Julia Kim’s Inspiring Spiritual
Message and Healing Prayer on August 3, 2019

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   Praise the Lord! Praise the Blessed Mother ! 

Nice to meet you. Today, I thought, ‘I still need to go to the prayer meeting even if I die there!’ So I’m here now to see you and say hello to all, at the very least. During the last first Saturday, I said, “Now, I see hope to live!” But these days, strange things have happened, and the devils are determined on killing me continuously.

Today when I prayed over the blankets and pads (Items pilgrims will use), I spread them out and blew my breath, kissing each of them with all my love and effort. To my surprise, a lot of Precious Blood descended profusely from here all along the way and onto the blankets, bedding pads, and even onto clothes, where it dripped momentarily.

So, I hope all of you receive a lot of grace today. (Amen!) I get my hair cut on every first Saturday prayer meeting or anniversary event. Why would I do that? To look pretty? No. I pray to the Lord to cut off all evil habits without exception, first from me and then from you, pilgrims. (Amen!) I was trembling while cutting. Sometimes, when I tremble doing make-up (with pains), I apply it on the wrong side.

I receive a lot of suffering from many different things. But I hope you’ll be healed through all my offerings of these pains. (Amen!) Despite my suffering, I thought it would be good if I at least sat down with you to make eye contact and share love. Also I missed you a lot, so I dragged myself to come here. (Amen! Clapping)

Dear pilgrims, you should be grateful for being able to sleep without this oxygen cannula. You should be grateful for being able to sleep with proper posture. (Amen!) I am not talking about you but there are so many people who are not grateful for what they have. Some get plastic surgery to make their breasts larger. Then this same person will get another surgery due to the after effects, and this can cause many diseases. If you have a flat chest, don’t worry about it. Remember if you have large breasts, it’s hard to wear Hanbok! (Korean traditional costume)

Dear pilgrims, we must be grateful for whatever is given to us. (Amen!)

Let us be grateful whether our breasts are large or not. You shouldn’t brag about a pretty face, nor be disappointed with a homely appearance. If you don’t look pretty, you should be grateful for it. It’s good not to be chased by men. Pretty-faced people are often stalked by men. Good-looking men also face many problems related to women. There are a lot of stalkers. But don’t worry about being ugly, for you don’t have to worry about stalkers! It is already something to be grateful for, right?

If you’re pretty, if you’re ugly, there are the pros and cons. We must thank God who created us, for everything. (Amen!)

When I was younger, many men would approach me. I thought, ‘Should I paint black spots on my face?’ So, I used to go out without makeup. Sometimes I even made my face stained with black spots and I prayed, ‘Lord, please, give me a lot of dark spots on my face.’ Even though I was in my 40s, I had a slim waist, so men used to follow me saying, “Hey, Lady~” I told them, “I am married with babies.” But it was no use.

So, I prayed, ‘Jesus, please make me fat.’ Although I was a housewife, I prayed, ‘Make me fat like other housewives and grant many dark spots on my face, please.’ Then, He gave me 103 spots on my face. After that, I stopped counting. Sometimes there were more. Sometimes less.

When I was a kid, my elder cousin brother brought his friends home. They said they could remove the spot out of my face with lye, but it dripped on the wrong side of my face. It remains a white spot mark until now. But it’s okay whether it is white or black. We should be grateful under all circumstances.

By the way, as for the prayers ; ‘Jesus, please make me fat,’ I somewhat regret this now. The Lord had given me a slim body with a 23, 24 inch waist in my 40s, I should have been grateful. But, as men were chasing me, I prayed ‘Please make me fat.’ Now, even though I try to reduce the swelling on my body, I can’t. Heart failure, lymphedema, adrenal insufficiency—I am suffering from all kinds of failure.

Even undergoing on a desperate diet by not eating didn’t slim me down. So, dear pilgrims, whether we’re fat or slim, let’s be grateful for all that is given to us. Let’s not pray like, ‘I did this, so you please do that for me’, but be grateful for what’s already given to us. (Amen!) I sweat a lot when I pray over holy items. I pray that the Lord would transfuse all my sacrifices into you as oxygen for you. Turning our lives into Prayers is unlimited. It is so good that you can turn what has already happened into prayers as well.

