The excerpts from Julia Kim’s Testimony  
on March 7, 2015

How we speak, act & think makes results

as different as the earth & sky.

Praise Jesus ! Praise the Blessed Mother !

Our Lord granted me (Julia Kim) the grace to speak to you today even though I couldn't speak for a few days.

I have never delayed nor put off my work as people say to me " You are in one place one second, and before we know it you are someplace else!"  But now I can't do that anymore because I have a hard time controlling my body well.

Today, I quickly dressed myself in a Hanbok (Korean traditional clothes) in order to come here today and meet all of you as soon as possible (ASAP).  I hope that all of my efforts that I have offered up will flow into you in the form of Graces & I in turn, can return all the glory to Our Lord & the Blessed Mother.

In 1989, I had a hysterectomy.  Normally, when a woman gets pregnant, their stomach gradually grows, but, on the contrary, when I offer the pains of reparation for abortions, my belly instantly swells & I gain 8 - 10 kilograms.  Since I have been constantly offering these pains, my intestines became adhered to my uterus.  That is why I had no choice but to remove my womb.  Before the surgery, a doctor asked me, "When was the last time I gave birth?"  I replied "It's been over 10 years."  Then the doctor said "Hey lady, don't try to fool me!"

A normal uterus is about the size of a fist, but because of my pains of reparations for abortions, mine had swollen to the same size of a woman's who had just given birth.  That's why the doctor said to me "What a shame that you had an abortion recently."  Who could understand all these things?  Even my husband Julio said to me, "You won't have to offer up the pains of reparations for abortions anymore since you no longer have your uterus!"

 How can we completely understand the works of God?

  I felt rather sorry than good because, fewer people who have committed the sin of abortion will now be saved if I stop suffering the pains of reparations for abortions.

If I agreed with my husband and thought, "That's right, Our Lord won't grant me the pains anymore," God might not grant me any more pains of reparations for abortions, rather I said, "We have no way of knowing how God works."  So, I then started to suffer the pains of reparations for abortions 15 days after I had my hysterectomy.

It was fine that the pains only blew out my stitches & then the scar at the site of my surgery reopened at that time.  However, it was worse this time because I had had surgery this time for spondylolisthesis (which is the forward displacement of one of the lower lumbar vertebrae over the vertebra below it or on the sacrum which is a large triangular bone at the base of the spine & at the upper, back part of the pelvic cavity) & spinal stenosis (which is, a condition due to the narrowing of the spinal cord causing nerve pinching which leads to persistent pain in the buttocks, limping, lack of feeling in the lower extremities, and decreased physical activity.  More specifically, there are several different forms of lumbar spinal stenosis.) that had gotten so much worse than before.  The doctors stabilized my spine with metal pins and detached my nerves one by one.  I started to offer up the pains of reparation for abortions every day after I had had spine surgery.  I also had to undergo another surgical procedure 3 days later because I suffered complications as a painful side effect.

Let me also take this opportunity hearer and now to offer my apologies to the people who came to visit me at the hospital but were turned away without meeting me.  Despite my treatments, I had a relapse into a worsening condition.  That's why the hospital prevented me from receiving visitors & confined me to taking complete & absolute rest.  That meant "NO VISITORS".  I avoided taking pain killers & sleeping pills even though I couldn't sleep because I wanted to offer up my physical pains.  The nurses took exception to this and said that "What you are doing is so foolish, because, in order to heal, you need to sleep even if you don't take the pills.  Furthermore, you need to take the pain killers to reduce the the pains & increase your immunity level."

The doctors recommend that people who have had spinal surgery must avoid eating rapidly because it over-burdens the spine.  Can you just imagine the pains I would have suffered, even while I was offering up the reparations of abortions the very next day after my spinal surgery?

 We are now commemorating the Lenten Season.  Lent is a time of graces, and a time for us to open our hearts wide to welcome Our Lord.  If we refuse to open our hearts, Our Lord can't enter and dwell in us.  This makes Jesus & His Blessed Mother sorrowful because even though They call us at every moment "My beloved children!"   And "My Priest' whom I can put in My eyes without feeling any pain!", people still don't do Their will.  That is why my pains are more intense during this Lenten Season.

