The excerpts from Julia Kim’s Testimony  
on July 4, 2015

To forgive someone is not really easy,
but it is possible if we totally renounce ourselves.

Praise Jesus! Praise The Blessed Mother!

It is nice to see you all. I hope you who came here to share the love of Jesus and the Blessed Mother to offer up your bodies and hearts completely? to Jesus through the Blessed Mother today.

Then, Jesus and the Blessed Mother would come and touch(pat) each and everyone of you saying, “Umm~(nodding head – Julia imitating Jesus’ gesture) My beloved sons and daughters~”

On June 11, 2011, I felt a call from the Blessed Mother and went to the Blessed Mother’s Mountain and I entered into ecstasy during prayer and saw so many people leading sinful lives committing sins in a dark tent. It was inexpressible.

I have often told you about it, but now, it has become more serious. When people indulge in lechery enjoying pleasure regardless of age or gender, the Sacred Heart of Jesus was opened and a piece of flesh fell out, and blood was flowing down from It. I cried a lot.

“Lord! I would like to participate in the sufferings.” “Do you mean that you would participate in this pain for the repentance of sinners?”

“Yes, I would participate in the pain if it could be the consolation to the Lord and the Blessed Mother, and if only sinners would repent of their sins.” Then, so many people threw chestnut burrs, and things like that, at me and I was bleeding from the mouth, and my underwear was soaked with blood due to bleeding from the womb. It means that I not only saw these in the vision but also received the pains in actuality.

Sometimes I received sufferings in reparation for the sins of homosexuality in my anus and it was torn to a length of 3-5cm.

Imagine it dear pilgrims! How painful it would be when you have pain on that part. Pains on other parts of the body is nothing compared to the pain on the anus.

When the Sacred Heart was bleeding and the chestnut burrs hit my face in my vision, it really hurt. But it is less painful than this present pains from my torn ligaments in the hand.

Today, I would like to tell you more about forgiveness.

I found my son who was lost.

I believe that all of you who are here now forgive someone well. However, it is not easy to forgive when each of us don’t think that everything is caused by “my fault” and our hearts become blunted and we can’t share true love with others. There is a parable of the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32. The younger son asked his father to give him a share of the property, then he went to a far country and squandered his money in loose living and spent everything he had.

Guess what did he spend the most of his money on? It is the same now as in old times. He squandered his money on girls at the bars and the girls were crazy about him.

And when he had spent everything, a severe famine arose in that country and he went to work at a swine farm. He was so starved and tried to eat the fruits of the honey locust tree that the swine ate but he could not eat them.

Jesus showed me the scene. The younger son used to pay prostitutes a lot of money, in so doing he thought that they would help him if he visited and asked them to help him. But he was rejected wherever he visited. People just shut the doors and pushed him down because he looked like a beggar. No one gave him anything.

Then he came to himself and said, ‘How many of my Father’s hired servants have enough bread and have some to spare, and I perish here with hunger. I will go back to my father and say to him, “Father, I’ve sinned against heaven and before you; treat me as one of your hired servants.” ’ And he arose and came to his home. His father was so worried about the younger son and was expecting him every day. One day, his father saw him, and ran and embraced him.

And the son said to his father, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Please treat me as one of your hired servants.” However, the father said to his son, “No. I found my son who was lost.” Then he said to his servants, “Take him to a bath and put the best robe on him and put a ring on his hand, and bring the fatted calf and kill it, and let us eat and be merry.”

His elder son was in the field and when he came near the house after finishing his work, he heard music and dancing. And he called one of the servants and asked what was going on and the servant said to him, “Your brother has come back, so your father is having a feast to celebrate it.” He was angry and refused to go in. Then, his father came and entreated him, but he answered his father, “Father! These many years I have served you and I never disobeyed your command, yet you never gave me a kid that I might make merry with my friends. But when my brother, who had squandered all his property, came back, you killed for him the fatted calf and held a banquet for him.” Then, his father said to him, “Well, son! You’ve always been with me. ”

Since the good robber repented of his sin on the last day and he entered Heaven, one of my acquaintances said, “Why do I bother to go to church? I will be saved on the last day anyway, like the good robber was.” But every single day, many people die due to incidents and accidents, yet did they know that they were going to die so suddenly? We can never be saved with such a lax attitude.

Let’s not think negatively with prejudices. It is not really easy to forgive someone but it is possible if we lay down ourselves completely or entirely. A long time ago, when my husband Julio who used to work in Naju, was assigned to Yeongam office, my husband and I went to Yeongam with a sister-in-law and rented a room there, and then when we were boarding a bus at the bus station at Yeongam, I heard a man swearing hard and I wondered if there was a whore around there and looked back, he said to me “You, dirty slut!”

The beating that caused miscarry and unconditional forgiveness.

And he said, “Must kill such a bitch.” I was so surprised and said to him, “How could you say that to me? Do I know you?” Then he threw me down to the ground, saying “Must kill this bitch!” My husband, Julio was behind me at that time, and if he'd been any other husband, he would probably have said, “Hey! What the hell are you doing?” and have slapped his face.

But Julio is too gentle and he just said, “She is my wife.” And it made him even more suspicious and he blamed me for being a home wrecker. He kept beating me saying, “Must kill this bitch.” Then he kicked me hard, so I fell down on the road. My sister-in-law also said, “He is right. She is my sister-in-law.” But it didn't help and Julio left there to report to the police, so I was beaten almost to death.