Let’s suppose you let out a fart earlier. Since a lot of people were next to you at the time, you tried to put up with it so as not to be embarrassed. But it came out without control. “Oh, what to do.” Then you tried to hide yourself. In this case, if you couldn’t pray at the very moment, you can still pray later. ‘Ah! I couldn’t pray with this earlier. Jesus, now I am praying, please take away not only my evil habits but also my family’s, my acquaintances’, and all those bad things.’ (Amen!)

Really, you can offer up anything by turning them into prayers, not only something which happened just a little while ago, but also things that happened many years or decades ago whenever you are reminded of it. So, how good is “Turning our daily lives into Prayers”! It’s limitless, right? Let’s offer everything up graciously with this prayer. (Amen!)

You want to know about Fr. Chang, don’t you? This is how Fr. Chang came here. Many of you already know this story. A chairman and his wife came here from Gwangju for the prayer meeting in May, 1991. They were quite well known to the lay people at the Church. He came and attended the prayer meeting, and the next day he got into an argument with me.

“Julia! Let me ask you a question.” “Yes?” “Why did you imitate a Catholic Mass like that?” “We didn’t.” “You did. Last night you imitated the Mass.” “We didn’t do it.” “You read the Holy Bible and the Messages and prayed.” It doesn’t imitate Catholic Mass celebration, does it?

I found people who are even saying that they work hard for the Church actually don’t know that much. So, I said, “Sir, what does prayer mean? Prayer is conversation with God.” Right? (Yes~) Our prayer is a form of conversation with God. That’s why we must read the Bible. The conversation we have is to send and to receive. But many people may simply pray, ‘God, do this for me.’

Well, most of their prayers only ask what they want from God. ‘Please heal my son.’ And for their distant relatives, it may extend even further. But to pray in a sincere way, we must listen to the Word of God. That’s why we always listen to the Word of God in the Holy Bible during Mass. I had a few Holy Bibles which were worn out. I had with me a Holy Bible and Rosary all the time even if I couldn’t read much.

I couldn’t read the Bible that much at the time, but the Bible and the rosary were always with my hands. We would listen to the Bible, and pray. We would also read the Messages, and pray the Rosary. Dear pilgrims, as you can see, our prayer meeting here is not exactly the same as a Mass celebration. But at that time, we didn’t even celebrate any Mass as we do now at every prayer meeting. So, I said to him, “It’s different from Mass.” And, then he said, “Oh, is it?”

Even those who seem to work hard in the church are not well versed in the authentic Teachings of the Church. The person next to him said, “It’s the same as any Mass. They are imitating a Mass.” This made him also think similarly since he went to church without fully understanding the Mass celebration. When I explained everything to him, he agreed by saying, “Oh, is it?”

And he said, “Ah! Julia, I want to help you. What can I do for you?” “We need a priest.” I replied. “What? A Priest?” He thought I’d ask for some financial support since he was a wealthy man. But when I asked for a priest, he said, “Who then?”

I didn’t know Fr. Aloysius Chang at that time. As Fr. Jeong mentioned this at Fr. Chang’s funeral Mass (2 months ago), I knew nothing about him at the time. He asked, “Well, which priest would you like?” He said this because he knew all the priests there privately. He had a strong influence on priests, and was so close that he even played golf with them. “Who do you think could do what you wish?” Even without knowing Fr. Chang, I replied, “Fr. Chang Hong-bin can do it.” “Fr. Chang Hong-bin? All right! I’ll bring him here.” That’s how he came here to Naju.

Fr. Chang was in Bosung (borough) at the time, “Father, let’s go to Naju together.” “Naju? For what?” Before that, when Fr. Chang visited the United States with him, Fr. Chang watched a video on Naju. “You’ve seen Julia Kim of Naju in the video,” he said. This was how the chairman proposed him to go. “Okay. But I don’t have time tomorrow. Let’s go the day after tomorrow.” Oh, but then his heart became passionate on coming to Naju!

He couldn’t wait until that day. So, he phoned the chairman back, “Oh, I can’t wait until the day after tomorrow. Let’s just go tomorrow.” That’s how Fr. Chang came here. It was the very day of May 23, 1991 (when the Blessed Mother gave Her Message to him).

While he was looking at the statue of the Blessed Mother, he saw Tears in Her eyes and he touched Her eyes with the cross of his rosary. Like this. People are clapping as Julia stood up with all her strength. Seeing this, the chairman shouted, “Father! It could hurt Her eye!” I was surprised, too. As soon as he took it off from her eye, more Tears rolled down from the Blessed Mother’s eyes.

