so sorry, so I just prayed for them while sending my kisses of love to all of them. I then went back to my house at 7 a.m.

My pains were getting worse even though I offered all these pains for the participants of the camp and the youth retreat.

During the time of gathering around the camp-fire, my pains became worst on my legs and crotch area. Even under such extreme sufferings, I was still able to learn folk dance on the spot and was able to spend the whole time of the program with them .

After that, we let the retreat participants sleep first and we gathered together with the volunteers and Sisters for appraisal time. It was already 5 a.m when we had finished the preparation prayer for the pilgrims and participants of the Youth retreat. Then we took a shower.

I was so happy thinking that the Lord will bestow graces on all of you through my sufferings even though my pains are so terrible that my whole body and clothes became soaking wet with perspiration.

The volunteer helpers asked me, “ how you could be happy while you are in such terrible sufferings ?

Usually, my knees are so strong. But I was feeling pains on my knees when I was about to come here today. Are there many of you who have knee pains ? Today, those experiencing knee pains will be healed. They are being healed. .

Dear fellow pilgrims!

Be healed of your spiritual and physical pains. I was happy to finish the rosary despite my pains.  Going up the mountain, I was praying the rosary with my hands raised. As I was passing by the Way of the Cross at the Mt. Calvary site, I saw that a big insect settled at the foot of Jesus on the crucifix.  So I prayed " Oh Jesus, how itchy must be your foot. But you cannot scratch it away....."

Then I drove the insect away with the Cross of my Rosary and prayed the  prayer of life, " Please expel all the evil habits in the hearts of all the pilgrims and drive all the devils away."

Anyone here prays "he prayer of life"? Would you raise your hands please ?. Yes, that was the prayer of life. But we can pray it now if anyone here failed to offer that prayer at the time.

I heard as if Jesus was speaking “ All right, thank you.  I was very itchy. I will remove all of the bad things from my children."  I believe that He will surely do it according to our wishes.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

Open your hearts. When you open your hearts wide then Jesus and the Blessed Mother will come to you and dwell in your heart and then you will fully enjoy joy, peace and love. How this prayer of love is so wonderful.

Dear fellow pilgrims ! Is it true ?.  pilgrims responded, Yes it is ......

The devils will run away if we constantly make an effort to live a resurrected life in joy, peace and love. No matter what Jesus is trying to give us, He will not give it to us if we do not prepare to receive them due to our free will.  It is not for not giving us, but not able to give us.

Now, I would like to share about “ Prepare!”

On August 24, 1995, a Eucharistic miracle occurred where in the Sacred Host I received during communion turned into visible flesh and blood during the mass celebrated by Bishop Dominic Su at the site of the Adoration chapel now on the Blessed Mother's Mountain. Then again, a similar miracle occurred during the mass celebrated by Bishop Roman Danylak on September 22nd,1995 on the same site.  Fr. Chang was one of the co-celebrants. At the time, I saw Jesus on the Eucharist during the elevation of the Host.

Even though two Eucharistic miracles happened at the site, we did not build any facility there immediately like this adoration chapel which we have now at the exact spot where it occurred.

When the second miracle occurred here with Bishop Danylak, volunteer Rufino was shooting the video. It was the first time for him to shoot a video. Being an amateur , the sky, the ground were here and there in the picture with no focus  whatsoever, Fortunately, everyone can see the miracle that the Eucharist was turning into flesh and blood and moving by itself.

Only in the year 2002, were we able to make this spot as one of the sacred areas in the Mountain. We made the circumference with 12 big stones and put many gravel inside. We set aside this area so that all the pilgrims will understand the Eucharistic miracle and offer prayers while they meditate on the Eucharistic miracle.

We installed a round table and exposed the stone covered with the Precious Blood of Our Lord which we collected from the Stations of the Cross and also placed the pictures of the Eucharistic miracles, then we continuously prayed. As a result, on June 11 of the same year, Jesus gave us His Precious Blood on the area and it was alive and even moving by itself.

I put the Precious Blood that just came down on the stones on my finger. The video captured the scene that the precious blood clung very tightly to my finger  and then jumped over to the other side of my finger. His Precious Blood was living and truly breathing. On August 15,2002,  when Bishop Dominic Su  and his two brother priests came together with some Malaysian pilgrims, Jesus gave us His thick Precious Blood. He gave us the Blood from His Sacred Heart to the last drop of water and blood.

