The excerpts from Julia Kim’s Testimony
on April 2, 2016

Julia Kim receives blessing from three priests before she speaks.

Believing without seeing is called the true blessed.  
However, seeing is believing!

Praise the Lord! Praise the Blessed Mother!

It’s nice to see you. God bless you all. You know how great the love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother is, don’t you? We can’t measure the great love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother. People tend to think that being rich or getting healed from cancer or any other illnesses are only graces but it is important to know how we accept the grace we received from the Lord.

You might have felt miserable and discouraged so many times in your life, but if we consider this as a form of grace from the Lord and the Blessed Mother and think positive, instead of thinking ‘Why my life is so miserable like this?’ then everything will become new again and we could be truly joyful to enjoy Heaven on the earth gracefully.

You might have suffered in your lives, but if you think, ‘This must be the Will of the Lord for giving me such a great love!’ instead of thinking, ‘Why does He give me such suffering even though I have tried to lead a good life’ and offer it up graciously to the Lord. By offering it up like this, God will give you greater blessing.

I have told you about the story that three young men with sticks beat me. The owner of the salon where I worked without pay was the one who instructed the three young men to beat me up. Because these three men beat me up, it tantamount that by doing so, I became the cause of their brutal sinning. (anno: she always think that everything is her fault, so she thought that they committed sins because of her), I thought, ‘What could I do to make people stop committing sins because of me?’ Finally I decided to change my job to making fashionable clothes, which were exported to Japan. I knew there were people who were working there resigned quickly from their jobs because the work was strenuous causing unbearable shoulder pains. In spite of this, I continued working there.

I was so glad that I didn’t come across men again (because many men fell in love with Julia so she always had to run away), and because I was not paid my salary, I became short of money soon as I need money for the mutual assistance society. I was left with little choice but to quit that job to join the handicraft shop.

However as soon as I worked there, I suffered pains in my eyes, head, ears and all of my body and I got totally exhausted. And besides, the boss wanted me to visit customers and make presentations. I could accept it, thinking as if I was not in pains, but it was so hard for me who was too shy even say, “Hello!” to make presentation in front of people and I quit my job. Then, my pains stopped right away.

It was one of those various experiences that the Lord let me experience (to understand people in the world.) One day, I walked along the way and I saw that the hand-knitting academy was teaching students with open windows because it was a hot summer. I wanted to learn hand-knitting but I was so sorry to ask my mother to pay for the academy fee. So I watched and learned from outside of the open window of the academy. Even though I listened to the lesson only once, I even learned how to count stitches (guage).

One day my aunt asked me to knit a sweater for her and while I was on my way back home after buying the balls of yarn at the wool shop, I thought that the poor people who live in the countryside also yearned learning the hand-knitting art. So I went to my hometown to gather and taught the people hand-knitting for free.

They didn’t even have money to buy the balls of wool, so I collected the old sweaters which were unwearable and untied the yarn and since it was rumpled, I spread each and every yarn over the steam of hot boiling kettle and gave it to them to use.

Though I learned the knitting lessons from the outside of the open window of the academy, renouncing my self-respect, I was so happy to teach the knitting skills to the kids and women who wanted to learn it but have no money. I taught them all day long and also gave hairdo to the people to make some money to pay for the mutual assistance society even though I was very tired. I still felt so great because I could see the people were pleased.

Try to share the things that you have with those who are hungry and share the clothes that you want to wear with those who don’t have clothes. You will really feel so happy. Then, I learned flat knitting at the academy and two instructors who watched me working said, “Let’s open the flat knitting academy together.” At their suggestion I thought that I could earn much money and let my mother live in luxury, so I got a loan and opened the academy with them.

The academy was successful and we opened the evening classes and I reinvested all the profits in the academy. That successful venture did not last long because both instructors tried to be intimate with me and I quitted the job and left them without receiving investment, let alone profits. It was the love of the Lord that I never got paid except when I gave hairdo to the people.

I have worked for a beauty salon in Go-heung for six and a half months but I did not receive my salary. They gave me a day off twice a month and even though I went to the countryside during my off-days and paid the bus fare with my own money to perm hair for 20 people and gave the the proceeds to the salon owner. And still she didn’t reimburse me even for the bus fare I paid out of my own pocket.

When I quitted my job there, the beauty salon owner gave me a wrinkled 500 won bill saying, “Miss Yoon, use this to pay this for your bus fare.” and I put it in my pocket. But when I got off the train, the money was gone. However, I just offered it up thinking, “Let’s consider it as if I gave the money to my mother.” instead of wondering to myself, “Who pickpocketed my money?” And this is also the love of the Lord!

When I was a kid, my mother used to skip meals for trading. So I gathered the sellers and cooked for them with the thought of my mother. Sellers ate a large amount of food out of my two meals I cooked. And furthermore, beggars also ate the food out of my own three meals a day.