This was the Message given to him when he witnessed the Blessed Mother’s Tears : “When you make my Immaculate Heart that is burning with love known to all the children in the world, you will experience pains. But your soul will be purified and made stronger, as gold becomes purified in fire. What you have lost in the world will turn into eternal joy by gaining me.” (Amen!)

So Fr. Chang started to accept the Messages of Love from the Blessed Mother of Naju. Before that, people said that there was no fun hanging out without Fr. Chang. He was in charge of general affairs for the golf club of priests. He used to play card games and golf. He enjoyed everything that other priests played joyfully.

It’s so interesting how he played card games. “Harat cha cha cha cha!” Without Fr. Chang, the priests said the game was not fun enough. You know how I had offered up drinking coffee. Don’t you know? After the Blessed Mother weeping Tears, we were planning to have ‘9-days vigil prayer, 3 times’. Many people joined including volunteers from Seoul, Mokpo and Gwangju. The Blessed Mother started weeping Tears when I was running my beauty salon during this same time.

But I had a lot of patrons at my hair salon. After having served all the guests until late in the evening, I prepared snacks and coffee to give to all the people who came for the vigil prayer meeting. I did it all by myself. No one helped me. But dear pilgrims, whatever we do, we must do it joyfully. ‘How I wish others could provide just a little help!’ Do not think like that.

Everyday I alone would prepare the prayer meeting after my hard work while others had free time. But I hadn’t even thought of asking for their help at all. We should do things in this way. ‘I am doing a lot of work but they aren’t.’ Don’t think like that. ‘Yes, let me do it because I can do it. What a blessing it is that I can do something.’ We must do our work with this mindset.

So, I made coffee for all of them. In the evening we started praying overnight until 4 a.m. in the morning. They said they couldn’t go on anymore. They went to sleep at 4 a.m. But I had a private meeting with every one of them as requested. We were all volunteers though. Then, when morning came, I had to go to my beauty salon to continue my daily work. So going on like this, by the time we completed the second round of ‘9-days vigil prayer’, people said they couldn’t do it anymore.

While I was making coffee, it occurred to my mind, ‘Rather than drinking coffee to stay awake, let’s offer up drinking coffee as a sacrifice.’ Do you know how much I loved coffee; Whenever I used to go downtown with my baby on my back, and when I passed by a coffee shop, I found myself enjoying the aroma of coffee, ‘Umm~’.

‘Oh, oh~ What a robust flavor! Oh~ fantastic!’ I used to appreciate the aroma and come back home. I loved coffee that much, but I offered up drinking coffee. The public bathhouse was also just next to my shop. But I also offered up comfortable bathing, and instead, I bathed in the kitchen after heating up the water. I saved money by refraining from coffee and forgoing the comforts of the public bathhouse whenever I felt like bathing. I would then put the saved money into my charity box.

Since I was very quick at cutting hair, I could support others with the money I earned easily by cutting the customers’ hair. But I thought, ‘How more valuable it would be if I help others with the charity box where there is money I made with a sacrifice.’ So, I offered up bathing. It doesn’t mean  that I didn’t take baths at all, but I bathed at home by boiling the water myself. I heated the water with a stove on a briquette.

So I first told Fr. Chang that I had offered up to stop drinking coffee. He replied, “I’m also going to offer up using a caddie (the one who supports the golfers).” And, later I said to him, “I offered up going out to bathe.” He said, “Oh, then I’ll offer up playing golf!” And he continued, “I’m going to offer up smoking!” One by one, in that way. He also offered up card games.

One day, when he came, my mother was smoking. He asked my mother to spare him a cigarette. Then, without hesitance, he smoked. So I said to him (She intended to remind him of his promise), “Father, let me have one, too.” He pulled out a stick from my mother’s cigarettes packet and handed it over to me. I said, “I will also smoke.” He didn’t understand what I meant by that gesture. I started to smoke because he was smoking in spite of his promise to offer up smoking cigarettes. In fact, I am a non-smoker.

Then, I gripped it between my lips. I didn’t inhale, but took a drag only once in my mouth. Then I instantly felt as if my mouth has been inflamed inside of my mouth, including my throat. Soon, pus began filling inside my mouth, and I was unable to drink water, let alone eat food. The doctor said, “Oh, this impact is going to last quite a while, possibly for about three months.” And I phoned the priest.

