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The Excerpts from Julia
Kim’s Testimony and Her
Healing Prayer on August 5, 2017
 Praise the Lord! Praise the Blessed Mother!
Nice to meet you. You watched the video taken during the youth retreat and the camp of love conducted under the theme of “sem-chi-go” (one of the Five Spiritualities of Naju). If we live with this spirituality in our lives, we can overcome any pains and difficulties easily. When we live with it, not just with lips, we can really enjoy Heaven. I think we can go to Heaven just with this spirituality alone among the Five Spiritualities.
I think we can go to Heaven if we meditate on the Message of Love given by the Blessed Mother on Jan 10, 1988, the Feast of Jesus’ baptism. Though Jesus and the Blessed Mother have said again and again, Their children are still not living correctly and don’t accept Their Messages. Therefore, They manifested numerous Signs again and again and poured immeasurable, purest and highest signs of love in Naju.
I am a shameful sinner who cannot sit in front of you, though Peter Park said good things about me. But I sit in front of you as I responded with ‘Amen’ to the Lord’s and Blessed Mother’s call and to obey them.
That is why we should not feel jealous or envious of anyone who is in any position. Jesus called us and gave us the same grace and same love. And He granted works according to each one’s talent.
God the Father is One and we are His body. Look at the next person. We have one body, one head, two eyes and one nose. Someone looks pretty, another not so pretty, there is only this difference, but our body is organized the same way.
We can become ugly and our face wrinkled, when we become old. Don’t be too disappointed by these. Time is beyond our control. The aging process can visit earlier depending on the people. Let us offer up even these.
Paul Kim from Suwon came to Naju on June 18, 1990 and talked to us. When he joined the overnight prayer meeting in Naju and went back home on Sunday morning, his friend, who was an elder of the Protestant Church, came to him and preached about Protestantism.
Since he was a good speaker as an elder of the protestant church, Paul couldn’t win at all. So he gave the book of the Messages of Love, which has the photo of the Blessed Mother weeping Tears of Blood on the cover, to him and advised him to read it. The protestant friend brought it home. Because he thought, “nothing venture, nothing have”.
He brought the book home and placed it by his bedside. His wife was a daughter of the Protestant pastor in Jeonju. This daughter who didn’t like the Blessed Mother saw the book, Her weeping Tears of Blood, and picked it up to tear it down, asking, “Why is this here?”
The protestant friend told her, “Nothing venture, nothing have, just leave it there.” So he put it by his bedside and he had a dream. The Blessed Mother appeared to him and looked at him without any words and went away.
When he followed the Blessed Mother, She came into the liver, and he also followed her. But the liver changed into blood, so he asked her, “why is all the water stained with blood?” She answered, “this is the tears of blood I shed because of you.” He asked again, “why is it because of me?” She replied, “You excluded me, didn’t you?”
The elder was a very good man. There were a lot of prostitutes in the past, though I’m not sure if this is also the same now. When I was running a hair salon, many prostitutes also visited. Whenever a woman brought a foot there (whorehouse), they could not get out because they are made to fall into huge debt. But the elder was the one who paid off all their debts and made even them preachers.
Therefore, he thought he had led a good life and he said, “No, you did not shed this blood because of me! I did many good works for the Lord though.” The Blessed Mother answered, “You excluded me, right?” The elder was surprised, accepted the Blessed Mother’s Words and conveyed it to the Protestant pastor, who is his father- in-law, who lived in Jeonju. This pastor preached on the next Sunday that they should accept the Blessed Mother in their church also.
There is a verse in the Gospel of St. Matthew Ch 6, 22-23, “The lamp of the body is the eye.” Our eyes are not only the lamps of our bodies; they are also the lamps of our mind. We cannot walk without eyes, if our eyes, the doors of our mind, are dark, we will see the whole world in darkness. Therefore, let us totally open our eyes spiritually and physically today.
So Jesus and the Blessed Mother called us specially, nurtured us and taught us the Five Spiritualities so that we can see everything with positive eyes, not negatively. This is to bring all of you to Heaven in Mary’s Ark of Salvation.
Since we don’t meditate on the Five Spiritualities and don’t practice the “Prayers of Life”, we are easily distracted even in small matters, and of we don’t practice “sem-chi-go”, we will not respond with “Amen” and will not offer up everything graciously. We will blame everything on others and not on ourselves; this is the exclusion of both Jesus and the Blessed Mother.