So, we collected many stones with blood and preserved them in an acrylic container. One of the stones did not coagulate for 140 days. Instead It remained liquid and was living and moving. The living Precious Blood of Jesus was  jumping  up and down in the box.

Today is the 10th anniversary of this miracle.  Fr. Su who had witnessed it the first time will bless all of you with the stone which did not coagulate for 140 days and was living and moving by itself. I don’t know how much grace you will receive through this stone but anyhow it was with much meandering to bring this precious stone here. I forgot to bring that stone here in the middle of my sufferings so I asked one of the volunteer helpers to bring it but a different one was brought here. Everyone who was there when I explained it fully understood what I instructed, but only this volunteer helper misheard and brought the wrong one. This is ( Julia holding  the container and showing It to the pilgrims) the stone which was covered with the Precious Blood of Jesus and was living and moving by itself from August 15th,2002 to Jan 1st 2003 for a total of 140 days.

The devil knows about the great graces from His Precious Blood and how many would receive the grace. Therefore he allowed the volunteer to mishear my instruction. Anyway, I went back and brought this Precious Blood here. I am not a person who give something up easily. Instead of giving up, I am eager to give you a chance to receive the grace. What I am telling you is to offer up and accept the obstacles in your daily lives and think,  “ Ah ! it was the devil's interference." and then offer them up immediately. Avoid arguments and do not be stubborn with regards to your own opinions.

Majority of problems are between husband and wife, between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law. Do not stubbornly cling to your own opinion but be understanding right away and wake up by thinking “ Ah, now the devils are trying to divide us. ” Then, the devil will run away and are not able to live in us.

Some time ago, have I related this ?  One sister in Gwangju instructed her brother to buy some lilies but he bought daffodils instead.

They were arguing, and the sister said, “ Why did you buy daffodils, I told you to buy lilies. ” And the brother would reply, "No, you instructed me to buy daffodils." To which the sister would shoot back, " I never instructed you to buy daffodils, but lilies. ” It was one of the devil's scheme to mislead him to hear daffodils even though she told him lilies.

So from now on , in any situation when we have different opinions with each other, we just immediately accept and say, " it's my fault" and offer them up right away so that we will win a victory against the devils. Let us always keep awake and offer up our pains heroically.  We will then display the power of love more energetically and the devil who tries to put a wedge between us will run away instead. The devil will run away at once and the combined love of Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary will triumph. Amen !

Jesus showed and gave us His ineffable ,deep, high and wide love for our sake. How can I not then give such great love away to you all . Today, you will receive extraordinary blessings from Jesus. To give myself completely to Jesus and the Blessed Mother, what do I have to do ?  Die physically  ? No !

I, myself have become healthier as I  make Jesus and the Blessed Mother known more and more and all the more is the way to give myself completely.  That’s why I hope you also become healthier. Do your best to be healthy.

Even when the Lord is ready to give something to us, He will not give it if we do not make any effort.

So have I explained about “Prepare ?”

No miracles occurred on the site of the Eucharistic miracle before we made this place Sacred. But after we installed some facilities here in 2002, June 11th, August 15th ,  right away, we received copious Blood of Jesus that same year. 

The reason why we installed the facility around the place where the Eucharistic miracle occurred was due to the advice from one priest. This priest always advised us with regards to gathering evidence. There was a Eucharistic miracle on February 6^th, 2002 in my house

He also came and took a picture, not because of any doubt on his part, but to prepare the evidence for the future. Also he examined the ceiling around the light and gathered all the evidences he could at the time.  That priest said "this is the place where twice the Eucharistic miracle occurred in 1995. So please make this a place of beauty and holiness. We just responded with" Amen" at the time without thinking of anything or preparing anything. Later, the Precious Blood came down on the site. So it is very important for us to respond with" Amen!"

It was November 9th,2001 when the first Precious Blood of Jesus came down. The Precious Blood of Jesus came down countless times until now since that time. Even last first Saturday, it happened during this summer camp ( The camp of love) and also during the youth retreat.

Today also Precious Blood of Jesus will come down for us. He will bestow it on us even though it would be invisible.

Think about it dear pilgrims !. Are you able to recognize if the Blood came down on your head ?  We are supposed to see it but it's impossible to recognize it because all of you are now concentrating on listening to me. Therefore, you just say Amen, then it will be realized for you by merely thinking, “ Ah, His Blood came down onto me as well .”

