Praise Jesus! Praise the Blessed Mother!

Truly, I’m just an unworthy sinner. But now I am standing before you after being given a mission from the Lord. How much urgency the Lord felt that He made me stand here, the unworthy one, after reviving me from death?

However, the devils prevent us from getting close to God, using so many different ways to distract us. Now their attacks are even worse than before. Therefore, unless we remain awake, it is difficult for us to go to Heaven. The world is turning into darkness, and most people are heading for hell.

But, for those of you who are gathered here today, I wish all of you will surely enjoy Heaven. It’s not only after we die that we go to Heaven, but also here on the earth, if we fully enjoy joy, love, and peace, then that’s Heaven on earth for us. Dear pilgrims, let’s entrust ourselves entirely to Jesus and the Blessed Mother today.

Let’s learn together anew how to make ‘the Sign of the Cross’. Making ‘the Sign of the Cross’ before we begin prayer means, ‘The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit! Please stay with me!’ This is calling upon Them.

So, please look here. “In the name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.” This is like St. Peter’s Cross because he died upside down. But what is Jesus’ Cross? Look there. It’s vertically long, right? Horizontally it’s short. So, please put your left hand on your belly button. You must make the Sign of the cross with your sincere heart seeking Jesus.

When you make ‘the Sign of the Cross’, angels and your guardian angel are always with you. ‘Glory be’ also. The Angels and Saints do it together with us. They are so joyful when we pray ‘Glory be’. But, some people pray ‘Glory be’ like this, then angels are confused as to which rhythm to pray with us. Please don’t do like this.

(How to pray “Glory be” : Slowly lower your head when you say “Glory be…” and slowly rise up again at “as it was in the beginning…”) “Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.” The angels do it in a very beautiful way. So whenever you pray ‘Glory be’, remember angels always do it with you, and pray in the mindfulness that you will truly return glory to the Lord. (Amen!) You got it? (Yes!)

It is also the same when we pray the ‘Rosary’. Before, I said not to pray quickly, quickly. When we pray together, we must do it in the same rhythm. Then, angels dance with those roses of prayer. Just even though we slowly pray, it doesn’t mean you can produce those roses, but pray with our whole heart, with our utmost sincerity, while closing our eyes, always thinking of Jesus. This is how we should pray. (Amen!)

Matthew 24:36-44 reads, “But of that day and hour no one knows, neither the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but the Father alone.” Dear pilgrims! Don’t worry about anything! If we live following the Messages from the Lord and the Blessed Mother, as They want us to live, no matter what natural calamities come down upon this world, we will surely be saved. (Amen!)

If we knew the hour when the thief would come, we would be prepared to not let our houses be robbed. Many people say ‘Lock the stable doors after a horse is stolen.’ But, this should not be so for us! Jesus called us through the Blessed Mother, so let’s make a new start today. (Amen!)

Also, in Matthew 25:1-13, Jesus said ‘the Parable of the Ten Virgins’. Five of them were wise. The wise brought flasks of oil with their lamps and waited for the bridegroom. But the foolish ones, when taking their lamps, brought no oil with them. They waited and waited, since the bridegroom was delayed. They all fell asleep.

Suddenly, at midnight, there was a cry, “Behold, the bridegroom!” And all those virgins got up and trimmed their lamps. The wise turned on their lamps and went inside with the bridegroom, but the foolish ones didn’t have any oil leftover. They said to the wise, “Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.” But the wise ones replied, “No, for there may not be enough for both you and us. Go instead to the merchants and buy some for yourselves.”

While they went off to buy it, the door of the wedding feast locked. Then, the foolish virgins came back and knocked, “Lord, Lord, open the door for us!” But He answered, “I say to you, I do not know you.”

Now, while we live in the world, if we do not stay awake or arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities, and persist in our easy-going ways, what can we do when the final moment comes? We don’t know when or what will happen. So, we must prepare ourselves. How we should prepare is by practicing the Five Spiritualities. If only we are armed with the Five Spiritualities, we’ll surely enjoy eternal happiness in Heaven on the last day.

Among the Five Spiritualities, let me first tell you about the spirituality of ‘Amen’. I was born into a very rich family. But due to the Korean War which tragically fractured the country, my whole family was scattered. I lost my father in that tragedy. My grandfather was shot by rebels. And during my mother’s absence, who left for a few days looking for my grandfather, my younger sister also died. So, only my mother and I were left.

