Julia
Kim's
testimony during
the first Saturday vigil
Praise
be Jesus ! Praise
be the Blessed Mother ! I
know that it was difficult for you to come here.
I
heard that it is raining heavily across the nation today. Did you get rain-soaked ? (No)
According
to the weather forecast, it will rain on Saturday and Sunday, with showers and
thunder here in the Naju area. However, as usual, the Lord will help us so that
it will not rain during this prayer meeting.
Isn't
it right? ( Yes It is )
It
was very cold last first Saturday prayer meeting , but doesn’t it feel too warm
at this moment ?
The
heat of the Holy Spirit is now intense. May all of you fully receive the Holy
Spirit. ( Amen! )
Here
in Naju now, God and the Lord and the Blessed Mother are present with you. Now,
let us forgive those whom we have not forgiven.
In
the Old Testament, it is written, " Love thy neighbor, hate thy enemy
" and " An Eye for an eye, a
tooth for a tooth."
On
the other hand, the New Testament states, "Love even your enemies, and
pray for those who persecute you."
There
was no Jesus and the Blessed Mother at the time of the Old Testament, but Let
us love even our enemies, remembering the words of Jesus and the Blessed Mother
who are always present with us, and who keeps on saying " Love even your
enemies."
It
is not easy for us to love our enemies, but we can forgive them when we pray in
the name of Jesus and the Blessed Mother.
When
I had two children and conceived my 3rd child , my husband was appointed to
work at the branch office in Younam-gun county.
The
incident I am going to narrate happened on our way back home just after we
rented a room to live in, in Youngam. When I was about to board the bus , I
heard someone shouting, " You are a
prostitute ! Home wrecker !" The man used unspeakable foul language and
continued yelling, "Hey, you should die! "
Upon
hearing this , I thought, " Is there a prostitute here ? Who is he talking
about ?
Then,
I turned my face to him and he was looking at me, mouthing obscene language,
shouting and pointing his finger at me saying, " I have to kill you
!",
"
Come here!", " I will kill you!"
He grabbed me by the collar and flung me to the ground.
One
of my sister-in-law accompanied us at that time. So she tried to explain to him
that she is my sister-in-law, but he refused to listen and kept on saying ,
"We have to kill such a home wrecker."
He
continuously hit me and threw me on the ground. The bus stop instantly turned
into a madhouse and all the cars stopped and the passengers were staring at me.
My
husband Julio also kept on saying that I was his wife, but he adamantly refused
to believe it and continued abusing me , so eventually Julio went to report
it to the police station nearby.
At
that time, I was extremely weak because I was 3 months pregnant. Months before, my 4 months pregnancy was
forcibly terminated by the doctor who deceived me by telling me that the baby
in my womb had died. He did the abortion so as to make money. I almost died
then. I was able to regain consciousness after 8 days.
At
the police station, while putting a deposition on record , the man finally saw
my ID card and realized that I am really Julio's wife as he claimed. This young
guy suddenly knelt down and said to me, " Elder sister, please forgive me,
I am so sorry. "
His
Story went like this. He had a 19 years old younger sister who had an affair
with an older married man.
When
he saw us, he assumed Julio was 40 years old and I was 19 years old and that we
were having an inappropriate relationship. It came to his mind that I was like
his younger sister.
So,
he concluded that this young girl who was with this 40 years old married man,
is a home wrecker and therefore, he had to warn me.
After he realized the true story, he knelt
down and asked me for forgiveness.
I
was not baptized yet at that time, But God was in my mind so I was able to say “ I am forgiving you in the name of the
Father and of the Son and of the Holy ghost." (
* " Holy Spirit " which
currently being said )
The
Policemen there on hearing me, put a finger on their heads and made a circle
sign as to indicate, " Crazy woman." They were talking in whispers,
then said to me that I need to go to the mental hospital.
I
started bleeding as we left the police station. I was then 3 months pregnant.
I
suffered a miscarriage because of the trauma brought about by being hit and
thrown to the ground by the man and I also suffered for a long time from the
aftereffects .