Please receive His Precious Blood in your heart today.

It was 2003, when some of us with some priests were conversing in the dining room of my house .We were saying that we have  not preserved even one of the miraculous Eucharist so far and that we must preserve all the evidences of the signs from now on.  Suddenly the Precious Blood descended from above with the sound “ Ttuk. ” The precious Blood was on the table and many volunteer helpers, Sisters, priests came to see it. The Blood would coagulate and liquefy again and again. A Sister who was there watching this phenomena with a pilgrim thought " why do they fuss about only one drop of blood ?  and she approached the table.

The moment Sister was looking at the Blood and thinking that way, the blood  jumped and began coagulating, forming into the shape of the saddle of a horse. So we took photos in sequence. It initially became bigger and bigger and then took the form of the saddle. Miraculously, this Precious Blood liquefied just as it appeared when it had just descended .

This is the miracle that Jesus personally descended. Jesus himself is invisible but He will come to us and enkindle in us the fire of love and perform the miracle of love. But it will be in vain if we do not understand nor accept. However, all of you are here now accept Him. This sign is very important.

Anyway, the Lord turned the evil into Good.  Therefore, Don’t think things like, “ Why do they make a fuss about touching  the foot of Jesus for only one time?” Don't feel bad about that. There are many different paths to receiving grace.

Without detailed investigation, just 9 clergy visited Blessed Mother’s House once and just looked around superficially and called me and Fr. Spies, Fr. Chang, Julio and Rufino to the Diocesan office. And the questions were, If the Blessed Mother spoke to you, she must come down from the sky, how she could she come down in this cold weather ? ”," Was the Blessed Mother reading Fr.Gobbi’s messages to you ? " Such ridiculous questions were all that I was asked. Is that sufficient investigation, do you think  ? "The reason they spoke to me thus, they did not even have a clue about Fr.Gobbi’s message. The message given to me was,

“ What is the last supper ? This is love and the sharing of a banquet ” It was given to me on  Holy Thursday on April 8th,1992. But Fr.Gobbi received a brief message regarding the Last Supper in 1993 one year after I received mine in 1992.

It would be not possible if the members of the investigation committee realized this truth. They believed that I copied Fr.Gobbi’s messages. Of course similar messages could be given as it all comes from the same source- the Blessed Mother.

Or like what the chief priest of the investigation committee said, " God the Father is not able to speak theologically. But Jesus and the Blessed Mother were able to speak to you. They could not speak anymore because 2,000 years ago they died."  This statement denies all the apparitions and signs in this world. They kept on saying this up to now ," It was a very detailed investigation that we did for 3 years." They kept insisting on this(there are still living off with this). How sad and heartbreaking are these  ?

"The nails driven by my children close to me are more painful and deep.", Jesus and the Blessed Mother said. The shepherds who were personally anointed are telling a lie and how the heart of the Lord is in pain looking at the shepherds who by obstructing the path to grace are leading their flock of sheep on the path to hell instead of leading them to heaven.

Therefore Jesus and the Blessed Mother can do nothing if we do not open the door of  our hearts and  abuse our free will.

Because of such people, the Hearts of Jesus and the Blessed Mother  are becoming like an active volcano. Jesus said, “ At least you who know me, sew up my Heart that is torn apart. ”  Even when He is saying this same word today,  still they continue to persecute us, but let us pray for them who do not know and are not even attempting  to know  the truth.

Shouldn’t we, who are at least called become consolers and lower Jesus and the Blessed Mother from the Cross by staying awake and pray?  Let us live a resurrected life by completely becoming submerged in the love of Jesus and the Blessed that is so high, deep and wide and ineffable.

There are many pilgrims among us now and some had witnessed many signs and received and experienced many graces.

It was 1997 ,when one of the pilgrims living in Seoul faced divorced after 27 years of marriage.  The marriage life was actually terrible since the beginning due to conflict and continued even after they had children.  They agreed to be divorced since they hated each other. All the documents were submitted to the court and only one step remained that is the division of property. It was July 14^th, 1996. They had to live together until may 1997 when the last step will be   completed even if it was a strange mode of living together without love .

