One day, together with a nun from the parish, I visited a patient who was unable to have an operation for her uterine cancer as the cancer cells had already spread throughout her body.
Her whole house was extremely dirty with a stench. Even if she was to pass away, she needed to forgive everyone and offer up everything well before her death. So I continued talking to her.
But the sister said, “Ah, Julia. Let’s pray for her and leave quickly.” I replied, “Sister, we must cultivate the wilderness. By doing so, when we start to plant the seeds, won’t the buds sprout well?”
Then, the sister said, “Okay Julia, then you can continue cultivating the wilderness. I’m leaving.” Then I prayed for the sick lady that the Lord and the Blessed Mother would be with her to quench her parched heart.
And I explained to her the spirituality of ‘It’s My Fault’. She told me that she hated her husband so much that she wanted to kill him. She also told me how I understood her mind so well.
I tried to convince that all her hatred toward her husband was because of her being, and to accept them as “My faults”.
I asked her to say this when her husband would come in, “Honey, how much you have struggled because of me. If you have met a nicer person instead of me, you could be a happier person. I am so sorry.”
At first, she hated her husband so much and her mother-in-law, cursing them both stubbornly. But as we kept talking, she began to be filled with love.
What happened when she accepted it as ‘My Fault’? She shed tears profusely. She cried so much, saying “I really did many things wrong.” I guided her what to do when her husband would come home. Then while I was cleaning all the corners in her house, I found maggots crawling all over.
I was disgusted by the maggots, but while cleaning the maggots out one by one, I prayed, ‘Please take out all the evil habits of this lady and her husband and please heal her illness.’
And she knelt down seeking forgiveness as soon as her husband entered. ‘I used to think that despite carrying my husband’s burden and raising the children, he didn’t appreciate me.’
But now, she completely changed saying, “You are the one who has struggled so much since meeting me.” and she asked for forgiveness with tears.
She couldn’t even eat rice or porridge. However, when she accepted everything as "My Fault", she shed a lot of tears asking forgiveness from her husband, then she was completely healed from the cancer that spread all over the body!
When their love that had been destroyed was restored, they received joy, love, and peace in abundance. Dear all, if you believe that the Lord and Mother Mary are with us, there is nothing to be afraid of.
Even if we are helplessly threatened by imminent crisis, the Lord and Mother Mary will surely save us and uphold us as a people who never yield their integrity, even under adversity.