After
my forced abortion, I was abused and also blamed by my in-law's family. So, my heart was torn into pieces. Also my body’s condition became worst because I conceived again soon after. This
was because I followed someone's recommendation that you'd recover your health faster by giving birth. But after being hit by the man I had a
miscarriage again.
I
have 4 children now but I conceived 13 times. I could have hated that man and treated him as an enemy if I thought as
secular people do. But then I thought, It happened because I was there. Whose fault was it ? Was it my fault?
The
situation was terrible, and we could have become each other' enemy. If I looked like an ugly old lady. He would not have done that. Also, if I was
not there at that time, the incident would not have happened. Therefore,
everything was my fault.
Dear
fellow pilgrims !
If
some bad incident happens to you , do not hate others. If everything can be
solved by hating others, you may hate others !
Is
there any way to solve the problems if you hate others ? None ?
( No ! none )
Is
it true ? ( Yes) then let us not hate others. ( Amen )
My
unhappy life started since that time in this Secular world. Without
that bad incident, I would have given birth normally , without miscarriaging so
many times.
By
the way, I did not report the miscarriage to the police station even though I
suffered terrible pains and sufferings. The young guy could have been sentenced as a murderer if I reported the
matter that I had a miscarriage.
Is
there any reward for me if I reported him to be punished ? ( Nothing )
I
forgave him ,but he was really forgiven by the Father , Son and Holy ghost ,because he repented of
his faults . I don't know if he now believes in Jesus or not. But I am
confident that He will do some work for God after experiencing what he went
through.
The
Lord and the Blessed Mother said that we should not worry about the
consequence, so I was not worried about any consequences.
Anyway,
I forgave him. Afterwards, I had to return
to Naju, but it was too late and there were no more buses. In addition I
was still bleeding continuously . I could not buy any diaper, so I used my
clothes to stop the bleeding.
Anyway,
we moved to Youngam, and one day, on our way to my In-law's house in Kwangju,
someone cried out " Elder Sister !, Elder sister , and Elder brother !,
where are you going ?"
We
saw that it was the young guy who hit me.
He called us sister and brother
and got a ticket for us. He was working at the ticket booth of the terminal.
He
was moved by the love and forgiveness, so he had been waiting for us always to
give his gratitude to me.
Dear
fellow pilgrims,
Though
we may be disgraced and insulted as crazy people while we are practicing love
to live in the love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother, it is still okay.
No
matter how severe the persecutions we are facing , we must remain apostles of the Lord and the Blessed Mother
and their soldiers. We are the little souls, cohort of the Blessed Mother. (Amen)
The
world is changing and even the church is degenerating. People do not know the
importance of the Eucharist which was given by God. It is Jesus himself, Who
completely sacrificed Himself for us.
Some
of the clergy describe Jesus as if he is like Buddha and Confucius.
For
ostensible reason of unity, the Catholic church invites a Buddhist monk and a protestant pastor to give us homily.
They
are doing these, and yet they persecute the children who truly follow the Lord
and the Blessed Mother. How deplorable this is......
Jesus
said , " Who is going to lower me down from the Cross?" It is you !.
At least you who know me , stitch up my heart that has been torn into
pieces.
Dear
everyone !,
You
are now being persecuted. But on the
last day, you will enjoy eternal happiness beside the Lord and the Blessed
Mother if you do not look back anymore.
The
more we come closer and closer to each other, the more the cunning devil of
division will try to sabotage and disrupt the love that we have for one another
by making us mishear, mis-look and
mis-understand each other.
We
must understand this matter well so we can become one in the love of the Lord
and the Blessed Mother.
It is hard to forgive others without
reconciling with them. We need to be on the side of love, unconditional love,
so we can be repentant. Therefore,
do we need to meet them to reconcile with them ?
If
anyone here now has a similar experience,
let us forgive those who hurt us at this moment.
Realizing
it was an act by the devil, we will gain victory against the devil of division.