The wife worked at the restaurant, but she was tired of working there and wanted to avoid being in the House and seeing him, so she would go back home late after shopping and just killing time outside. It was really like hell to live together with a husband with whom you are scheduled to be divorced and a very difficult time.

Even such short time with her husband was terrible to bear. So she decided to have her own time and sought some retreat for relaxation. Finally, she came to Naju Blessed Mother’s House on August 26th.  In August 27, there was the miracle of the Descent of Eucharist. By witnessing the Eucharistic miracle, she cried a lot and repented with tears and made up her mind to reconcile with her husband by asking for his forgiveness. She then went back to Seoul on August 29th.  It was still very hard for her to see her husband at the time despite her resolve to reconcile with him .  Suddenly painful memories would come to her mind and she would hesitate. Memories of how she worked her finger to the bone at the restaurant whereas her husband splurged and enjoyed himself with other women.

So, she just made a phone call to her children and wanted to say that she's back in Seoul from Naju. Her husband answered the phone however and she was surprised on hearing him say, " Did you have a nice trip to Naju ?  Come home !" She decided to forgive her husband but still hesitated due to the deep wounds in her heart, but he welcomed her with love and hugged her. This made her deep wounds and anger vanish into thin air like snow melting in the spring.

The husband had remained in the house alone on August 26 but suddenly he stood up and prayed before the crucifix with a candlelight. After more prayers  and by watching a TV program on the Secret of birth ,old age, sickness, and death, he decided to make a fresh start from then on.  The date when she stayed in Naju for her private retreat was the Eucharistic miracle on August 27th, and at that very moment of her repenting in Naju, her husband also repented at the same time in Seoul.

Dear fellow pilgrims ! what is the best medicine to heal our bodies and souls ? Pilgrims responded ( Repentance ) ... all of you knows it  very well.  That’s why you are members of Mary’s Ark of Salvation.

Sweet talk filled with love made her reform and removed all her wounds and made it vanish into thin air. Therefore, please hold out your hand first. Because of self-respect we do not say, " I am sorry honey " after quarreling with each other. Husband and wife also are the same.  Between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, the case is the same.  But we ,Naju comers, must bow our head (be humble) before others. Daughter-in –law bow their heads before mother-in-law, mother-in-low bow their heads before daughter-in-law. We have to be different from others.

To all the dear mothers-in-law who are now here. Why don’t you deny yourself and say to your daughter-in-law,  "Ahgaya ! it was my fault." please do  this at once.  (Ahgaya - a sort of dialect for calling a daughter-in-law by in-law-parents)

Instead of self-centered thinking, we can understand others when we put ourselves in other’s shoes.

Also think it over , how would I feel if I was that person ?

So we can forgive everyone if we put yourselves in their shoes.

I think that I’ve been living like that.

That couple was on the edge of divorce but the divorce was delayed because

of the division of property.

How can we even estimate the sublime and pure love of the Lord ? The Lord gave them a special chance to be reconciled through the witnessing of the Eucharistic miracle through the medium that was money. They could not make a final decision without the division of property.  The Lord and the Blessed Mother knows about all of you very well, therefore I hope you respond with "Amen" in any situation and acknowledge that everything is your fault, then you will receive the blessing.

According to the Bible Matthew Chapter 6 verse 14 to 15,

"If you forgive others their transgressions, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your transgressions."

Matthew Chapter 18 verse 18 in the Bible.

"Amen, I say to you, whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven."

These passages related with confession can be understood in the same context that we should reconcile with and forgive others after confession. Then God will also forgive us. Therefore, if you forgive others their transgressions, Your heavenly Father will forgive you and whatever you bind on earth shall be bound by the Father in heaven. Let us forgive one another. If there is any one whom you did not forgive, please take all of them into the foot of the Cross and make a new start by forgiving and reconciling with one another.

And also Matthew Chapter 16 verse 18-19 in the Bible,

"And so I say to you, you are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church, and the gates of the netherworld shall not prevail against it. I will give you the keys to the kingdom of heaven."

Who is the rock ? Yes , the Holy Father, the successor of Saint Peter.

But the Pope is not able to do everything alone , so Cardinals, Apostolic Nuncios, Archbishops, Bishops and priests are dispatched.

Almighty Jesus is able to perform everything everywhere.  He died on the Cross, rose from the dead after 3 days and ascended after 40 days.  He promised when He was ascending " I will send you the Holy Spirit "and we were given the gift of the Holy Spirit as He promised.