So I sacrificed my meals so that the beggars can eat their fill. I even sacrificed meals for three days whenever the beggars brought their families along. Our house had 2 bedrooms and I let the beggars stay in the other room, and in the winter, I slept with them in my room to save firewood. Sometimes they thanked me but there were some who insisted stubbornly that they lost their belongings and even though I knew they were lying, I still gave them rice, barley and so on and soothed them, considering as though I already had consumed those grains.(The Life of Semchigo)

Despite having to skip meals whenever I sacrificed my food for them to eat, I was so happy. And one day, the beggar who stayed one night at my house stole whatever meager amount of money I had, including my other belongings, and rice and ran away while I was preparing breakfast in the morning. But I still remained glad because I thought, “Well, he just took them with him because he needed them.” And I never told my mother about it because I thought that I only did what I was supposed to do but some people pay kindness with evil still now.

Dear pilgrims!  This is the love of the Lord. Though we can’t sacrifice ourselves, let us not resent the Lord or be discouraged by the cross or every little pain that are given to us. If we say, “Lord, Blessed Mother, thank you. I will carry my cross willingly.” and carry our crosses graciously, Then we will be granted eternal happiness in Heaven on the last day. "

“Despite the state of her ovary,

she could be pregnant and bear a child…!”

There was one woman whose name was just an initial M. She had illnesses in her whole body caused by pains in her life and she was not able to bear children for 8 years. Her husband also had adulterous affairs with other women, and having them going for abortions later. He also had a car accident and bought a new one with borrowed money. Because of his superfluous lifestyle living on borrowed means, he had barely any money left for his wife’s upkeep. I felt so pitiful for her that I always consoled her and even having to lull her to sleep with my arm under her head (in order to bring some peace of mind to her troubled head). She was later healed of all her illness in Naju. But one day, a false prophet pointed at her abdomen, saying “today I will give you a baby.” Then she said that she was pregnant and experienced morning sickness. I told her “there is no baby in your womb. You should go for a gynecological consultation.” She, didn’t listen to me, but chose to be deceived by the false prophet.

A few months later, I told her again “What if there is no baby? Your family would very disappointed, thus go to a hospital.” “No, sister. My baby is moving in my abdomen. See!” I touched her belly and felt as if the baby’s was actually moving.”

I was so surprised that I thought to myself ‘Oh! I have believed what I say in spite of myself was not my words, but Jesus’. I was wrong? Jesus! What should I do?”

Then Jesus said in reply “Do not worry.” Several days later, it was found that Her pregnancy was only an illusion. It was this way that the devil used to deceive people by causing illusions like this case of false pregnancy with attendant baby movements in the victim’s belly.

That’s when she knew the fact and cried with regret. I felt pity on her and prayed over her. All of a sudden, I told her in spite of myself, “If you open your heart wide and come back to me, I will give you a baby three years later.” It was the word of the Blessed Mother (through Julia).

One day, she become sick and went to the Naju hospital for a CT scan. During the scanning, the radiographer suggested her to consult a gynecologist. Indeed, she was confirmed pregnant by then gynecologist. She returned home and verified this from her dairy that it has been actually 3 years since she had been told that she will bear a child (by the Blessed Mother through Julia)

When the baby was due, I heard from her that it was impossible for her baby to have a natural birth. At the same time, there came 3 buses packed with pilgrims from Kyeong-gi province destined to the Blessed Mother’s House. So I welcome them and spread the messages of love from the Lord and the Blessed Mother to them in the chapel, and at the same time, entrusting her to the Lord.

It was the will of the Lord that she had to go through a cesarean delivery. When her belly was incised, two big tumors were diagnosed in her womb, which would have surely caused her to miscarry during her pregnancy term. That was not all. There was full of inflammation all over her ovary. It was 100% impossible she could ever bear a child this way. That’s why doctor said in surprise, “how could it be possible for her to be pregnant with this inflamed ovary and gave birth to a child?” (Glory of the Lord was revealed)

As it was a Sunday, the chief medical doctor from the Obstetrics and gynecology department was absent. So a surgeon who was on duty that day operated on her, taking her baby out and stiching her up, leaving behind the tumors and ovary full of inflammation in her womb. However, the next miracle happened again. She became pregnant again and gave birth to a son this time!

To everyone's sorrow, however, she sent to Bishop Yoon, the Bishop of Gwangju diocese, a letter to plot against me. She bore false witness even against my eldest daughter, which caused my daughter’s family breakdown. It is still aching my heart because even my daughter suffered and went through an unfortunate state even though I am ok (I can offer it up). When people took a wrong path, how much pain Jesus and the Blessed Mother go through in Their Hearts!