A crowd of onlookers gathered at the scene. The buses stopped and some people got off the bus to see what was going on. The man said to me, “Such a bitch has to be crushed at the toilet.” I struggled not to be dragged to the toilet and not only my clothes but also his leather jacket got torn.

But when he saw my ID card and checked my age at the police station, he fell on his knees and said, “Please forgive me. I have a 19 year-old sister. I found a girl who looked like 19 years old and who was with an older man, so I just wanted to teach her a lesson.” Then I remembered what he had said while he was beating and kicking me: “The wife and children are crying at home and you bitch, home wrecker, should die.”

I forgave him saying, “I forgive you in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.” The police officers said that I was out of my mind. At that time, I miscarried my baby and was bleeding, but I didn’t tell my husband about it. You remember that I was forced to have an abortion in my fourth month of pregnancy at the maternity clinic even though I claimed that the baby was alive, don’t you?

I became a total wreck in body after the abortion and I heard that if I had another pregnancy and took good care of myself, then my health would improve. So, I was three months pregnant at that time. If I said that I had miscarried at the police station, what would have happened to the man? (Pilgrims: He would have been charged with murder.) Yes, But I always put others before myself. Would his mother tell him to do that? Of course not.

I forgave him because I wanted him to repent of his wrongdoings and become a new man. However, if I punished him, what benefits would I get? O even if I got compensation from him, could I live well with the money? I didn’t even know him but I entirely forgave him and prayed for him.

By the way, after that incident, one day, when we went to the bus terminal to visit my mother in-law’s house, we heard someone called us “Hyungnim, Nunim(elder brother-elder sister- these titlings are used among very close and familiar relationship in Korea) and rushed to us. It was the very man who had beaten me half-dead.

Since then, he bought the bus tickets for us whenever we went to the terminal, as he was the ticket agent there. So we could ride buses for free for my travel but it is more important that he became a new man than the occasional savings in bus fare. Let’s forgive others like this though many people in this world would not forgive one another even for trivial things.

Let’s forgive others instead of blaming them under all circumstances.

If I had not been beaten by him I would have had a healthy baby. Since then I kept having miscarriages. But I didn’t blame him at all. And when I was pregnant with my third child, I stayed in bed all the time. Since the 7th month of my pregnancy, labor pain started and it continued until the 10th month of my pregnancywhen I gave birth.

When I was in the 9th month of pregnancy I went to the oriental medicine clinic and the herbal doctor said that I was already impossible to give birth. So, I went to see a doctor and the doctor said that I needed to give birth by inducing labor. I told my mother-in-law about it. My mother-in-law was an intelligent woman. She stayed in hospital for a month to give birth to her son, Julio, in Tokyo, Japan while my father-in-law was attending Waseda University for his studying abroad.

So, I expected that she would understand me but she disapproved of my giving birth by inducing labor and I was told to go back home right away. I obeyed her and came back home though I felt contractions every five or three minutes. I could give birth in the 10th month of pregnancy with the help of herbal medicine which my mother got from the oriental medicine clinic. However, my baby was born covered with the herbal medicine on the head, and I lost a lot of blood and almost died.

Well, everyone! Although it is not easy, if we offer up ourselves entirely to the Lord and to the Blessed Mother, we could do anything without blaming others. And from now on, we shall make people say, “Indeed! The children called by Jesus and the Blessed Mother who appeared in Naju are not like other people.” Spreading false rumors rashly without looking into them is to destroy our merits that have been accumulated. And it is important to respond in a simple way.

Let us welcome Jesus as sinners.

Julia Kim delivering her testimony sitting on a chair due to her severe sufferings

If we are armed with the Five Spiritualities of Naju and always practice them, we can go straight to Heaven. Even though I say this repeatedly if you are not armed yourselves with the Five Spiritualities of Naju, there will be nothing that I can do. So, let us not believe false rumors which were spread rashly and not jump to judgment. At least we, who love Jesus and the Blessed Mother, should verify the facts.

If we gossip about others and commit sins with our mouths, what will happen? The maggots which cannot even be burned by fire and don’t die, will come out from our mouths and if we don’t repent of our sins and go to Hell, they eat us away and no one can withstand it. So, we should never go to Hell.

So, we have to arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities of Naju till the end of our lives; 1.Amen, 2.Turning our lives into prayers, 3.Offering up to God all our joys, sorrows, and difficulties, 4.Semchigo (Self-denial for the love of others), 5.It was my fault. “It was my fault” is important, but people always blame others. If we admit that everything was entirely our faults and be armed with the Five Spiritualities of Naju and follow the messages of the Lord and the Blessed Mother, we will go straight to Heaven.

Let’s not waste time, everyone. Don’t think that we have much time and let’s spend the precious time meditating on the Lord and the Blessed Mother and renounce ourselves again and again so that we may forgive others. We can forgive everyone entirely. We can make it, if we do it with the love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother.

If we don’t deny ourselves entirely and think that we are right, we can’t be sinners. However, if we ourselves become sinners, we can welcome Jesus as sinners. Then, Jesus will come and give the love that He gave Mary Magdalene to us who claim that we are sinners. So, let’s welcome Jesus as sinners. Amen!

Pilgrims listening to Julia Kim's testimony