Jesus gave us great graces through the priests. As the proverb says “ The nobler, the humbler." (Still waters run deep ) When I visited countries overseas, I experienced a cardinal who even bowed before us. (humble)  But the priests in Korea these days have lost their resolution and promises they made in the beginning when they were ordained. Many of them wear a "cast" (Korean slang for " pride " ) around their necks".

They have to remove that "cast". Who is going to have them remove the " cast" around their necks ? We are not able to remove them so we just pray for them. "Jesus and the Blessed Mother, let them remove that cast."  Because of their free will, it is impossible unless they practice self denial.  Therefore we need to pray for the priests.

That’s why the chastisement must be sent down. I was informed that in the Philippines, 70 to 80 % of Manila city was flooded. Many drowned or were  missing and many houses were also flooded.

One of the pilgrims, Agnes Jang’s sister who was living in Sendai Japan visits  Naju whenever she comes to Korea. When the tsunami hit after the earthquake in March 10,2011, she and her family were protected and dramatically survived. Whereas their neighbors perished, not only were their lives spared but also their home.

Also, Naju comers are protected by the Lord and the Blessed Mother through numerous dangerous crisis they will experience.

Likewise, you who follow the Lord and the Blessed Mother and make the Lord and the Blessed Mother known will be protected from any natural disasters  and the Lord will sustain you ,protect you and help you to  never be shaken by any adversities. Do not be afraid .

Dear fellow pilgrims  !

Heaven is yours in spite of the end time that we will confront.

Do not worry but take the hands of the Blessed Mother that is the string that links heaven and earth together. Live a life of prayer, sacrifice and of offering up your life as  reparation. We will enjoy eternal happiness on the last day if we follow the Lord and the Blessed Mother by improving our lives through  the spirit of self-denial and poverty. In addition, we will be lifted into heaven escorted by angels and we will participate in the banquet of love prepared by Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

The heaven has its levels. To where shall the Lord and the Blessed Mother  send us?  Who came here to console the Lord and the Blessed Mother in the middle of such terrible persecutions ?  We must be always beside Jesus and the Blessed Mother in the banquet of the Lord and the Blessed Mother. ( Amen ? ) ( all the pilgrims responded with Amen !)

Good Jesus and Good Blessed Mother !

How can we grow spiritually if we do not know Jesus and the Blessed Mother  even when we participate in daily mass and do not miss Sunday mass at the parish church ? Who will lead us to the way of spirituality ? Numerous people make pilgrimages to every part of the country to find Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

One sister was a parishioner of Yoido Full Gospel church for 30 years.  She was not able to understand God even though she listened to the homily of  the pastor who was well known for his eloquent homilies. So she kept seeking and wandering to meet God.  Finally she came to Naju. In Naju, she at last found Jesus and God whom she had been seeking in her whole life. She also found her lost family by meeting merciful Mother Mary. And she said good-bye to the Full Gospel church and was baptized in the Catholic church.

There was also a similar case with another sister in Gwangju. She helped  build 6 underground churches for 30 years of her protestant life. She converted after receiving the grace from the Blessed Mother of Naju. Her husband said that “ You never reformed yourself for about 30 years but you were reformed by someone who is called the Blessed Mother of Naju..... ”

 Because they were arguing frequently and she hated her mother-in-law and sister-in-law, she would even turn her face away from her sister-in-law and did not look at her baby’s dirty underwear. She also had stomach disorder and had a foul odor coming from her mouth. Her mother in law would complain how her son could sleep with her. She always slept with her back facing her husband.

But her illness was not cured at the University hospital despite the medical specialists in that hospital. She repented before the Blessed Mother of Naju and the stinky odor and stomach disorder were healed. She never wore high-heels due to arthritis but it also was healed and she could wear high-heels for the first time.

The relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law turned into a close relationship as if they are real daughter and mother. She looks after her sister-in-law lovingly even washing her child's dirty clothes before going to work.  All of her life style positively and happily changed. If her husband comes home early, she is happy and if her husband comes home late, she is happy too as she can spend the time in praying while waiting for him.

Her heart before was always filled with emptiness. Despite being a protestant believer for over 30 years, she did not really know love. But Our Lady of Naju granted her be born again with love. Therefore, she brought many people to Naju, not only her family but also 18 other people who were converted on the same month, and it continues. Her mother-in-law was healed of chronic stomach disorder and her family became holy, happy and harmonious filled with love.