Yes, or no? (Yes!) Right? (Yes!) If you think it’s right, let us not exclude the Lord and the Blessed Mother from today on. We can go to Heaven if we arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities in any situation. But if we don’t arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities and just blame on others, it’s difficult for us to go to Heaven.
Jesus said that it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for one who is rich to enter the kingdom of God. A camel cannot pass through the eye of a needle, right? To enter Heaven is so difficult to that extent, but we can go to Heaven easily through the Five Spiritualities.
Jesus and the Blessed Mother prepared us the shortcut to Heaven – the Five Spiritualities. But if we don’t practice it, hate others and quarrel with each other out of jealousy every day, how much will the Hearts of Jesus and the Blessed Mother be torn apart into pieces!
When it comes to a person who doesn’t know the Blessed Mother of Naju, it would be better. But, if those who were specially called and nurtured in person and were asked to arm themselves with the Five Spiritualities, take offence at a trifle, quarrel each other, how much the Hearts of the Lord and the Blessed Mother are broken! Their Hearts will be torn apart into pieces, right?
There were two nuns, a mother superior and younger Sister in the No-an parish church before. They couldn’t understand each other and quarrel at a trifle. How serious it was? They even turned in a petition to their superior because they fought with each other too often.
“We cannot stay together, so please either send me to other place or let her out.” Then the younger sister sent the same petition to their original convent. The mother superior came to Naju one day and I shared many things on the spirituality “sem-chi-go” on that day.
The sister heard the story, thinking ‘Ah, even a lay person lives like that, how did I who am a religious, live like now?’ and she repented, crying a lot, she returned and said, “Sister, it’s all my fault! Please forgive me, baby!” and called, “My Sister!”, “My Baby!” and cried a lot.
The Mother superior asked forgiveness for all her inconsiderate and domineering attitude to the younger Sister, crying and hugging her. The younger Sister became surprised and said, “Mother! Mother! it was all my fault, this young one challenged you boldly and trespassed against you. Please forgive me.”
Two of them hugged each other, calling each other, “Mother!” and “My daughter!” and cried a lot, built a relationship like real daughter and real mother and led their pastoral lives well!
If we deny our ego and humble ourselves, we can do it. We must be alert at all times, the moment we are a bit off guard, we allow our ego to grow bigger and bigger and become alive wriggling and keep stepping on again and again.
Today, let us get rid of our ego completely by removing its roots! Even though we step on it, nip it in the bud, it can still come up again with wriggling. So let us dig up all its roots today. Amen! (Amen!!!)
This also applies to our pride. If we are a higher class, we should become low servants like Jesus, but the world is not like that, right? The people in the secular world dominate over all people, but we should never do that.
When I was on the way from visiting my husband’s family in Gwangju, I met a volunteer who belonged to Charismatic movement at the Gwangju bus terminal. That person was groaning under a heavy load on her head and holding others things in her hands. When she saw me, she said, “Julia~ I just arrived after coming to Busan to heal their sicknesses~ Those items were from those who were healed~” I became dumbfounded looking at her boasting of herself.
When I was returning to Naju by bus, so much tears flowed down from my eyes. Most volunteers behaved like that. But volunteers should untie people’s shoes, wash their feet as servants; when they dominate people, they bring shame onto the Lord and the Blessed Mother. Then the people could not receive any grace through these volunteers.
When we die to ourselves again and again for love, and serve everyone as servants, they are healed spiritually and physically and are sanctified. But if we serve with a proud mind, we will come to dominate naturally. Therefore, we should become lower, otherwise, people will not change spiritually well through us.
When Jesus came to this world, he didn’t come to dominate people. He washed the feet of His apostles like a servant. We should humble ourselves like Jesus.
I was 4 months pregnant with my third child in October 1975. The hospital deceived me to earn more money by telling me that my baby has already died, so that I would get an abortion. So I suffered extremely and was operated again after 7 days and fell into a coma on the 8th day. I was then carried to the emergency room at Jeonnam University Hospital and died there.
At that time, Jesus asked me, “Why did you come here? There are many things to do. Go back quickly as it’s not the time yet.” So when I opened my eyes, I found myself dead and was covered with white sheet.
I became alive and the placenta came out from me after 13days. I should have died in the situation. I died and became alive again for 20 times when I count all those incidents in my life. After I was forced to have an abortion, I became pregnant again with great difficulty.