The
target that we need to fight against is not human, but the wicked devil in the
sky, Satan.
So,
we need to realize that we are not trying to fight with someone human in order
to gain victory against the devil of division which fills the sky and
earth. The devil of division which fills
the sky and earth tries to shatter the joy, peace and love of God in any way
they can.
I
would like you to take time for meditation. The Lord and the Blessed Mother
will give us abundant joy, love and peace because They love us so much.
As
you know, don't we feel more hurt and also feel a sense of betrayal and
distress if someone close to us blames us rather than if one who is not close
to us has wounded us? We have to break
down all of these so as to enjoy joy, love and peace.
Numerous
people are receiving Communion sacrilegiously.
Because Jesus and the Blessed Mother love us sinners so much, many
Eucharistic miracles have been shown to us.
Even His precious Blood came down. He is appealing to us by showing us
these immeasurable unprecedented miracles.
The
Lord and the Blessed Mother personally chose priests whom the Lord can put them in
His eyes without feeling any pain. However, the religious who are spouses of
Jesus are not awake and do not pay attention to the words of the Lord and the
Blessed Mother.
The
Church is not teaching the true spirituality. Consequently, the faith of
parishioners have slowly decayed.
As
a sign of warning, many disasters have taken place here and there in the world.
But many do not feel and understand the seriousness.
How
many people were swept away by the Great earthquake, Tsunami etc. ?
They
did not accept the warning from God, but just thought that it was nothing and
only say " Ah, disaster again", and are insensible.
Accident
and natural disaster occurred not by coincidence. Many different kinds of
warnings are increasing. They have occurred not only in the time of Noah's
Deluge, of Sodom and Gomorrah, and in the time of the fall of the tower of
Babel but also even now.
This
world is to be swept away, but the punishment is delayed because little souls
like you are gathering in prayer.
The
Cup of wrath of God the Father is not yet sent down and is being delayed
through the prayers offered by all of you who are making great effort to be
little souls .
"
Do not think , " I am helpless "
When
you clearly realize the simple truth that even light feathers amassed together
in large numbers can sink a boat, then display the power of love more
energetically , and work together in unity. We can then gain the victory
against the devils who are trying to destroy this world.
Dear
pilgrims !
Let
us ,we who are personally chosen by the Lord and the Blessed Mother, be awake
and wipe away their sweat-blood and tears of blood through our lives.
Let
us become humble little souls by turning our whole lives into prayer. If we follow the Lord and the Blessed Mother
by practicing the 5 spirituality that we taught in Naju, then the chastisements
will not be sent down.
Jesus
persevered for 30 years in His private life in preparation for the 3 years of
His public life. Let us offer all kinds of difficulties graciously so that our intentions will be realized.
Dear
fellow pilgrims !
To
be given love, Let us give charity. love is to be given by you.
In
terms of love, we need to give and take from one another. But we should make an
effort to give more love to others. Therefore, do not seek to be loved by your
in-laws and parents but instead just give your love to them. Let us sacrifice
to give love, then we will reap the rewards.
This
is a story of when I lived in my In-law's house. I lived with my parents-in-law, 7 brothers-in-law, 2 children of my uncle-in-law , and also his friend's
son as well. I also took care of my grand-mother in law.
How
many were they ? I
had to care for all those people all day
long and it used to be almost midnight when I finished washing the dishes. Then
I had to give a massage to my
grand-mother in law. She asked me, "I heard that you grew up
alone. How did you learn all these things ?
Did you come down from heaven or
sprouted up from the ground ? She was so happy receiving a massage and
said," You made your mother-in-law so happy."
She
died when she was 96 years old. she suffered when she was younger because
of conflict between mother-in -law and
daughter-in-law. She stayed in the corner room without any heating system and
she could only have a meal when her son was in the house.
On
hearing this, I started taking care of her for about one year even when I suffered from cancer. I brought her in my
home and cooked for her and gave her bread that I baked which she happily ate
without any leftover.