The Blessed Mother of Naju is love itself . There were many miraculous events that have occurred here. Many were raised from the dead, many dying recovered, numerous incurable illnesses were healed. Healing graces are important. However more important is healing of broken-families. Many who were filled with anger and resentment in their hearts became one and united in love.

There was a sister who had 3rd stage breast cancer. While she was drinking a cup of the miraculous water on the Blessed Mother's Mountain, I smelled an  aromatic fragrance of Korean style pancake.  So I said ," Oh, I am now smelling the aromatic fragrance of Korean style pancake." Many people around us also smelled it. All of a sudden, I unexpectedly said to her, " You haven't  eaten since you were young. You're supposed to eat but you haven't eaten." 

As a matter of fact, she could not eat well even after her marriage because of vomiting. Since her father passed away, she would vomit heavily including some yellow fluid.  She was completely healed at the moment she smelled the aromatic fragrance of Korean style pancake.

And the 3rd stage of breast cancer she had was also healed. It is not a big deal, She forgave her in-law's family when it seemed not possible to forgive. As I told you before we are able to be forgiven if we forgive others. Then there would be healing grace that even a lump of cancer will be go away.  Let us today forgive all.

Anyway , let's continue with the story.

When she lived in her in-law's house in a rural area, she was going to call a taxi to go to the hospital for the baby's delivery. However, her mother-in-law scolded her, " What are you talking about ?  Have the baby in the house, not in the hospital. I gave birth in the house." So she had to give birth in the house and had to work the following day with no time to take care of her baby.

Have you heard about "Nob-Jit-Gi" ? (Cooking for workers in farming season ). Many workers are needed during rice-planting season, so she cooked alone all day long- foods for snack, lunch, another snack and dinner for the workers. No one took care of her baby while she was working so hard and eventually her baby had pus in the eyes and also developed convulsions. She took her  to many hospitals but it was difficult to treat, so she could not forgive her mother-in-law.

Therefore, she brought her daughter to Naju on children's day. She was a mentally challenged child caused by amotivational syndrome. Her daughter was healed of her illness at the moment she just playing near the water of Naju. She was not even drinking the water nor bathing in it.

Dear fellow pilgrims !  All you have to do is bring anyone.

Healing graces from Jesus are different that some are slow and some are  instantly happens.

Her case was granted on the spot - the lump of physical cancer and also the cancer lump that contaminated her soul were completely healed when she  repented  while wailing loudly. Since that moment, she really took good care of her parents-in-law with true love as if they were her own parents up until they died.

To where should we go when we share the love for one another like this ?  Yes , going to heaven ?  Therefore, we have to want to meet Jesus as a sinner by forgiving one another.

When I gained a new life after preparing for death, people said " God gave you a new life because you are good person, so we may believe in God through your experience.""  By hearing this, I did not say " It is not true! "

Numerous people said " you look like a fairy sent from heaven or a rose from underground .

I did not disagree but instead I just inwardly thought. " Oh I see. I did not bother anyone so far. I really wish for other's happiness even though I am uncomfortable in my life." So I thought that I gained a new life by attributing it to my good deeds.

And when I heard ," We believe God really exists by looking at you who was raised from death. But I never thought even for once that I was a sinner.

One day God enlightened me when I was praying during the retreat. How did God enlighten me ? By giving me the wisdom that I craved.On that day, I was praying and ardently asked for my spiritual growth.And then, all the events and memories that I never ever thought were brought back in a panorama as if I was watching a movie.

There were many suitors who followed me a long time ago. One pharmacist who fell in love with me became almost dejected in the middle of pursuing me. One of his girlfriends already prepared 3 keys. (House key, car key and a key to a scheduled to be opened Hospital or clinic, and pharmacy ) she was waiting for him to marry her at the time. But he wanted to marry me who was from a poor family and uneducated. He was a good pharmacist and also tall, good looking and from a rich family.  There was no apparent defect with him, therefore, most of the ladies tried to grab him.