“A-er~~(Father~~)” “Why? What’s wrong? What’s wrong with you?” He understood quickly. “I-ou-ur! (My mouth hurts!)” “What are you saying?” “I-ou-ur! (My mouth hurts!)” “What are you saying?” I let a brother who accompanied me speak on my behalf on the phone. He told Fr. Chang that I got mouth and throat inflammation because I smoked. Listen carefully. Father said “Ah! It’s because of me!” At that moment, the inflammation in my mouth and my throat completely disappeared.

So, as Jesus and the Blessed Mother said, if your lives change, I will also recover shortly. The doctor said it would take a few months to be cured. We came out right away to talk with the priest on the payphone since there was no cell phones that time. Then when I was cured miraculously, I came back to the doctor again right away and showed him my mouth. The doctor and the nurses were all astonished at that sudden cure within just a moment. My mouth, that was previously inflamed, became so clean instantly. Remember, I did not go back home. I only stayed within the hospital and stepped out to call him at telephone booth, and the inflammation instantly disappeared during that phone call.

Fr. Chang accepted everything like that. He was simple like a child, and admitted everything well with a simple ‘Amen’. Our Fr. Chang is a martyr. He accepted everything with ‘Amen’. Whenever he was about to go astray, the Lord always showed me through a dream or feeling. So, the Lord has protected him from straying toward the incorrect path.

After he had collapsed, suffering from cerebral hemorrhage, even though he had undergone surgery after 17 hours, he survived. But, on the first day operating, ‘The Exploration Reporting 7’ (TV program) entered his room without our consent. In spite of being a designated restricted area for patients, the hospital went as far as showing them all of his detailed medical records. He was scheduled to be transferred to the general patient’s ward in 4 days’ time.

I visited him every morning and evening. On the third day after his surgery, I called him. He could talk to me on the phone without any issue. The transfer delayed one additional day, and he was finally transferred to the general patient’s ward on the fifth day. While he was there, he could even sing a song with me, ‘Toward the highest place (Heaven).’ His condition improved tremendously.

But the doctor said, unlike the initial diagnosis that required 3~6 months before receiving sutures, he would proceed sewing up Fr. Chang’s skull only a week after the surgery. Having heard what the doctor said, we exclaimed with joy, saying it’s a miracle. But instead, he began deteriorating into a severe condition.

He looked as if he would die soon if he was left in that hospital. Like a 007 movie, we had readied our car in the basement of the hospital and brought him out in a wheelchair, put him into the car, and drove him to another hospital, where he had another surgery immediately. His brain was already entirely filled with bacteria at the time. After staying in hospital, he came back home. He became much better. He could eat by himself. When Julio bought food with crab, he ate very well. His condition improved so much.

But Fr. Chang passed away due to an unfortunate concussion, and he went up to heaven. During the funeral Mass, he appeared like this and was beside the Blessed Mother, escorted by angels, and called out to me, “Mama Julia”.

He was always addressing me, “Mama! Mama!”, even though I asked not to. He said, “You were my spiritual mama,” and continued saying, “I’m sorry that I’ve gone first before you. We should have worked longer together! But I like being here now!” He said, “I am happy.”

So, we never know when the same thing might happen to us. We had never thought he would leave us so soon. The world is in chaos right now. We don’t know when and what will happen in the rest of our lives, so we have to start living well.

According to the Gospel of Matthew 18:6-9; Gospel of Mark as well, and Luke 17:1-2, even though we will be subject to temptation, whoever causes others to commit sin, it would be better for him to have a great millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.

If your hand or foot causes you to sin, it’s better to cut it off and throw it away. And if your eye causes you to sin, it’s better to tear it out and live a disabled life than to be thrown into eternal hell. Let’s not have a millstone hung around our necks. If we live up to ‘the Five Spiritualities’ according to the Messages from the Lord and the Blessed Mother, we will not cause others to commit sins.

It is me who needs to change, but everyone always wants others to change, right? Many people do this. But if I change first, the other will also change. Dear pilgrims, go and try it today. When you don’t like your husband, say, “Darling, I love you!” When you don’t like your wife, say, “Honey, I love you!” Then give him/her a hug. Though it would be a forced attempt, it will work for love sprouting later.

There must be a lot in him/her that you don’t like. Will everything be lovely? Not at all. Never. But we have to try to love. If you do not renounce yourself, you cannot do it. We have to abandon ourselves. You can accept the other person only if you abandon yourself. That’s why I must change first.