In 1976, my husband was promoted and assigned to the position of branch manager of Youngam office, I went with him to Youngam to look for a house.
When I was about to ride the bus at the Youngam bus terminal, I heard a young man swearing, “I must kill this prostitute!” I wondered if there was a whore within the area but as I looked back, I was so shocked to see this young man yelling at me!
While I was getting on the steps to ride the bus, he grabbed me by the collar and threw me to the ground. “Come on, you whore. I’ll kill you.” The young man started kicking and trampling on me. My husband Julio stopped him and said, “She is my wife!” His sister-in-law who was also with us to Youngam said, “He is right. She is my sister-in-law”. The young man did not stop beating me.
Even though both my husband and sister-in-law were with me at the same time, this young man continued to beat me horrendously. Since I was three months pregnant then with much difficulties, I had a miscarriage and at that time, I did not know God nor was I baptized.
We were dragged into the police station afterwards and the police drew up a report and confirmed that Julio and I was husband and wife and he found out that I was actually much older than he thought. He got down on his knees and asked for forgiveness. “I was wrong, please forgive me, ma’am. You looked so pretty, like a nineteen-year-old girl. If you forgive me, I will make a new start.”
He said he had a 19-year-old sister and I looked like the same age as his sister (*because the Lord even changed Julia’s appearance into a young girl when He healed her). He thought that I was having an affair with a married man. Thus he thrashed me within an inch of my life, saying “She is home wrecker, having an affair with a married man! She must be killed!”
From his words, however, “Please forgive me, ma’am. I will make a new start”, I forgave him saying, “I forgive you in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.” It was 4 years before I was baptized. (*She was a Catechumen)
I have no intention to boast of myself but to follow Mama Mary’s words “Tell people about your family you have taken care of”, I am telling you, if I would only say, “Let us practice love! Let us forgive!” people would not follow, thus the Lord allowed me to go through all these hardships first.
Imagine, even though embryo dies in the mother’s womb, a 4 months-old-embryo must require induced labor, but the doctor forced me to be operated on an abortion without anesthesia for 2 hours. After 13 days of the operation, the placenta finally came out of me. Can you imagine what had happened to me during those days? I was approaching death several times.
Though I had a lot of medical accidents, I have forgiven the doctors, never claiming them to reveal their mistakes. Even when I didn’t know God, whatever accident I had, I always thought “Yes, might be this is my destiny”, never blaming others.
If I had not forgiven him and put him to punishment, what benefit would have come to me? Even if I had gotten compensation from him, how much I would feel free to use the money? Would the young man become a better person if I could not forgive him? Of course NOT.
After the forgiveness, whenever I go to Youngam bus terminal to go to Gwangju, the young man will come close to us and call us “My elder sister! Elder brother!” and always provide us with free bus tickets. (*as he is working in the terminal)
So, shouldn’t we forgive anyone? Although I had no idea about Five Spiritualities in those days, nor knew God, I found people good and happy when I forgave them.
One day, my husband’s motorbike which was parked outside my salon was gone and we went and searched every corner for it in Naju city, but failed to find it. On the next day, a phone call from the police station told us they had found our motorbike. We went to the police station and saw two teens sitting on a long wooden bench.
I got to know that they had been in the police station since the previous night and was thinking, “Oh…They must be very hungry!” so I went out to buy some bread and milk and gave them to the teens. However, the teens didn’t receive them. I asked them “Aren’t you hungry? Don’t you want to eat?” They were hesitant to speak. The policeman said, “I put handcuffs on them.” As he had made them sit on a wooden bench with their handcuffed hands behind, they could not receive but sat still. So I fed them with bread and milk.
After the teens stole our motorbike, they started the engine by connecting a line as they had no key to the motorbike and tried to sell it in the motorbike center and were arrested there. So I asked the policeman if I could cover the expenses ourselves and set them free. The police officers thought I was out of my mind; circling their hands, pointing at their ears. (The signal of an insane person)
Dear pilgrims! We need to care nothing about that! There is no need to feel shameful as long as we follow the will of the Lord. To me, I was so happy that the police officers thought I was insane. They even gazed at my husband, casting him with sympathetic looks as if they were saying, “How pitiful and unlucky you are to have this foolish woman as your wife!”
After I had forgiven them, I asked the policeman to loosen the handcuffs from the teens and embrace them, saying “Let us not do such a thing again and live a new life now.” No matter what people said, I treated them as my own children. I can SEMCHIGO - regarded them as my sons whom I was bringing up. It was 1981 before the statue of the Blessed Mother began shedding tears.