I
had been bleeding due to cancer and I went see a doctor who told me that no
further treatment was needed. He told me to go home and eat delicious food and
wait for my last day. It seemed like a death sentence for me.
In
the mean time, my eldest daughter who was in 3rd grade in elementary school,
found the pine tree branches in the middle of the house courtyard was on fire
and she shouted " Fire! Fire!" I went out and saw the fire going on
but the house owner misunderstood and thought that the fire was my fault so
they wanted us to leave the house right away.
It
was a terrible situation for us because I was also suffering from cancer, so I
begged many times to let us stay but to no avail. So I had to finally leave
this house and rented another house which was an old couple's house which people said was owned by an "iron-stick". (Korean slang meaning
one who is cynical and stubborn). People said to me that I will not last there
even a month.
The
old-man was not able to live with anyone and they all soon left him. There was
no choice, so I decided to move to his house and I promised myself " I
will do well even if he is an iron-stick. " I lived without my father so,
I will live with him as my father " I could not let my grandmother in law
stay in that house, so I begged her to go back to my in law's house promising
to take her back to my house as soon as I have settled down.
I
put her on my back and went to the terminal for her to take a bus to her house
despite my suffering from cancer. Later on, I heard that my 96 years old grand-
mother in law passed away 16 days since she moved out of my house.
I
surely think that she could have lived more than 100 years old but that she died
due to the situation that she had to leave my house at that time. I was so
sorry for her, and the situation that I faced.
Anyway,
as I promised I lived in this house with iron-stick like old-man as if he was
my real father. (
As if he is my real father -The
spirituality of Semcigo in Korean )
One
day he told me that he needed to talk to me personally. Upon hearing that, I was so astonished and
thought, "What I have been dreading finally has come true."
But
dear pilgrims !
We
do not become frightened by jumping to conclusions. Jumping to conclusions
makes matter worse sometimes.
I
should have thought, ' how come he was calling me ?'' Instead I thought of
dreadful things because I heard that he was truly an iron-stick and I also
thought that the reason for him to see
me was our family was too big to be living together in a tiny room.
Surprisingly,
he started saying ,"Hi, newly married bride ! Is it
troubling for you to live in a tiny room with a big family ? I said,
"Yes It is ....."
So
he built an annex building for use as a storage or kitchen for me .
Have
you seen such a iron-stick ? Everything depends on the good I do or not do.
Dear
pilgrims !
If
you do good things for your mother-in-law, father-in-law, son, daughter,
parents, brothers and sisters etc. then many rewards will come back to you
without fail.
As
we meditate on the messages of love, we have to practice it as well so that we
understand well why Jesus and the Blessed Mother came to us.
Jesus
and the Blessed Mother came to Naju and pouring upon you immeasurable and sublime love and
unprecedented miracles which has never been shown in any places in the world.
The
same graces is now cascading upon us. ( Amen ! )
Dear
pilgrims !
The
persecution you are receiving now is so painful for the time being, but we have
to be grateful and be happy to receive it.
The
Lord will be happy and will pour down special graces on you tens of thousands
of times, nay tens of million of times.
You
will enjoy eternal happiness beside the Lord and the Blessed Mother on the last
day.
Sudden
flood, earthquake , tsunami and lots of disasters are now taking place in the
world. You may be thinking about how you can escape quickly when disaster strikes. But do you think that
you will be able to do everything you
want to do ? No
one can do anything before the natural disasters.
However,
do not worry about it. You who are
working for the Lord and the Blessed Mother will be saved and rescued and never
be shaken by any difficulties. Even
though angry waves will sweep you away, the Lord and the Blessed Mother will
grant you to enjoy heaven.
Let
us become submerged and dissolved in the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the
Immaculate Heart of Mary, then the unity in the Holy Trinity will be advanced.
It
is not easy to make it our own will, but it will be accomplished when we
offer ourselves to the Lord completely.
I
love you all exceedingly ,thank
you very much.
Excepts from Julia's testimony on November
5 ,2011-
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