Praise Jesus! Praise the Blessed Mother!

My blood pressure was 184 today and then the Blood Pressure Monitor (BPM) turned erroneous after that. BPM usually shows up to 280. My blood pressure gave erroneous readings continuously, so I was told to stay in bed. All this while I was praying ‘If I live, I’m Yours. If I die, I’m Yours. Lord, I entrust myself entirely to you!’ offering up not only for all you pilgrims who are gathered here today, but also for your family members, and the people who want to be here today but couldn’t make it. Finally, here I am!

The pain of death I’ve offered up for you, so you may receive abundant blessings. (Amen!) There’s nothing much that I want for myself, but a great amount that I want for you. (clapping) So, on Dec 25, I thought I’d be okay even after meeting all the pilgrims. And the day after, I couldn’t move for five days. But I was delighted, because I know that God’s grace is flowing to you (through my suffering).

When I tried to cut my hair today, I couldn’t do it because my shoulders were pained from the ill effects I suffered on Dec. 25. Every piece of hair that I cut, I prayed that the Lord would cut off all the bad things in your souls and bodies, so I was happy. Though my shoulders were stiff and very painful, I was happy. Dear pilgrims, let us all offer up well joyfully. (Amen!)

I’m really unworthy and trivial, but I offer up these pains for you so that all my sacrifices will not be in vain and may your souls and bodies be healed. Let’s welcome year 2020 anew. So, we, at every day and every moment, smile~ and beautifully beam~

Even if we are in pain, whether your husbands do wrong, or wives do wrong, or your children or your parents do wrong, and if we choose not to blame them and practice loving one another instead, we’ll be united in love. (Amen!) Amen!

As I told you, there’s only one thing that I can do well. It’s to smile even though I feel difficulty and pain. As I always say, I am really nothing but just a shameful sinner. Standing in front of people is very, very embarrassing and extremely difficult thing to do. Like you dear pilgrims, I want to pray sitting in the back. But as I told you, I’ll do my best. I stay in front of you with my best efforts.

On May 5, 2001, the second declaration was issued (by Gwangju Archdiocese), right? I was so broken-hearted. I prayed for those who spread the outrageous false rumors to destroy Naju, but it was still so heartbreaking for me. I felt hard because of Gwangju Archdiocese’s various attacks to topple Naju. There were so many people who were supposed to be blessed, who were blessed, and who were healed of cancers, but many of those were misled (by priests of Gwangju Archdiocese).

A woman who hated her husband like an enemy for 18 years; those who were divorced became reunited again making new starts (in Naju); even they had stopped coming here (because of declaration). And they fell ill again. So when I met Archbishop Choi and the priests (in Gwangju), I asked, “Who will be responsible for them?” They said “Oh, who will be responsible? We can’t be.” They said they couldn’t. Then who will take responsibility for them? How painful Jesus and the Blessed Mother would be to see this behavior, as if pouring a cup of water to put out the huge fire on a cart!

Previously, I promised martyrdom to St. Kim Dae-gun and he even appeared to me saying “Let’s follow the Way well with the spirit of martyrdom.” and he asked me to hold his hand, saying he would help me out. So, I offered up for them, but my heart was so hurt by their behavior which is like pouring a cup of water to put out the huge fire on a cart. So, to sew up the torn Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Blessed Mother, I firmly made up my mind to pray the Way of the Cross from 6 a.m. to 9 a.m. daily for a year. And I began praying the Stations of the Cross on July 5, 2001, the feast day of St. Kim Dae-gun.

Before, my longest sleeping time was three hours. Nighttime is meant for sleeping but I suffered during that time and I slept only from 6 a.m. to 9 a.m. But even in those three hours, I began to pray (the Way of the Cross). But it didn’t always take 3 hours. It would be 3 hours when the prayer ended early. Sometimes it would take 4 hours or even 5. On Nov 9, 2001, by sending down the Precious Blood, Jesus and the Blessed Mother showed me clearly that They were bleeding as They accompanied us and were with us while praying the Stations of the Cross.

After Gwangju Archdiocese’s declaration, I suffered in great pain. When I prayed the Way of the Cross, sometimes two people accompanied me, sometimes three, four, or five. I could not walk while praying (due to severe suffering). Then I had to crawl over to pray every day.