After Her tears through the statue, one lady visited me to see the statue and said, “This house (of Julia) deserves the blessing of the tears of the Blessed Mother” I was wondering who said this and found out that she was the mother of the teens.
She was expressing her gratefulness, saying “After your forgiveness, my son stopped his wrongdoings and now he is working diligently in a factory in Seoul and goes to Catholic Church.” (Amen!) Thus his family including his mother became Catholic.
Even if we say to people, “Let’s go to Church, let’s believe in God!” it wouldn’t work. However, if we forgive each other with sincere heart and love, people will naturally follow. I will never worry about the result of what I have done. You too don’t need to worry about the result (as long as you follow the will of God).
I have forgiven even those whom I haven’t known. Whereas, will it be right if we harbor hatred with unforgiving heart and are jealous of one another in our family or within the community we belong to? It is not right, isn’t it? Thus, let us make a new start! (Amen!)
One nun confided to me, saying “My parish priest and a foreign nun fell in love with each other, the sister went to his room; what should I do?” I said to her, “Let us pray for them.” She replied, “I offered Rosary/novena, but they keep meeting!”
I said to her in reply, “Sister, let us not worry about the result and continue to pray, entrusting everything to the Lord, totally offering up to Him.” “Oh it would be right!” Then we pray to the Blessed Mother of Naju before Her statue. Finally the priest and the nun were separated and she went back to her foreign country. If we pray with complete trust and confidence, the Lord will answer it.
Let us go back to the previous story I shared. At that time I became pregnant with great difficulties after being forced to have an abortion by a gynecologist, then I had a miscarriage at the Youngam bus terminal being beaten by a young man. As you know, it is very difficult for women to be pregnant again once they had a miscarriage.
(Seeing Julia who never blamed them in those situations), someone said, “I am wondering if you are good or foolish!” I thought so too.
When my mother-in-law asked me to pay her debt she owed for her son’s (*her husband, Julio) wedding, I sold my hair salon and gave the money to her. I even paid the debt which my parents-in-law guaranteed for others, supporting my 3 bothers-in-law to be educated in universities. While supporting them, I hardly ate any meal. So my waist was 23 inches because I had to continue supporting my in-laws.
In those situations when I was forced to have an operation of abortion by a gynecologist, my body was thoroughly injured. I heard that if I gave birth to another baby and receive good postnatal care, I would recover. So, after much effort, I was barely pregnant, but had a miscarriage after being beaten by a young man at the Youngam bus terminal. Since then, I have had many miscarriages even when I only moved a little during my pregnancy.
Nonetheless, I always gave my in-laws every grain which my own mother brought me. One day while I was lying on a bed after miscarriage, my friend brought me some food and asked “Do you really want to give to your mother-in-law like that?” I answered “Yes, I want to give her my everything!” She said “Who can stop you! Others are always eager to receive even one more from their mother-in-law. I think goodness is your nature! Yes, you are real nature! Give her every dust you have.”
Young people these days can never imagine the old days wherein I lived. Many people were poor to the extent that the ones who were living in a lodging didn’t have electricity at night, because they were not allowed to use it by their landlords. My landlord only turned on the tap water when they have to use it for cooking, but turned it off at other times. Even though I said to them, "I will pay more for the water rate" they refused my suggestion. I lived in such places.
Even at night I had to work to support for my brother-in-law’s education expenses. Since they didn’t allow me to turn on the light, I had to nail a blanket on the door in order to block the light from shining through so that I could work at night. I also made rice in the morning and solved three meals with it to work more.
Then my mother bought me an electric rice cooker, which was very expensive at the time since it was first introduced to the market. There were only a few people who used it at that time, I couldn’t use anything whatever my mother-in-law didn’t have. I even brought a mortar for pounding garlic to my mother-in-law, which my mother bought for me. And I also brought a beautiful bowl from my mother to my mother-in-law, but when I visited her, she already gave them away to her daughters-in-law. Though devils can incite me to feel bad, I just do not mind (whatever she will do with it) because I already gave it to her.
The place I lived at that time is Youngam and my husband volunteered to work at Gun-seo branch in the countryside, so we moved there. I was very happy to live with old lady there. But Gun-seo was such a high-priced city compared with Naju. The bundle of young radish sold at 400 won each in Naju was quite big, but in Gun-seo, the bundle of the young radish sold at 700won each was a bit bigger than the half of its bundle sold in Naju.