Then one day, he came to me and said " I received your consent to the marriage " What consent to marriage?" I asked puzzled. He told me that I permitted this marriage when he told my parents that he will marry one who is from the poorest family, the most uneducated in the world but the kindest person in the world. Upon hearing this absurd explanation, I felt embarrassed. I said to him, " What are you talking about ?" It is not right for you to ignore my personality though I am a fool, uneducated and not from a rich family.  I cannot live with you who is disrespectful  and ignore my intentions and personality "

We do not ignore other's personality whoever they may be...

Whether poor, however incapable, we have to respect their personalities.

In the meantime, When I gave Ramen (Instant noodle) to Bong grand-father who was blind, he said to me " I don't eat Ramen " then people started scolding  him telling him that in the world you cannot choose this or that , just eat no matter what kind of food you are given such as Ramen, Jjam-bong (Chinese style spicy noodle).

So I spoke to them " Don't speak carelessly. We each have our own personalities, so we do not disdain other peoples' personalities."

We are all equal in the Lord whatever we are, high or low. That's why we must respect one another.

Whether we are uneducated or good educated, life is the same . As we grow old  in our usual and daily life, It is not easy to distinguish anymore who is uneducated or who finished graduate school. More importantly, we just strive to know God and follow Him.

Isn't it ? What is most important for us is to know God. We will use all kinds of ways to learn if we could go to heaven because of that knowledge.

What do we need to go to heaven ? Faith and love. Only faith is not enough. So we need to be born again so that we can make a new start with love.  Then the Lord will grant us a resurrected life.

Less than 7 days after I gave birth to my youngest son ( time for postnatal care ), my mother-in-law came and instructed me to buy some rice. (the only place to sell rice was at the rice-mill at the time) But there was no rice at the rice-mill. So I had to buy rice from the other rice-mill and on my way home , I found myself bleeding from my uterus. I was bleeding copiously. The blood gathered in my shoes. I had terrible pains. It was unbearable. But I never hated my mother-in-law despite what I went through with such a severe and hard training.

I invested and co-estabilished a knitting machine factory together with other people. A chief of the factory cheated me in order for him to take my money. In the beginning, two male co-workers were needed because of the license in  operating the knitting machine.

Both of them loved me. So I couldn't bear to work there. I was thinking at the time , men are all thieves. So I decided to quit and spoke to them when they can  return my money . They promised to give my money back so I went to there to get the money on the promised date.

But I never hated them even they did not show up. But one of the wife and his mother hit me cruelly because  they did not want to return my money to me.

Once I took a job working under very good conditions in a hair parlor.  I had to quit soon because of the men. Also I had to quit in the middle of work and without any money.   I had no time to make money because I had to take care of my mother. And I was tired of men anyway.

During the retreat I prayed to please grant me to grow spiritually and wished to come closer to Jesus.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

Let us ardently ask that we grow spiritually. I believe the Lord surely will accept your plea.

While I was asking for my spiritual growth, some volunteer came to me and " Are you sick ?  Let me pray for you ?. Then I said No, I want to grow spiritually." Physical growth is useless."

My word and behavior appeared arrogant to her and she disappeared.

I continuously prayed for my spiritual growth, I suddenly could see my past life. Since that moment, I started repenting after realizing my faults that because of me, people became dejected. Because of me, many men committed a sin. Because of me they became heartbroken.

I had no idea I was responsible that many became heartbroken. I asked myself, " Since when did he  know me ? I never touched him. Not even a handshake. I had no relationship with him  !" So I never thought it was my fault. I cried and cried again when I realized that it was all my fault and said, "  Lord !  please forgive this sinner, forgive this sinner ."

I was not aware that I was crying aloud. I even bit my lips in order not to scream.

I hope you will cry whenever you feel like it and do not be disturbed if anyone was crying around you. Because they are now in the state of healing and repenting.  So do not say," get away Satan" and sprinkle them with the holy water.

There are persons like this, during the vigil in the chapel. One of the pilgrims who was not able to move his waist was crying and repenting at the same time.  So I was praying for him as I realized what was happening to him. Suddenly someone was sprinkling holy water and doing exorcism prayer. 

So I said " Dear sister, he is not possessed by the devil but he is now repenting by crying. This is a healing sensation. " After that his waist was completely healed.

Healing is granted by sincere tearful repentance. So don't be ashamed.

Someone because of embarrassment, suppresses crying. Some brother to avoid embarrassment, would  bite his lips so that he won't cry aloud. When we are  close to tears and want to cry, all the hardened hearts and deep wounds in our hearts will be melted away as we wail and cry as much as we want.