So, Jesus and the Blessed Mother were very touched to see this. That’s why Jesus and the Blessed Mother walked the Way of the Cross with us. Jesus and the Blessed Mother accompany you on the Way of the Cross. Please believe just as it is. (Amen!) Also, They have given us the Messages of Love so many times thus far, right? You know it, right? (Yes!) Like this, They do accompany us.

Dr. Ricardo visited on Jan 4, 2002. On Jan 5, after hearing about my daily prayer on the Way of the Cross, Dr. Ricardo also joined me. At the fourth Station, Jesus met the Blessed Mother. Although She met Jesus Who was carrying the Cross, what could She do? Imagine Her heart when She couldn’t do anything, even as His Mother. Can you imagine it? Usually we say, “My heart is torn into a thousand and ten thousand pieces.” But Her Heart was not just torn in a thousand or even ten thousand pieces, but more than ten thousand googol (10^100) pieces, I think.

Jesus is God but also the Son of the Blessed Mother and that made Her really weep invisible Tears of Blood. Then at the fifth Station, Simon carried the Cross for Jesus, right? (Yes.) It’s not that he wanted to volunteer. He didn’t mean to carry the Cross. On his way home, he was just passing by when the Roman soldiers called him and made him carry the Cross. Simon could have refused by saying, “Oh, no. I won’t.” While he didn’t want to, he chose to carry the Cross.

 

Did they let Simon carry the Cross to help Jesus was in so much pain? No, it was because the Roman soldiers didn’t want Jesus to die before being crucified. So they let Simon carry the Cross. But Simon, offering up graciously, carried the Cross and was saved. It’s important when and where we are. You are now here, the place (of God). You are the blessed children. The Lord and the Blessed Mother are here with you. If you believe it, it will be realized as it is.

And at the sixth Station, Veronica wiped Jesus’ Bloody sweat, right? It was when Roman soldiers were scourging Him with whips, and many people stoned Him and made all kinds of mockery toward Him. It’s not easy to go into such a horrifying situation and wipe out Jesus’ Bloody sweat. Please think about it. Going there so bravely was risking one’s life. So when she was wiping out Jesus’ Bloody sweat, His face appeared on her handkerchief, right? Jesus said, “You will live if you lay down your lives for me.” But when she laid down her life, she even gained the eternal life. So she became a saint. You also, dear pilgrims, are gathered here to wipe the Bloody sweat of Jesus and the Blessed Mother like St. Veronica.

At the seventh Station, Jesus fell down the second time. How many times He was hit and kicked at that Station! A Roman soldier slapped His cheek. How painful it was! Because He was slapped, He collapsed on the ground and the Roman soldiers rushed over to Him kicking and stamping Him with their feet. When they kicked Him, Jesus rolled down. I’ve participated in His suffering and rolled 7 times from seventh Station to the fourth. But when we roll, we have to come this way. It’s strange that when I was going that way where a big stone laid and just before I was about to hit my head the Blessed Mother protected me.

I participated in His suffering. He was scourged so many times and was hit by a ringed fist so severely. It was so painful that I found here and caved my face. That’s why I was bleeding then. Jesus’ face was caved, and so was mine.

He fell down at the ninth Station, the third time, and when He tried to rise, He fell down even while being whipped. People stoned and insulted Him, and even those who previously received graces from Him did this to Him.

There, He rolled and tried to rise, but He fell down again. When he was rising, He got hit and fell down again and again. How many times He fell down! We recite vaguely, “Let us meditate on Jesus falling the third time.” There, He fell down again, again and again. That’s why He was covered with Blood. If you look at the 9th Station, you will find lots of marks of the Precious Blood where He fell down. As Jesus kept falling down, His Precious Blood dropped down even to the upper places.

I also fell down in the same way. So, I rolled over there several times. You know Jesus was crucified at the 12th Station. When the Roman soldier stabbed His side with the spear to make sure He died, it was pierced like this and Blood spout out from there. At that moment, Jesus gave blessings upon all of us. The rain of Precious Blood poured down from His hands. Jesus granted the rain of the Precious Blood to everyone who was praying there at that time.  Now, receive the rain of the Precious Blood again today! (Amen!) (Clapping)

 

Jesus was buried in the tomb at 14th Station. How was He buried? He was buried with all our sins. Let’s repent all our sins today so that it may be forgiven. (Amen!) Amen! (Amen!) Jesus resurrected in three days. Let’s resurrect anew also. (Amen!)