I made kimchi with one bundle of young radish. I gave it to Julio and to the old landlady of the main house as she also liked watery kimchi. Although I really wanted to eat it, I gave my kimchi away as if I already ate it. I had many miscarriages and was in a lot of pain, the old lady worried about me a lot all the time saying, “(I cannot understand) Why you are in such a severe pain though the thing your couple should throw away is only your excretion.”
Though I was in such a pain, I pressed out juice of vegetables with pounding it by stones and gave Julio. The old lady saw it and asked me, “How could you live like that?” One day, she connected her telephone wire so that I could use it, and she told me that she doesn’t have anyone to call and to receive a call from.
One day, the old lady’s daughter-in-law called around 1:00 a.m. and I said to her, “I’ m sorry, she is sleeping now. What’s the matter?” Then she said “Just put her on the phone.” Since then, she called at 4:00 a.m., or 5:00 a.m. She used to call around 1:00 a.m. ~5:00 a.m. and said that her husband went on to gamble somewhere and she wanted her mother-in-law to find her husband.
I said, “How could she find her son at this late at night?” She replied, “It’s her son and she has to find him by herself.” So, I said to her, “Why don’t you treat him with love? Then he will come back home” Then she said, “You don’t even know about us.” And I said, “Please be kind to your mother-in-law.” She didn’t like me.
On February 14th, which was 4 days before my fourth baby’s due date, she came and asked us to move out so that she could move in on 15th. It snowed and was very cold. Even her mother-in-law said to her, “How could they move out so suddenly?” Since my baby was due on the 17th, I asked her to give us time to rent a new place for a month, but she flatly refused and we moved out after all.
One day, the daughter-in-law said to her husband and mother-in-law that she would commit suicide by taking rat poison. Since she repeatedly threatened to commit suicide in front of her husband and her mother-in-law, they just looked at her without stopping her. She really swallowed rat poison. Generally, people survive after taking a small amount of rat poison if they are treated at a hospital. However, she really died.
I gave birth to my fourth child two days after we moved out and that meant that I was beloved by the Lord so much. I SEMCHGO regard this as if we had moved in the warm spring and I could be happy and didn’t have to resent anyone. But if you think, “How could she ask us to move out in the cold winter?” it will only make it harder for you. Let’s arm ourselves with love and the Five Spiritualities of Naju, instead of letting it only make it harder for us. Amen!
I packed up for moving and carried our things in a handcart as I was approaching my due date. It was two days before I was due and I safely delivered after we moved out. Meanwhile, I brought my husband’s maternal grandmother home, who was 95 years old. We heard that she was treated badly by her mother-in-law.
My mother-in-law said, “My sister-in-law doesn’t even feed my mother and won’t turn on the heater even in the winter, whenever my brother is absent from home.” So, I had to take care of my husband’s maternal grandmother though it was hard for me to even look after myself. At that time, I took good care of her as well and she was impressed and said, “You are an angel from Heaven. God must have sent you here for your mother-in-law’s sake.”
In the meantime, after I was released from Chonbuk National University Hospital, the scar at the site of my surgery reopened and discharge came from it. However, I could not afford to go to the hospital because I had to support my-in-laws. So, I went to clinic near my home. They just applied some antiseptic and put some gauze on the wound. They didn’t tell me to go to a big hospital for their self-interest.
This continued for three months and one day, the gauze came out from the wound on my stomach and my eldest daughter shouted, “Mom! Stop it! Stop it. Your bowel is coming out!” Even though it was really hard for me to look after myself during that time, I was so happy to take care of my husband's maternal grandmother.
When I suffered from cancer and crawled because of the severe pains, my husband, Julio didn’t know because I pretended that I was fine in front of him. Julio likes unripe Kimchi and I bought many Napa cabbages and wrapped them one by one with newspapers and stored them upside down.
I made Kimchi for him at every meal with a piece of Napa cabbage which was cut into quarters. I soaked the cabbage in brine and rinsed, then mixed it with red pepper seasoning. In the past, there was no refrigerator but now we do, and would you make Kimchi for your family at every meal like I did?
At that time, I had to carry the water with a basket to the kitchen that had an earthen floor, but I made Kimchi for Julio at every meal. He ate a quarter of cabbage Kimchi at every meal and I couldn’t even taste the Kimchi, but it was my joy and happiness to watch him enjoy the Kimchi.