However I bit my lips tightly, and just wept silently in order not to scandalize others and I prayed inwardly,  "  Lord ! forgive me ,  Lord forgive me." At that moment I heard the voice of Jesus 3 times while the black curtain was moving saying," The door to heaven is opened, the door to heaven is opened,  the door to heaven is opened."

Then I realized Ah ! I am a grave sinner ! How many have committed sins because of me !  and I repented crying aloud. And I became a tiny soul and prayed, " Jesus , open my heart wider , open my heart wider." I cried out twice and then the light from heaven descended. I believe that when we repent of our sins and cry out, the door to heaven will be opened for us and the black curtain will be removed. Today also the black curtain will be removed.

The Lord will heal our bodies and souls by turning this heavy rainfall into a waterfall of mercy. Many graces will be poured on you all.

I will now relate something ridiculous about me.

When I was a member of 4-H (head, hands, heart, health)-(rural improvement campaign), the person in charge of enlightenment was Julio. (my husband now)  The group was scheduled to take a summer vacation.  I had money problems  so I did not  like to go on  the  trip.  I was the vice-chair for the district & county of the  women's group.

The problem was that all the members of our district won't join this trip if I didn't go with them. I was pretending that I will join the trip so, I let them get in the bus first.  I was about to leave for home but Julio and the provincial vice-chair insisted that I go with them. Eventually, I could not avoid going with them.

And the provincial vice-chair even bought a swim suit for me. I really didn't want to show my any parts of my body, but she forced me to wear that swim suit. I was obliged to wear the swim suit. I put a big towel around my body and borrowed a straw hat, and wore sun-glasses to hide my whole body. I then followed the provincial vice-chair and went in the water and had fun in the water with her. Later, I saw Julio and some men approaching us. So I yelled to them, " Don't come near me, don't do that. But one of the men kept coming and chasing me. So I crossed over the safety line and he came to me and grabbed my beach tube.  At that moment I screamed out and then he just ran away.

I could not swim at all, so I just started to sink . I felt my feet touched the bottom. I just hit it like a spring by flapping my hands.

Looking back on it now, it was not my own deed but the Lord who saved me at that time. People say that when someone sinks down 3 times, they will die.

For the second time I hit the bottom and came up again over the water. At that moment Julio came and put me on the tube. He swims well because he was in the navy. (In Korea, all the nation’s youth who became at the age of 20-year-old compulsively join the military for about 2 years according to the involuntary draft system, it was about 3 years long time ago)

 But I was still embarrassed to be with a man, so even in that very dangerous situation when I could have died, I was still thinking about how I could protect myself from this man." I will do something if you touch me ." I said to him.

In the middle of pulling me up on the tube, his hand touched my body, so I cried out " You're  a thief ! I kept shouting, "You are a thief !to the one who was trying to  save me . I have mysophobia (abnormal fear of contamination). I kept screaming to Julio, " You are a thief , a thief ! Actually he was trying to save me. People at the time found it hard to understand the situation. So I explained that because Kim's (Julio) hand touched my body, so he is a thief.

He just touched my swim suit and not my skin.  But eventually, I married the one whom I called  a thief. He wasn't a thief though but the savior of my life. I blame my severe mysophobia.

Our team always won  first place in the competition in Jellado province for 13 years.  I became famous but it was also prepared by the Lord. I had interview with a TV program and appeared in some news paper and also appeared in the short news program.

I was at one time a conductor for the choir of our team although I could not even sing a song.

We fully understand that God is doing everything.

God gave me a chance to be a conductor before a big audience as a preparation to use  me later as His instrument in working for the Blessed Mother. I also  received many different kinds of awards and even enjoyed a parade.

Then, the chief of the agricultural extension office said " Let us pair together a capable staff and capable a member of 4-H. " Then they intentionally arranged  to make both of us become close to each other..

What I am talking about in this long story is that I was enlightened by acknowledging my faults that many people around me committed sins because of me.

And the Lord started bestowing many graces as soon as I shed tears of repentance. It was actually grace.

It was not the great grace of my new life but this was more great graces for me.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

Physical healing is grace. But the true grace is to find the Lord and the Blessed Mother spiritually through spiritual repentance.

Today, I hope you will receive the true grace . Amen !