At that time, a cameraman and a television journalist accompanied Dr. Ricardo; there were three of them. At the 12th Station, when Jesus was stabbed at His side, my side was also swollen like this. Almost every other day, I suffer from that pain. On the last 31st, I suffered from enormous pain in my side.

I offered up all the pains for you. Jesus and the Blessed Mother said, “When you (plural) pray to my Son Jesus and me, it becomes a plier of love, a handkerchief of love, and a tailor of love.” We have to know that when we entirely offer it up for the glory of the Lord, Jesus will grant us much more additional blessing to us.

Jesus said He would listen to any prayer providing if it is not self-centered. Jesus really gives Himself for us in everything, but we often don’t give ourselves wholly to Him. Dear pilgrims, even though we are not worthy, if we entrust everything entirely to the Lord and go forward to Him, He will cherish us. He would do everything for us when we do our best.

Last time, I spoke about ‘apple-egg’. Some people thought I made just one ‘apple-egg’ (in the skill contest). But I prepared several boiled eggs, cut the middle piece of a radish, and stuck the camellia branch on it. Then, I applied edible red pigment on the boiled eggs so that they looked like real apples. It took me 20 minutes to make all of them. They were so pretty, too. I just did my best. I do my best whatever I could do. I don’t know how to do it, but if I was told to do it, I always do my best. Even if I didn’t know how to do it at all, but I have done my best.

When I was 35 years old, I participated in ME (Marriage Encounter) seminar with my parish Sister. The participants were all elders. There were ten of us in our group, and I was told to entertain people again. ‘Oh, what shall we do? Okay, I’ll try it.’ I volunteered the “Parable of the Prodigal Son” as a play. As I played the role of the prodigal son, people were laughing hilariously. We won the first prize for that act. Now that I think about it, I was always winning first place.

It is not because I was good, but because the Lord was with me whenever I was making efforts. God helped me even when I didn’t know He exists. Then how much will He do for us who knows Him. Some said I was born with a gift. I wasn’t born with any gift, but I just did my best.

Dear pilgrims, Jesus said, “Love your neighbor as yourself.” But how many people really love their neighbors as themselves? But you can start anew now. A lot of people have dementia these days, right? Do you know what is the best medicine for people suffering from dementia? It’s love. Dementia can be healed by love.

We run a nursing home called ‘House of Love’. At the time when I was the president of one ‘praesidium’ of the Region of Mary, there was a woman, who was the vice-president. She got dementia in her old age. So, we took her to our nursing home. These days, I can’t visit there so often because I’m doing this mission and receive pains. When I was building a nursing home, I prepared a room for myself to live together with elderly ladies.

 

 

But I could not stay there. The woman stayed in my room instead. When I visited her and sat in her room, she said, “You, bitch! Why are you sitting on my husband’s seat?” Actually she didn’t have a husband. But I said, “Oh, I’m sorry! I’m sorry!” She told me, “You, bitch! You slept with my husband, didn’t you?” I said, “Oh, I’m sorry, I won’t do it again. I won’t. Forgive me.” “OK, I forgive you what you have done to me so far.”

And she said, “Oh, Angela, that bitch also had slept with my husband few times.” So, I said, “Oh, I’m sorry~ I’ll tell Angela not to do it again~ We’ll never do that anymore~” Then she said, “Okay, I’ll forgive you what you have done to me so far. Yes. You may sit here today. Next to my husband.” If I had lost my temper and argued with her asking, “No, when did I do that?” it would never work. You have to soothe them. By that, that kind of person becomes a gentle lamb. Their words may sound really weird! But, when people with dementia talk about any unreasonable things, you should respond to them with only love.

 

I always brought along pitiful people. One day, when Francisco(beggar Julia took care of) disappeared, I was looking for him here and there. When I arrived Naju Hospital, there was a six-bed room that was giving out so awful smell. No one could stand the smell and left the room. The very one with the bad odor used to be a cop before. She had lived alone. When she got nearly 60 years old, an old man begged her to live together. So, she lived with him.

The old man was over 60 years old, but he always wanted to sleep with her. It was hard for the woman. Eventually, she was diagnosed with uterus cancer. At its terminal stage, it was starting to bleed out with the pus. Her womb was decaying. So I visited her, prayed for her and took care of her. I also took care of another old man in the hospital. I even washed him, then the hospital told me to take them quickly out of the hospital. Even though hospital knew that the man was homeless and the lady had no family.