Since we didn’t have much money, I bought five hundred worth of pork and served it at every meal and he used to ask me, “Why don’t you have some?” Then I answered, “I already ate it.” And when he said, “Why don’t you try Kimchi?” I replied with smile, “I already had some while I was making it.” So, he didn’t know that I was suffering from cancer.
I have done everything to please my husband, Julio and I struggled with pains when I’m alone and I never showed it to him so that he wouldn’t know that I was sick. I was busy looking after not only my family but also my husband's maternal grandmother. One day, a fire broke out in the woodpile in the yard. I heard someone shouting “Fire! Fire!” and I went outside holding onto my stomach that had reopened after my surgery. However, the landlord said to me, “You have to pay for the burned logs and move out soon.”
I paid for the burned logs and said, “It’s hard for me to move too soon, because I am sick. Would you please let us stay here for a while?” But the landlord said, “Well, I am going to plant bamboo trees here, so move out as soon as possible!” I tried to rent a new place urgently, but I couldn’t find a proper place. There was a small home with one room and when I decided to move there, the people stopped me telling me that the landlord was a pitiless old man.
However, I loved old ladies and old men and I didn’t mind at all and we moved into the old man’s house. I was beaten by three men with a club and also beaten many times by others and I was used to it, so I was not afraid of the old man. A month after we moved, the old man called me.
In the past, the Korean government launched a program called “Stop at Two,” encouraging couples to limit the number of children they had to two but I had four children and the people called me, “barbarian” which was very mean. So, when the old man called me, I thought, “Is he going to ask me to move out because we have too many children?”
I’ve heard that even the family that had an only child, lived there for less than a month and other tenants had also moved out a month after they moved in. So, I said to myself, “Please don’t ask me to move out.” heading to the old man. However, he said, “How uncomfortable it must be to live in one room with so many children? And the kitchen is too small, isn’t it?” He made the kitchen bigger and built a big storage room for me.
At that time, two of my children went to school, the third child was three years old and the youngest child was a one-year-old baby and the old man even took care of my children. He took my third child for a ride on the tricycle and put my youngest child in the baby walker and babysat.
He took care of my children while doing farm work. He used to say, “You must be having a tough time raising four children.” with not knowing that I was sick also. He was really nice to me. And I didn’t understand why people called him a heartless old man. We should not judge others with prejudice.
I didn’t ask him about it or tried to know, but I rather think this way. Maybe he just meant to give advice to the young tenants when they did something wrong, but they quarreled with him instead of taking his advice.
If we truly live a life of self-renunciation, everything goes smoothly. I didn’t even know the Lord at that time. But we know the Lord now, and since we are living in the love of Jesus and the Blessed Mother, we can do it if we put our minds to it.
There was a woman whose husband had an affair. She didn’t cook for her husband when he came home. Even when her husband took her to the kitchen, she slept there instead of preparing dinner for him. Sometimes she pretended to be sleeping because she hated her unfaithful husband.
She would have gotten divorced right away if it happened these days, but in the past, people tended to keep their family and she didn’t leave her husband. However, she still could not forgive him and she prepared and served him meals with anger thinking, “How come I met such a bastard!” And when she served meals with anger, not only her husband but also her children had the food made with anger and then they were filled with anger.
But if you say to your unfaithful husband, “I'm not good enough for you and that’s why you had an affair. It’s all my fault.” and give him a massage, bathe him, or wipe him with warm water in the winter with saying, “How hard is it to take care of a wife like me. Even taking care of one woman is hard enough and how hard is it to take care of two women?” He might say, “Are you crazy?” But deep down inside, he would be sorry for you and stop having an affair.
Who would be glad at the unfaithful husband? But let’s say this, instead of shedding tears, “I am sorry. I know that you are having an affair because I'm not good enough for you. It’s my fault.”
Of course I believe that those of you, who are here, won’t have an affair. I am telling you this story as an example and let’s use it in other situations. “I am not good enough for you and everything is my fault. Since you are not beloved by me, I hope that you could be loved by another woman.” Husband, say this to your wife. I know it’s not easy, but let’s give it a try.
If your husband still has an affair, you may feel sad and shed tears while you are preparing food for your family, but he will come back to you if you pray to Jesus, “Lord! I am so unworthy. Please be with me and change this food into the food of love and completely heal our souls and our bodies as we eat this food.” His body and soul will be really healed and he will come back to you.