In the time following, through the charcoal brazier of suffering, Jesus prepared me. My mother would go out to work. I lived with my uncle’s family. I started cooking for them at the age of 6. How did we cook rice at the time? After grounding the barley, I boiled it twice, and steamed it, etc. Besides this, I also did the dishes and laundry for them. My younger uncle raised a horse, and I even had to cut the hay to keep it fed.

And also, I had to twist the straw to make ropes. I even would help my two cousins who did the same work. How I made straw ropes was like this. (So fast) Also at a young age, I was out in the rice fields. Although nobody taught me how, I knew the roots shouldn’t be this way. So, I grabbed it like this and planted it (so well). Though I was young, I was paid the same as an adult male for my work. Even adult ladies were usually only paid half a man’s wage though. I thought I did well, but after I knew God, I realized that since my childhood, Jesus arranged everything for me. He prepared and nurtured me always.

I even remember when I was 3 years old, I had a very big house (wealthy) in Gwangju. When our dog gave birth to a puppy, I crawled to the mother dog, since I couldn’t yet walk. I managed to milk the mother dog and feed the puppy. But the mother dog would stay still. How could this even be possible if the Lord had not helped me? Everything in my life since my childhood was what Jesus had arranged, prepared, and nurtured for me.

Many people wanted to date me out. While I was working in the beauty salon, people would say “I wish she became my sister”, “No, my sister-in-law.” Clients in my salon quarreled over me. Many men liked me so much that they even got lovesick. But, my mother had dedicated her life for me. ‘Whether his face is ugly or terrible, I will marry whom she tells me to.’ So, I never dated any men.

Oh, I received many marriage proposals. There was one man, a self-made wealthy man who only had one older sister and owned houses in Gwangju, Seoul and Mokpo. He proposed to me, and if I had married him, he would live wherever I desired. He added that he would provide me a rich life and that I didn’t have to contribute at all.

But I rejected all those proposals, because I wanted to receive a paternal love. So, I chose to marry a man who had a father and many siblings. I became the eldest daughter-in-law among his 8 siblings, and his wife. My present husband, Julio. But experiencing life after marriage, the difficulties I went through during my childhood could never be compared to it! God has given me so much of love. My father-in-law graduated from Kyung-sung Univ. in Seoul, currently Seoul Nat’l Univ. and also graduated from Waseda Univ. in Japan.

I am an uneducated one, from a poor family. Therefore, my in-laws harshly looked down on me. Even though I was sick, I couldn’t go to the hospital. I didn’t know at the time that there was a cancerous growth inside me. And, cancer tumors started to emerge between the toes and in the anus. The hospital told me, “We did all we could. Go home and eat your favorite foods.”

Maybe no one has ever had a worse cancer such as this. Even an artificial anus was not feasible for me, because my blood pressure was 50/40 mmHg. This blood pressure is fatal. I couldn’t even get an IV injection. But, thinking of my mother, who became a widow at the age of 27 and raised me by herself, relying on me alone, I couldn’t just let myself die. I didn’t want to dig a grave into my mother’s heart. I had to live for my mother, but...

So, at that time, I went to a Protestant church. Two of the parishioners visited me, to pray and console me. Before they went out, they whispered to each other, “Oh my, though her situation is pitiful, and her life is important, her death would remove burden from the family, How much hardship they would have if she doesn’t die, and continues living like that.” When I overheard it, I realized, ‘Oh! That is true! As for my children, I am just sick and always lying down, so a stepmother would be better for them. As for my husband Julio, It would be better for Julio to be a widower and meet someone else.’

So I prepared a poison to commit suicide and wrote letters to seven people. To my four children, to my husband, to my mother, and to his new wife in future. To the next wife, I wrote, “My husband likes this and that. Remember this, and have a happy life with him. I’ll pray for you even after my death.” This is what I wrote. (At the time, she didn’t know suicide is sin.)

After finishing the seven suicide notes, I took a bath and put on clean clothes. When I was about to go out… Julio, who was such a diligent worker and rarely came home because of his great responsibility to his work as he really is a dedicated, good man. He suddenly came home, calling out “Honey, honey!” At that moment, I was preparing to commit suicide! And I thought to myself, ‘Oh, what’s going on? For me to die is not easy.’ He said, “Honey! Let’s go to the Catholic Church.”