The reason why she wrote the letter was inconsequential to how serious the matter had escalated. When she gave birth to her first baby, I bestowed a favor on her, letting her live in our apartment where the Blessed Mother’s statue shed tears. I gave her 250,000 won for her monthly living expenses out of my husband’s salary. Although she wanted to help me with voluntary work, she couldn’t do it because her child was so young. As soon as her child grew up thus freeing her to begin the voluntary work at the Blessed Mother’s House, she was pregnant again.

The love of God is immeasurable with human thoughts

At that time, my mother should have congratulated her on her second pregnancy. She said instead, ““Oh my! Now you've got pregnant again, just the very proper time for you to help my daughter more.” For only this expressed statement from my mother, she got deeply disappointed and made a false confession to the Naju parish priest. Thereupon, she wrote a forged letter filled with groundless words (about Naju) together with the parish priest to the Bishop of Gwangju.

By the way, you should watch out for dreams.

At that time, a woman (initial A), who was waiting for her death, afflicted with stage 4 uterus cancer and discharging blood, was healed after my bleeding from my uterus on behalf her (Julia offered up her same pain for her healing). She tried to return home after being healed, but I kept her at the Blessed Mother’s House and took care of her with good nutrition and medicines as what I told, in spite of myself should offer. If I had not done that, it would have turned out to be regrettable.

One day, she said to me, “I dreamt of the woman (initial M). She was bleeding, so I carried her on the stretcher holding with Rubino. Then you prayed for her and her blood became clean and she got healed. So, I will convince her and bring her back.” But I said unconsciously. “Don’t do that, you will be convinced (by her) “She didn’t listen to me and went on to meet M and really found that she was convinced. Consequently, she also wrote a forged letter like M’s one to Bishop Kim Nam Su, the head of Korean Bishop’s conference.

Bishop Kim questioned me the contents of the letter one by one and I explained everything. Then he accepted it amicably, saying, “Yes, yes, I knew that you were not doing any wrong.” But the Bishop of Gwangju, didn’t ask me anything at all, but condemned (Naju). Later, A who was healed of her terminal uterus cancer began bleeding again and collapsed on the second floor of the Chapel, so my mother took care of her, making porridge and brought it upstairs where she stayed. She felt sorry and went back home.

I was compassionate on her soul and I told her in spite of myself, “Come again to Naju, I will heal you”

She replied “Somebody would take care of me there. I can’t come.” And I said, “I will take care of you!” Nevertheless she didn’t come back to Naju and continued to bleed for 3years, then she passed away.

The Love of God is so various like this. (Julia reckons all these difficulties, pains and tribulations as God’s love). Until now, I have received this kind of love – love of pain-, hearing all kinds of groundless words about me.

On April 1, 2001, the Blessed Mother called all of us, saying “My beloved children who are specially called and responded with Amen! Hold my hands and go to Heaven together” and also said “You suffer pains now, but always keep in mind of the place in the Heavenly Kingdom which I have prepared for you.” The Lord and the Blessed Mother are leading us to Heaven. Why he chose us? As the Lord came to this world not to call the righteous, but to call sinners for their repentance, He chose us, not so-called educated people, but who confess to be sinners, making constant efforts to arm ourselves with Five Spiritualities to quicken virtues and go toward perfection. Therefore, dear pilgrims, be confident!

One mother superior said to the sisters in her Congregation who were going to Naju even on rental buses, "How cannot the Blessed Mother weep tears when She sees this world which is at this state of extreme disorder? It's natural for Her to weep tears! Therefore, you do not need to go to Naju because the person who believes without seeing is the really blessed person!"

When that mother superior witnessed the Blessed Mother's Tears of Blood by herself, she felt, ' I have thought that I have lived well until now, but truly I have done too much wrongs!' and fell on her knee. She became a little baby spiritually, returned to the convent after crying profusely in front of the statue of the Blessed Mother and came back again the next day. She spent her spare time watching dramas after she finished up her breviary or rosary prayers in a tearing hurry whenever the time for drama came. But she realized how wrong it was, seeing the Blessed Mother's Tears of Blood and became renewed from that day.

So, I told you that 'the person who believes without seeing is not the real blessed person' but, 'seeing is believing'. So you who responded with Amen to the Blessed Mother's call and make pilgrimage to Naju constantly to pray, are really blessed children. The Blessed Mother said, "I will help you with the power of crushing the head of the serpent". She will nurture us newly with the milk with which She fed baby Jesus. So do not worry about the faults of your past, but rush over repentantly to Her.

When we are nurtured and arm ourselves with the Prayers of Life (turning our daily lives into prayers) and Five spiritualities of Naju, we can enjoy Heaven on earth. Even though we don't know the time when God may call us, let us go straight up to heaven and enjoy eternal happiness when he calls us!