It really breaks your heart when your spouse is unfaithful and you feel anger. However, if you graciously offer it up to the Lord, you will feel pity for your spouse. Hatred is different from sympathy. If you start feeling pity for your husband or wife, you could be nice to him or her. That’s why we have to feel pity for others.
Our souls are also pitiful. If you pray, “Jesus, I am a pitiful soul. But my husband is more pitiful because he’s having an affair without knowing that it is the sin of adultery. What a poor soul he is! Please have mercy on him and lead him to the right way and deliver him from the sin of adultery.” Then the Lord will answer your prayer.
What is the tastiest seasoning in the world? (The seasoning of love!) Wow! You, who are on aboard the Mary’s Ark of Salvation, have been sanctified. When I asked the same question in the past, you used to answer, “The sesame oil.” or “The ground sesame mixed with salt.” If we add too much sesame oil, the food will be too oily and if we sprinkle too much ground sesame, the food will be harsh. The red pepper powder is also good seasoning but if we add too much, the food will be too hot to eat. Soy sauce and salt are also good seasonings but it will be too salty if we add too much. Right?
However, the seasoning of LOVE can be added no matter how much. The more the seasoning of LOVE you add, the tastier the food will be. If we serve the food with plenty of the seasoning of LOVE to our families, they are going to be regenerated with LOVE. Let’s make a new start from now on.
Only the degree is a little bit different but I think there is nobody who doesn’t have jealousy. Therefore you don’t be disappointed thinking ‘Why do I have such jealousy like this?’ but “Okay, I defeat this devil of jealousy completely!” Also as there is nobody who doesn’t have pride, let us resolve to “I defeat the devil of pride completely!” and put it into practice.
I was invited to the Philippines in October in 1992. Many people are still here who went there with me. At that time, cooperators went together. When I was brushing my teeth praying the Prayer of Life in the bathroom in the morning, I fell down mercilessly and bumped my head on the wall and fell, so that the back of my head was torn deeply and bled a lot until I passed out.
One sister M who helped me prevented everyone from coming to me. I went there to deliver the messages so the volunteers all went with me but couldn’t do their responsibility at all because of her preventing.
Why I passed out was also because I was concerned about her, but she didn’t even come to see me. After a long while, sister Magdalene felt something strange and came; however, without her, I would die as I was. Even though I bled too much and the floor was full of blood, the doctor said “The cut was 0.1mm beside of the fatal vital point.” It is the miracle that Our Lord and the Blessed Mother protected me. The CT scan result showed that my wound had the shape of a†(cross).
I told them that I would go to deliver the messages on that evening, but they said “You must not go because you bled a lot” and told me to be hospitalized and rest, but I went there.
I went there only with brother Andrew who was healed of acute myocardial infarction. M call him “uncle”. I went to see her and said “M, let’s go.” Then she turned over on her side right away. She was sulky because when I went to the hospital, bleeding, she said I called not her but another person. I was in a lot of pain so I called Victorina, therefore, she hided in the hospital.
I had looked for her for 3 hours after I had surgical stitch on my head. But she was hiding in the hospital toilet. It was beyond description of her to give me a hard time. It is not the human work but the devil’s work to knock me down through her.
However, I called only brother Andrew but she saw it wrongly insisting that, “You made me a show like the monkeys in Chang-gyeong-gung Palace (A Korean famous zoo) calling all the Filipinos and Koreans around.” The jealousy is scary like this.
Some people among you think ‘Why am I so jealous like this in small things?’ but there are people who are badly jealous like that. There are people who were in pain because of that, but don’t feel sick with little jealousy, but try to make a new start.
So as jealousy and doubt continue, they become bigger and delusional jealousy may occur. Our sister Magdalene asked her “Do you have the delusional jealousy of wife or husband?”
I was concerned about that sister and became too sick so I went to the hospital. The doctors said that my 4 hormones became low. Then my weight which used to be 58kg became 72kg and I suffered from all the hair loss.
As I suffered a lot of pain, I didn’t know that it was a disease caused by the stress. I continued to offer it up and let the disease grow more. It is because in the past I can’t come to the vigil prayer meeting unless I solve the situation. When I tried to come to give testimonies, that sister was always crying. I tried to soothe her, then the first part of the vigil prayer meeting was finished and the second part was also finished. So later I just came out to the prayer meeting saying “I can’t possibly make it.”