Why shouldn’t I go since it’s my last moments with him? So, I followed him to the church. Sitting down before the priest, I said, “Father, if God exists, He’s just too harsh to me. What wrong have I done that I have to drink this bitter cup?” This bitter cup means the cup of death for me.

The reason why I said so… Since my childhood, instead of eating the food given to me, if somebody gave me some food as reward for my good work, I would be so grateful for their kindness, that I shared all of it with other people. I didn’t eat any single piece of meat and would give it all away to others. I continued this practice even after I grew up. I fed beggars and disabled people with the food I earned. I had lived in this way.

So, many people said, “You were sent from Heaven to soar all over the earth?” Even when I had cancer, I carried my 96-year-old grandmother-in-law on my back. Dear pilgrims, you can do it if you’re willing to. Although you’re sick or even if it is difficult for you, please don’t give up.

Julio likes fresh Kimchi. When I bought cabbages, I wrapped them in newspaper and put them upside down in one space. Then, while cooking, I cut them into four pieces, just like when we make Kimchi. At every meal, I made fresh Kimchi for him even though we didn’t have a refrigerator at the time. I also took care of my 96-year-old grandmother-in-law, carrying her on my back (in spite of my cancer). You can also do the same. We can all do it. (Amen!)

Seeing people enjoying my foods, I was very grateful for just that. I was already full because I could practice ‘Semchigo’ as if I had already eaten. Each of the Five Spiritualities is linked. Accept with ‘Amen’, and ‘Semchigo’ as if you have already eaten and ‘Offer it Up’. With ‘It’s My Fault’, accept everything, then we won’t hate anyone.

Anyway, I did my duty until the approach of my death. (Back to the story) The priest I spoke with in Naju parish had only ministered in the army for a year after his ordination and was appointed to Naju, his first parish. He was recently appointed to his first parish. So he did not seem like a person with experience to say this : “Madam, you are receiving God’s grace now.” But, I responded with “Amen”.

Dear pilgrims, this word may seem to be nothing, but I responded with ‘Amen’. ‘Oh! My body is now in the grace of God!’ (despite my terminal cancer) Then I began to feel warmth. My body temperature was ice-cold in those days. I’ve never seen another patient who’s like me except for one who I’ve met in New York, U.S.A. No matter what other severe cancer, and some have had rotten flesh that smells, I’ve never seen a cancer patient whose body is as cold as mine. How important then the spirituality of ‘Amen’ is!

By responding with Amen, the Blessed Mother conceived and gave birth to Jesus. What would have happened if She hadn’t responded with ‘Amen’? (In the church) My body became very warm with ‘Amen’, and I went home. Then, I didn’t feel it necessary to think of suicide anymore. Afterward, I borrowed some money to buy some Holy Items. At the church, I bought the smallest statue of Mother Mary, the smallest Cross, and some other sacred items, including a veil. Without knowing the true meaning of the rose, I put a rose in a vase and began to pray.

Following, after three days, I heard Jesus’ voice. “Remain close to the Bible. The Bible is my living word.” Amen! I opened the Bible responding with ‘Amen’. I opened to the Gospel according to Luke from 8:40. A woman who had suffered 12 years from a hemorrhage was cured. With that belief, ‘I would be healed if I only touch the tassel of Jesus’ clothes.’ Then, did Jesus say, “I have healed you. Go in peace?” (No.) No, right? (Right!)

“Woman, your FAITH has saved you. Go in peace.” And, Jairus’ servant came and said, “Master, do not trouble the teacher any longer. Your daughter is dead;”

On hearing this, Jesus answered him, “Do not be afraid; just have FAITH and she will be saved.” Amen! When I accepted both Words given to me by Jesus, responding with ‘Amen’, the cancers outside my anus began to retreat, (like sounding) “Sok-sok-sok”. Those who have had serious hemorrhoids would understand me. My cancer size was not only just like that though. It was huge! I couldn’t even sit down then.

But the cancers retreated “Sok-sok-sok”. When I touched it, I felt it was GONE! I also saw my toes, and there was no cancer tumor at all! So I ran to the hospital immediately and I took my blood pressure. Amazingly, it registered 120/70 mmHg. The next day, 120/80 mmHg! (50~40mmHg before, returned to 120~80mmHg.) I recovered to normal. And everything became all CLEAN and NORMAL. By the spirituality of ‘Amen’, I hope you will also be healed today!