While I was in the hospital after spinal surgery, I tried to exercise while receiving an IV, but after I was discharged, I could hardly stand, let alone walk.  I should've gotten better, but there was no improvement at all.  So, I accepted it, thinking, "these are the pains for the repentance of many souls during this Lenten Season."  I offered up these pains & the pains of bleeding during my surgery for all of you, hoping your souls and bodies would be healed completely through my sacrifice.  If there is anyone who you can't forgive, take them (Spiritually) in front of Our Lord & the Blessed Mother and there, you have to forgive them.

According to the Gospel of Matthew, Ch. 18:18 "Whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven."  So if we don't forgive others, God won't forgive us either.  That's why we have to forgive others even for our own sake.

Many people don't notice the beams in their own eyes but try to remove the specks in their neighbor's eyes..  Let us reflect on ourselves, placing our hands on our chest and meditate whether or not we also admitted our faults quickly & rushed to Our Lord for His repentance.  There are numerous souls who have gone to Hell for slandering and judging others.  However there is one thing that hangs around us with annoying persistence, and that is our habitual excuse and justification to cover our faults to maintain our self-esteem & face-saving.

To lead your family members & neighbors well, we must first, change ourselves.  Jesus will be heartbroken if we act smart in our wrongful ways by always making excuses to justify our faults, & calculating the outcome in a human way.

  Admitting our faults and making a new start.

The Lord God gave this order to Adam: "You are free to eat from any of the trees of the garden except the tree of Knowledge of Good and Bad."  Next, HE asked, "Adam, you have eaten from the tree of which I had forbidden you to eat" but Adam replied, The woman you put here with me - she gave me the fruit from the tree, and so I ate it."  Eve also said, "The serpent tricked me into it, so I ate it."  These sentences have no faults but these are deceitful behaviors to shift their own responsibilities to others without repentance in mind for their faults and asking for forgiveness in spite of violating the orders from God.

Those who do not live like this are extremely few in number.  That's why Adam & Eve were punished; they didn't admit their faults, they resorted to giving excuses, and tried to justify their faults.  People have gone to great lengths using lies to cover their misdeeds.  We must consider this all of the time & remain fully awake.  For if we aren't awake, we forget to put it into practice.  For this reason Jesus & The Blessed Mother are speaking the same words repeatedly even to the extent of vomiting blood.

No matter how many times Our Lord & The Blessed Mother say to us, we can't understand what it is they are saying unless we open our hearts.  Even though I  continue saying “let us not make any excuses or try to justify our faults, but admit our faults & start anew again.”  Upon seeing those who seldom admit their faults, I feel there is a long way for them to go to become changed, but thinking, ‘I have to lead them to Heaven’, I continually and repeatedly give them advice.

I advised them with love but they started making excuses, saying "No, that's not…."

They even fell into telling lies in order to justify their faults.  This excuse is how slaves act.  It is very significant for us to accept our faults right away & admit them.  For instance, when faults are committed by the religious, don't you think Jesus would say" You are my spouse, so I give my forgiveness"?  Of course not.  If they, a true spouse of Jesus, were to pray the liturgy of the hours, take part in the Mass, try to offer up all things beautifully, live with harmony within the community, and arm themselves with the Five Spiritualities, everything would be in order hanging on the eternal tree of life & produce fruits, so that they would be next to Jesus on the last day.

We should be good servants and wash others' feet just like Jesus did to His disciples.  But, the problem is that some of us are easy to exult with haughty faces & mannerisms while being in a higher place.  We must not reign over others even if people make us stand in a higher place.  But, it happens countlessly in our daily lives.  By doing so, how can we claim to love Jesus & The Blessed Mother?  How painful are the Sacred & Immaculate Heart's of Jesus & Mama Mary watching this?  It is very important to practice the prayer of life every day.

While practicing turning my daily life into prayers, I never neglected or passed by anything regardless of how trivial it may have appeared to be.  While I was working as a hairdresser, I worked for my clients from 7 A.M. to midnight.  While working, when pilgrims came to pray in front of the statue of the Blessed Mother of Na-Ju during a night vigil, I would prepare some food for them, thankfully and continued to work for 18 days without sleep.  In the winter time, I used to go to bed after 2 A.M. after adequate preparations for the next day.  At that time, briquettes were used for heating, & I used to wake up early enough to ensure that they were indeed properly heated regardless of how tired I was.  It was hard but, I did it with pleasure because I thought of this hard work as the work and heart of a martyr.  This was very important.