Because of that I had soothed her throughout the vigil prayer meeting, but it didn’t work making me so hard. But after that if it didn’t work although I continued to soothe her, I just came out to the vigil meeting. I don’t know why I’m telling you this story. However, we must not hate someone deliberately. I’ve never hated that woman.
Because she liked me in human way, I had so much hard time. Then I told her “I think you have the vocation of marriage. Get married.” and she replied, “If there is a man whom I love at least one twentieth time of that I love Mama Julia, I will get married to him.” Then how agonized was my mind who must work for the Blessed Mother.
I have been praying for that sister, but from now on, let us not hate even the worse thing than this, but offer up all the things with greater love.
Some are like this, some are like that, and even the character of each person is all different. The reason that some people lose their temper is because they got much hurt from their mother’s wombs. So do not think ‘Why is that person’s character like that?’ but pray more for them.
Dear pilgrims! When we are following Our Lord and the Blessed Mother, we have many hard times. But let us think ‘Because Jesus and the Blessed Mother love me so much, the devils afflict me more.’ and offer it up graciously with love and arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities. Amen!
Let us also today meditate deeply on the messages Jesus and the Blessed Mother are giving us. Also when you read the books of <The Way of love for the Lord>, <the Fragrance of the Lord>, or <Five Spiritualities of Naju>, think these stories are yours. If there is a message from Jesus, accept all as yours, believing that Jesus gave it to you. Then those graces will be all yours!
This is the message of love from Jesus on April 12, 1998.
“The tears that you shed now will be completely wiped away before the throne in Heaven, where there is no thirst or hunger. You will be given a hundred-fold reward. Happiness will be yours. Do not fear, but hurriedly perpetuate the Paschal Mystery of Resurrection. I will help you.” Amen!
This is the message of love from the Blessed Mother on August 5, 2006.
“All my beloved children in the world who have responded with Amen to my call through the little soul! At least you who have been called should not think complacently but remain awake, pray, and do your best in cooperating in the work of saving the world. Then, on the last day, you will be given the power and privilege of eating the fruits from the tree of eternal life in Heaven, stand at my side, be escorted by the angels, and sing Alleluia. Therefore, do not have any fear but go forward valiantly.”
Amen! I wish that the messages of love from Jesus and the Blessed Mother to come true as it is to all of you. Amen!
Let us entrust ourselves completely to Our Lord and the Blessed Mother. Meditate on whom I didn’t forgive, love, or reconcile with. Bring out all of them.
The world is becoming highly developed in material civilization, but is deteriorating in its spiritual condition. I can’t tell how many murders are happening. The world is decaying. But Our Lord and the Blessed Mother appeared and are present in Naju, showing us numerous signs and giving us numerous graces with the utmost love.
The dead came to life and those who were dying were restored, the blind opened their eyes, and the cripples were raised, those with a deformed arm were healed, the deaf were restored, and the mute came to speak. Jesus performs these numerous wondrous miracles of love not only in His time but also in this age.
Jesus! Please heal all of these children, touching softly every each person without any exceptive soul. From the top to the bottom, without any exceptive cell, please heal with the Holy Spirit. Stretch out Your hand of authority and hand of power that You only can have, and impose hands on them, bless them, and operate every each sick part.
The doctors operate with the knives, but there are too many things that they can’t do. However, there is nothing impossible for Jesus to operate. Jesus, please operate with the Holy Spirit not only on all these children here but also their families. And operate the spiritual cancer, physical cancer, all the cells with Holy Spirit, and restore them to normal.
Please allow the grace to fill the deep and deep abyss between Jesus and our trivialness by arming ourselves with Five Spiritualities, turning our daily lives into prayers every day and at every moment, blaming my fault not on other’s, respond with Amen, completely offering up - not suppressing or enduring.
Glory be to the Lord and consolation to the Blessed Mother, and unceasing gratitude of all of us.
Respond with ‘Amen’ and accept with ‘It’s my fault’
I will go to heaven taking on Mary’s Ark of Salvation
If we live the life of humility with the Spirituality of ‘Offering up’
we reach divinely the way of perfection of littleness
No matter how hard the devils who fill the sky and the earth afflict us,
let us win the victory and be resurrected by arming ourselves
with Five Spiritualities
Returning all the glory to Our Lord, I, this sinner who am unworthy, earnestly pray in the name of Jesus through the Immaculate Heart of the Blessed Mother. Amen!
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