Although I didn’t know God before, in everything since my childhood, I’ve been practicing the Prayers of Life. I have never put anything crookedly, by putting them all in straight way. Before, I used to make soy sauce myself. At the time, there were five neighboring families. They all loved my soy sauce and soybean paste, saying it’s so good! So, even before morning time, all of it were gone because it was so delicious. They even cut off the sealed rubber band and took all away. I wouldn’t even get a chance to eat my own soybean paste.

‘Maybe, they needed it so they took it.’ This is exactly the life of ‘Offering up’. Though I didn’t know ‘Offering up’ at the time, I didn’t say ‘Why did they take it? Gosh!’ It was how the Lord trained me with the Five Spiritualities since my childhood. So, our neighbors asked me, “When did you learn to make such an excellent sauce? There was a saying if sauces and soybean paste are tasty, that family will flourish I answered, “I’ve never learned it, I just did it.”

That’s how I did my housework. ‘How can I cook something good for my husband? How can I raise my children well?’ Equipped with only these kind of thoughts, I didn’t even have time to go out. And, whatever I did, I felt joyful.

Dear pilgrims, no matter what we do, we have to do it joyfully. (Amen!) Don’t pass over a single trivial thing, and also do everything joyfully. That exactly what ‘Offering up’ means. Also that will turn into ‘the Prayers of Life’. ‘The Five Spiritualities’ are all connected. I am not boasting about myself now, but as the Lord said “Let your life be known to people”, Therefore, I now am delivering these things to you.

Dear pilgrims, please do not think ‘This is just Julia’s story.’ but reflect on it yourself when you were in a certain situation, ‘Did I really offer up with Semchigo?’ ‘Did I offer it up with ‘It’s My Fault’? Please reflect on it while you’re listening.

One day, my husband Julio was appointed as a branch manager in Yeong-am. We went out to look for a house nearby. When I boarded the bus with Julio, suddenly heard loud curses, “Hooker bitch!” “That bitch should be killed.” I thought to myself, ‘Oh, who that person might be?’ and after looking at the man who said it, I realized he was actually talking about me! So I said, “you don’t know me, so how can you say that?” “You bitch! You should be killed!” he grabbed my collar and kicked me mercilessly, so I fell down onto the newly paved road.

My sister-in-law who was there said “She’s my sister-in-law!” but it was no use. Even my husband Julio said “She’s my wife!” yet it was still useless. Though Julio tried to protect me, the man continued to hit me. Then Julio quickly went to the police station to get help. I was being severely beaten. And the man said “I will hit her in toilet!”

As I struggled against being dragged (into the toilet), both his clothes and mine started tearing. Then later, the police officers finally came. In reality, Julio is only five years older than me, but he looked really elderly, and I looked like a 19-year old girl. But he thought I was young girl flirting with a married man, and said, “That bitch is destroying a family. You are a homewrecker and I will end you for that.”

But after we confirmed we were a married couple, he knelt down and said to me, “Sister, please forgive me! I thought you were only a 19-year-old lady. If you forgive me, I will make a new start.” As he said those words, I said (I was still a catechumen then), “In the name of the Father, of the Son, of the Holy Spirit, I forgive what you’ve done to me.” (Amen!)

At that time, I was going through great difficulties when I was pregnant with a 3-month old baby and this time also turned out to be a miscarriage. Because he kicked my abdomen mercilessly, and assaulted my entire body, I suffered a miscarriage. But I never mentioned anything to him.

Dear pilgrims, could you imagine how many worse things have happened to me? At the time, I became pregnant under great difficulties, but I suffered a miscarriage because I was severely beaten, and received horrible insults. ‘It’s my fault.’ If my face was really ugly and terrible, would he have done it to me? Maybe because my face is not that ugly and I look okay, and besides I’m not fat, and I look like a 19 year-old lady in his eyes, (it happened) so it’s my fault.’

Because of this, I forgave him unconditionally. Let us live a life of forgiveness. (Amen!) If we accept everything as My Fault, we won’t hate anyone. After that incident, I got pregnant again and again but I would suffer miscarriages repeatedly. While I have four children now, all in all, I was pregnant 13 times.

Up to now, (I don’t blame him) ‘If these things didn’t happen, I wouldn’t have suffered so much hard time...’ I could have thought about it like this, but I never thought this way. I only prayed for the man’s blessing. After this event happened, whenever Julio and I went to the bus terminal to visit my in-laws in Gwangju, he came quickly to us, calling, “Dear sis! Dear bro!” and paid for our bus fares. Although paying bus fare is not a big deal, but after forgiving him, we have been happy with one another.