I brought the old man to ‘Kkottongnae’ (the institution where beggars are housed) and I also tried bringing her elsewhere too, but we were very busy with a prayer meeting scheduled on Dec 24. (At that time, we limited our Christmas celebration among our volunteers only) So I told the hospital that we would pick her up after Christmas. But when we arrived at the hospital, she was not there. So we went to the lady’s house. The house was full of foul smell. The man who was living together with her had taken everything with him, including her household goods and left.

As she had nowhere to go, she went to the man’s place, but he didn’t want to accept her. So she had nowhere to go. That’s how she landed lying in her old house. The room door had holes and couldn’t keep out the cold wind. It was midwinter. And she was lying in a cold room. She could have been frozen to death. So, we took her to ‘the house of love’. She severely cursed the old man. “He abused me, who was living alone, to satisfy his sexual desire. He abused me sexually until I got sick like this.” So, I said to her, “Because God loves you so much that He called you here that way.” I told her nice things out of love and she improved a lot since then. She said, “Here’s heaven.” And she changed completely.

 

So, no matter who we meet, we must lead them to God’s love. (Amen!) If someone talks bad about the other person, never toll along with him. We must lead him to love. We must bring even a single soul into the arms of the Lord and the Blessed Mother. In the community of love, you should lead one another to love, always thingking, ‘How can I console the Lord and the Blessed Mother?’ Let’s live with that.

Our planning director spoke a lot of good words to us. Father Su as well. We can’t benefit such precious words from anywhere else. Many people always focus themselves on self-interest, instead of pursuing spiritual things even though they are suffering from complete spiritual thirst.

At least we, who are called by the Lord and the Blessed Mother, should always stay awake and pray. (Amen!) We must remember the days of ‘Sodom and Gomorrah’, the days of ‘Noah’, the days of ‘Babel Tower’. Remember what happened to the people who didn’t listen to God at the time.

Now it has turned into very dangerous times. We don’t know when will the punishments come upon us. I don’t know either. I always think about ‘Would today be the last day? Or, ‘Would tomorrow be the last day?’ I am living with my thought as if today is the last day for me. We don’t know when God the Father will take us. So, we have to stay awake all the time. To stay awake, we have to arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities. (Amen!) If we arm ourselves (with the Five Spiritualities), we can practice it.

We have to imitate our Lord Jesus who keeps humbling himself always, and we have to follow our Blessed Mother who follows God with “Yes. (Amen)” in humility and obedience. When Shinkansen was constructed in Japan, it was said, “Shinkansen will be absolutely untestable with any natural disasters.” But it collapsed.

So, no matter how strong those pillars of iron and walls of brass that we human construct, the Lord can tear them down and build them up again in a twinkling of the eye. We don’t know what is going to happen. No matter what violent raging waves threaten to sweep us away, if we practice the Five Spiritualities, Jesus will save us and lead us to heaven wherever we may be. (Amen!)

Dear pilgrims, do not be worried or be afraid. All we have to do is to follow Jesus and the Blessed Mother. (Amen!) If we deny ourselves and come to Jesus, Jesus and the Blessed Who appeared and are present in Naju will protect all of us.

Jesus and the Blessed Mother love you so much! Never ever forget this. And we do our best! What I want to emphasize over and over again is “we do our best”. It’s important to do our best even though we are unworthy and unqualified. I always have done my best since my childhood days and throughout my life. On all such occasions, the Lord has intervened in my life.

Even if someone didn’t return the money that you lent them, do not make enemies out of them. If your money is not returned to you by treating debtors as your enemies, then it’s reasonable to let them be your enemies. However, being an enemy only makes your heart fall into the bottomless pit. As Jesus said, “Father, they know not what they do. Forgive them.” He prayed for the people who crucified Him, so let us always remember the prayer that Jesus prayed on the Cross, and we too should forgive others.

One person from my parish asked me to lend some money to do his own business when I first started my beauty salon. I used to lend money to a few people even though I started the business with other people’s money. At the time, we farmed in the countryside, but I sold all of the crops from my farm and lent the money to him, saying, “I will lend these to you and you can pay me back by installment every month.” But he took the money and didn’t pay them back to me at all. As he was a Catholic, he couldn’t help meeting me during Mass. But he just avoided me.  