If we want the other person to change without changing ourselves, that’s the wrong way. We can say it’s not from faith. If we’re truly faithful, we should change ourselves first. Then the other person will also change naturally.

I gave homework to a lady. I told her to say “I love you” three times to her husband when she arrived at home. But when she tried it, she saw her husband was drunk at that moment. She was about to say ‘Honey, I love you!’ but felt ‘Oh my God. Disgusting. I can’t. I can’t. Damn it!’ But, she thought, ‘Oh, no. I was given this homework to say to him.’ “Honey, I love you!”

She had never said ‘I love you!’ to him before, so she kicked her drunken husband, but soon she also said, “Honey, I love you!” He responded, “Are you crazy?” She thought, ‘No wonder he’s like that. How can I love such a man?’ She woke up the next morning and tried it again. ‘He smells so bad. I don’t feel like trying again to say the words. Oh, but it’s my homework though.’ “Honey, I love you.” He said, “Oh! Get away from me.” ‘No wonder.’ She gave up again. During daytime, she was trying to call him to tell him, “I love you!” But she thought, ‘Let’s not love. Let’s live as we are now. Oh! But it’s my homework.’ And she phoned him saying, “I love you, honey~” And he said, “Something wrong with you, woman?”

When he came back home in the evening, she said again, “I love you!” “All right,” he replied. She repeated from morning to evening. Later on, her husband said “I love you too, honey.” Love finally opened up. So, you have to try to change yourself even though it is against your feeling. Actually, it shouldn’t be in a forced way, but the Lord will see that you are making a great effort to do it and He will adore you, and He will do all for you.

Oh Mass time is coming, I am sorry, Father. My life is already finished. It is finished but depending on how well you live, my life can be extended if you live well. As I meet you all today, and you love me, I can speak and smile without trembling (with pains), although I can’t stand up and talk, as my whole body hurts, including the bottom of my foot. We have to wake up. Let’s be awake. Really we must wake up now.

The world has no choice but to be punished by God. The time of Sodom and Gomorrah is nothing. This world is far more enormous than that. It’s filled with so much sin that God wants to wipe it away, but He is withholding the sulfuric fire seeing the prayers offered by little souls. So let’s make a hard effort. (Amen!)

Beloved pilgrims, if we all sublimate all the sufferings given to us with ‘the Five Spiritualities’ according to the Word of the Lord and the Blessed Mother, then it is heaven. (Amen!) Let us all enjoy heaven. (Amen!) Put your hands on your chests. How much love have we given to the Lord and the Blessed Mother? How much have we been a plier of love? Have we become a handkerchief of love? Have we become a tailor of love to sew up the torn Sacred Heart? Or have we become a hammer nailing Jesus? Let us meditate and ask the Lord for forgiveness.

If you’ve done well, ask for more grace to do better. If you haven’t, ask for the grace for being awake anew. Let us make a new start.

Sometimes we can do wrong. But, just like Mary Magdalene, we can also truly repent, and become a tailor to sew up the torn Sacred Heart of the Lord.

Jesus, have mercy on us. If one remains stubborn by defending himself, then the Lord, Who granted free will, can’t help any further. That’s why the Lord, Who has given free will to all humankind, regretted doing so. Jesus, the world is now full of all kinds of sins. Let us, at least, who are Your beloved children gathered here, be completely awake and armed with the Five Spiritualities and practice it so that we may change totally by not hoping others to change first. Please perform the miracles of love, using us as unworthy instruments, so that the Lord’s Kingdom may come to this whole world.

We have a lot of diseases. Please heal every of the 12,420 diseases in us today, no matter what illness we have. First of all, repentance is essential. Jesus, we offer ourselves up to the Lord so that we may not lead others to commit sins. Have mercy on us so that we won’t lead other souls to hell. The prejudice is very frightening. Jesus, in order to start anew, enable us to completely abandon the evil in ourselves and live a new life of resurrection, let us make a new start for the rest of our lives.

Even though the stormy water tries to sweep us away, and no matter what temptation may befall us, we firmly believe that Jesus will deliver us so that we can defeat all evils and offer it up beautifully. We know that the iron pillar, even though it is firmly built, can collapse in a mere moment. But Lord, come to our weak hearts and set the fire of love in us so that we can uplift the whole world. Jesus, have mercy on us.

May all become the glory of the Lord, and comfort to the Blessed Mother, and let us give unceasing gratitude to Lord.