But if I never forgave him, and said to him instead, “I suffered a miscarriage because of you. What will you do about it?” and if I punished him, what reward would I get? And even if I was compensated, what’s the use? Even if you are not compensated, by having complete forgiveness to the other, the Lord will send down upon you many more blessings. (Amen!)

Dear pilgrims, please believe this, if you give kindness to others, the Lord will give you even more. Also, ‘It’s My Fault’. If you have felt like you’re not pretty enough, do not suffer from an inferiority complex. If you are not pretty, please think this way, ‘Oh, it is better that I’m not pretty.’ ‘What a relief that men don’t follow me around.’ You can think in this way. For pretty women, men might run after them and that would be very irritating. With stalkers, it is really hard to bear with, indeed.

Since childhood I used to think that I never really sinned. One day when I attended a prayer meeting, the volunteer leader proclaimed, “Today, someone will receive the strong gifts of prophecy and healing.” So I told Julio, “Dear, maybe it’s me.” And he answered, “Yes, I think so.” Later, the leader came to me saying, “You feel nothing?” “No. Nothing.” A volunteer also came by saying, “May I pray over you? Do you have any pain (that needs prayer)?” “No, my sickness is unimportant. For those who have risen from their death, all matters of flesh are useless. “Just pray for me to grow spiritually, please.”

I prayed for my spiritual growth, and I began to cry at 3 a.m. I cried so much and I was led to repent. Everything was my fault, I realized! Confessing we are sinners, we must rush to the Lord! I have never blamed others. Once I had a business partnership, but I quit without any compensation. I have been beaten up bloody and humiliated in various ways, but I forgave them all. I worked at the hair salon for so long without getting paid, but I offered up everything entirely. Likewise, I didn’t know God at that time, but there was nobody I couldn’t forgive.

However, at that very moment, for the first time I realized how sinful I was. Stalked by others! How many times I suffered from this! It really was tough to bear. There was one guy who told me he was dumped by me for the 1st time when I didn’t accept him, he felt completely destroyed. And there was another guy who said, “Ah...! Over the mountain, Yoon Hong-seon (Julia) lives, (whom I miss). Ahhh...” No matter how many men loved me and ran after me, I never used to think it was my fault! Had I ever given a glance to them? Had I ever held their hands? That’s why I never thought it was my fault. However, ‘Because I was there, they got sick and everything went wrong!’ I realized.

Once I was beaten up with wooden sticks, and my uncle slapped me on the face so my ears are still in pain. My uncle took all of my mother’s money and he beat me until I was 24. That was the Love of God. I practiced ‘Semchigo’ as if I was loved.

Dear pilgrims, if we arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities, we don’t have to hate anyone. There (at the prayer meeting), saying that everything was my fault, I cried so much “I am a sinner. A sinner...” Then, the black curtain was opened up and the light came down. “The gate of Heaven is opened. The gate of Heaven is opened. The gate of Heaven is opened.” I heard.

Under the light I became like a little baby, saying “My Lord, please forgive me. Lord, please forgive me.” Even if you have never done others wrong, when you confess “I am a sinner”, that’s exactly the shortcut to the Lord. Dear pilgrims, let us arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities.

This is the Message of Love from Jesus on Feb 3, 2007.

“My extremely beloved children who have responded to my Mother’s call with Amen! I am sending down the light of all my love and mercy for you, who are praying here, at my Mother's earnest request and also seeing the heart of my little soul, whom I prepared and chose, which is filled with sacrifices, love, and gracious oblations accompanied by extreme pains for reparations. You have responded to my Mother’s call with Amen and are praying with your whole heart. What is there that I would not lay down for you? I send down boundless blessings on all of you gathered and praying here.”

This is the Message of Love from the Blessed Mother in May 5, 2007.

“My beloved children who rushed to this place responding to my call with Amen! Thank you. My Son Jesus and I send down boundless blessings on all of you who came here and are praying to praise and honor my Son Jesus and me. I will offer up even the most ungrateful sinners to God the Father with the transcendence of my boundless love, if they only ardently wish to receive salvation, shedding tears and sincerely repenting like Mary Magdalene, and follow me. Therefore, do not worry or fear but entrust yourselves to me in a simple way like little babies.” Amen!