Whatever we do in our daily lives, the circumstances do not change regardless of how we do it.  Either by complaining about it, or doing it with a thankful heart.  But, how we speak, act, and think makes the results as different as the earth & sky

Presently, briquettes are no longer used for heating.  But, if we take the time to meditate on the principle of using old briquettes to make fires on newer ones, we could follow Our Lord & Blessed Mother in a modest & simulated way as Their helpers and supporters.

So from now on, we should try to remove all of our bad habits through the Season of Lent, so that we can all be revived on the day of the Resurrection.  And, Our Lady of Na-Ju will beam with joy on the 30th Anniv. of Her Weeping of Tears.

Let us surely meet Jesus as sinners

When we read Matthew Ch. 18:6 - 9, "Whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to sin, it would be better for him to have a great millstone around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.  If your hand or foot causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away.  It is better for you to enter into life maimed or crippled than with two hands or two feet to be thrown into eternal fire.  And if your eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away.  It is better for you to enter into life with one eye than with two eyes to be thrown into fiery Gehenna."

I have prayed that we live a life based on the passage in scripture such as this.  We must reflect on ourselves, especially during this Lenten Season.  If we make faults, we should not only say: "I am sorry" but we should also say "I made mistakes

(or faults), but I will make a new start!"  That's because without committing to a firm new resolution to make a new start, we can and might make the same mistakes very easily over and over again.

Our studies alone can't take us to Heaven, and it doesn't mean that the uneducated can't go to Heaven either.  Even though we may have ingested many good words, it's equally important to ensure just how much we have tried our best to correct ourselves. But, since my belly is now becoming normal unlike other times when it swelled up while I was suffering the pains of abortions & obscenities as I did a while ago, I feel that you have repented of your sins well today.

Therefore, I'm sure that these Naju pilgrims here today will be blessed with a Spiritual Lenten Season by the repenting of your sins.  If we don't become sinners, we can't meet Jesus.  So, as it says in the Book of Matthew Ch. 9:13 "I did not come to call the righteous but sinners".  So too must we be awake at every moment (to be humble).

Although Adam & Eve resorted to making excuses to justify their faults, they did not tell lies.  But, in this day and age, there are many people who tell vivid lies to justify their faults.  We must be aware of this.  As you know the nails from close children go deeper into the Hearts of Jesus and the Blessed Mother.  Yes, you know it, so you can repent.  As Mary Magdalene, who was about to be stoned to death because of her sins, sincerely repented and met Jesus as an unworthy sinner, and thereafter became a Saint.  Likewise, let us also surely meet Jesus as unworthy sinners.  Furthermore, let us become twin brothers and sisters of Jesus and the Blessed Mother, & thus carry out our share of work of saving this world of misery.  With the dignity of being Mother Mary's helper and a person who has been saved and transcends the world, let us be strong and go forward valiantly.

When I was a Catechumen, Jesus came to me and told me "Now, fly" so I flew with Him, but on the way, I fell and looked at Jesus.  He said, "Hold my hands," so I could continue to fly holding His hands.  After that, He released me, but I continued flying.  On my way up, I noticed a lot of tombs below.

Jesus said, "blow your breath."  I puffed and blew, and then the tombs opened. 

He said, "blow your breath again," I puffed and blew, and then the bones became knitted together.

Again He said, "blow for breath again," I puffed and blew, then the flesh gathered.

Again He said, "blow your breath again," I puffed and blew, then the person became alive and started breathing.  After that, when I blew my breath to that dying person, the person became alive.

In the cold weather, on the Blessed Mother's Mountain, one man was dying, so I breathed into him and he became revived.  Then there was a lady who was over 90 years old who couldn't breathe as if she were dead, so I brought her to my room and breathed into her, she then became alive and is still living well to this day.

I saw Jesus blowing His breath into me.  So, it is not the work of me.  The Lord just used me as His instrument for a short time.  Today I hope Jesus and the Blessed Mother will blow Their breath of Love, along with the breath of the Holy Spirit into you so that your souls and bodies may be healed and always remain with you until the day comes that we gather here again. 

 Thank you.  I love you.  I love you all by offering up my life for you. Thank you.

Because it was difficult for Julia Kim to both stand up or sit down after her spine surgery, 
she met all the pilgrims together by blowing out the breath of Jesus to them instead of meeting 
them individually. Through this, many received abundant graces and healing.