So, I called him after the Mass and said to him, “Don’t worry. There is nothing you can repay me since you have no money. Don’t think about that money but just take it easy.” And I absolved his debt. If the debt couldn’t be absolved, he must do penance in Purgatory. So I said, “I will absolve your debt.” Let us not think of things like, ‘Why are they like that?’. Thank you.

Do you know what kind of suffering I’m receiving? I’d like to share about my suffering. One day I was sleeping but I suddenly rushed to Julio and said, “How could you do that to me?” So he said in surprise, “Oh, What’s wrong? What happened to you?” “You did this and that to me...” and suddenly I realized, ‘Ah! Somebody must be fighting right now.’ So I said to him, “Julio, I am sorry. I’m so sorry. Someone must be fighting right now.” (She realized that she was going through suffering for those who were fighting)

Despite what we don’t understand, we have to try to catch the meaning right away by staying awake, like, ‘Oh! Someone must be fighting now. I am suffering the pains for them.’ I called the person whom I assume is fighting now. It was at about 4 a.m. The couple fought and they just planned to commit suicide by driving their car straight into a reservoir. It was exactly that time when I woke up (and rushed to Julio). That’s how I suffer.

I am so happy for whatever are given by the Lord. Now I should tell you what I missed a while ago : When I did the Stations of the Cross, I was so happy because Jesus and the Blessed Mother could be comforted by my pain offering and all of you could be healed spiritually and physically through my sufferings. Because of these hopes, I am so delighted. Dear pilgrims, may you be healed spiritually and physically today as well.

Today, I smelled like something burning excessively. Because of that, I had a headache to the extent that I wasn’t able to come to my senses. It is from the burning smell that burns away all your bad things today. (Amen!) Amen! I wish that every bad part of your souls and bodies get burnt up. Thank you. Let us meditate on the Messages of Love from Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

This is the Message of Love from Jesus on January 1, 2007.

“My extremely beloved children! If you make efforts to walk the way of perfection and saintly virtues by turning everything in your lives into prayers at every moment as I taught through my little soul chosen by me, I will work within you together with my Mother even if you are unworthy and imperfect and let you enjoy eternal happiness in the next world.” Amen!

This is the Message of Love from the Blessed Mother on January 3, 2002.

“All my beloved children in the world! All humans are destined to die because of Adam’s sin, but, if even the most wicked sinners open widely the doors of their hearts, repent, approach (the Lord and me) as sinners, and ask for forgiveness, they will not be asked questions about their past but will be blessed.  They will obtain the Tree of Eternal Life thanks to my Son Jesus Christ and sing the Lord’s glory at the heavenly banquet filled with joy, love and peace.” Amen!

I wish the Messages of Love from the Lord and the Blessed Mother are realized to all of you as proclaimed. (Amen!) Please close your eyes and if there are some people whom you have not forgiven, bring them all to the Lord and the Blessed Mother. Now, bring them all with your holding hands.

Jesus, who is truly present with us who are unworthy! How come you love us this much! Please bless us infinitely so that we, who are so unworthy, can arm ourselves with the Five Spiritualities as soon as possible and make us be your children who give glory to the Lord, comfort to the Blessed Mother and receive unceasing thanksgiving from us, Your instruments though we are so unworthy.

We have grown up thus far in your amazing love. Please nurture us spiritually and bless every family of all these children here so that the rest of our lives are filled with joy, love, and peace. And please bless the sick families and have mercy on all of us leading us to a new resurrection.

Through Your amazing love, let us stay awake always with the Five Spiritualities and let us unite in Your love with each other so that we enjoy eternal happiness in heaven escorted by angels on the last day. So let us live a new life of resurrection at every moment of every day. Please bless all of these children infinitely so that we can make a new start for the year 2020.

In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, through the Immaculate Heart of the Blessed Mother, we earnestly pray that we may all be resurrected anew. Amen!

♪♬Love, my soul~ Love, my soul~ Everything in me, love all~

♪♬Forgive, my soul~ Forgive, my soul~ Everything in me, forgive all~

♪♬Repent, my soul~ Repent, my soul~ Everything in me, repent all~

♪♬Do penance, my soul~ Do penance, my soul~ Everything in me, do penance all~ Amen~