Excerpts from Julia's testimony during the Vigil.

(Jan 7,2012)

I am glad to meet you, we are celebrating the first Saturday prayer meeting of Jan.2012.

All of you came here by responding with "Amen" from the calling of the Blessed Mother.

Many people are now, this weekend, spending time only thinking of a comfortable life and a life of ease, on the contrary, all of you responded with "Amen" from the words "Those painful hours were also the time for transition from my Son's Death to His Resurrection, a day for going from death to life. This is the reason why I asked you to pray with me tonight." Therefore, I believe that boundless blessings will come upon you all today. Amen !

As you know, Jesus loves us so much, even wicked sinners, is there anything will not lay down for those of you who came here to console Jesus and the Blessed Mother like this ?  I believe that all of you will be filled with graces today.

If you are ready to welcome Jesus with an open the door of your heart, Jesus and the Blessed Mother personally will come to you and rekindle the fire of love and perform the miracle of love.

According to a passage of Matthew chapter 25 verse 1 to 13, the parable of a kingdom will be like the five wise virgins and the foolish virgins, all of you are just like the five wise virgins.  Because you have prepared a lamp with OIL, meaning like this gathering you attend prayer meetings to receive or (welcome) Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

The Lord said in the parable of the Kingdom " No one knows about the day or hour so always, stay awake " all of you also do not know the day or hour, but you are already onboard Mary's Ark of Salvation.  So keep praying, so you can go to heaven when Jesus begins calling us, as long as you practice the words of the Messages of Love and you are not looking back and turning away.

Do not be disappointed even if you committed a fault and or any mistakes.

The matters that fall into disappointment, frustration, and despair are the ways to give joy to the devil.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

Do not be disappointed and despair even if you fall down, tumble down, collapse down and fall or are turned upside down again. Nay you must come closer the bosom of Jesus and the Blessed Mother by asking and promising " It is my fault, forgive me, are you willing to receive me, this sinner ? And be embraced tightly to the bosom of Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

Then, Jesus and the Blessed Mother will send down upon us the wisdom of the Holy Spirit and discernment of the Holy Spirit so that we may stay awake and pray.

There was a famous vocalist in the Philippines when I went there in 1992.  The left side of his body was paralyzed due to malignant brain tumors in 1991 and he lost his eye-sight in April of 1992.

On May 12,1992, the day, I gave my testimony and healing prayers at Greenbelt Church in Philippines he attended and repented of his life and cried a lot after smelling the oh so sweet fragrance of roses that filled the whole church, and he eventually regained his eyesight after attending healing prayers a few more times.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

This story teaches us that tears of repentance heals not only Cancer but can also to raise us up from death.

What is there that is not impossible for Lord ?  Therefore, he regained his eyesight as he repented and it felt painless.

His hands and legs were also moving normally. So I went to the hospital, and he was miraculously and completely healed.  So we all said this is a miracle.

This Vocalist can sing again, then a matter for congratulation happened to this family.

He then composed this song for me, it goes like this. " O My Julia ! O my Julia !, your smile is.....

When I went to Philippines again in 1993 , this song had spread to many people and they want to practice this song, I was so astounded by hearing that and asked them to discontinue to practice and sing.

Actually, whenever I visit to the Philippines I have to be welcomed by them. " There are many placards on the streets that say " Welcome Julia Kim from Naju, Korea ". Also many people give me bunches of flowers, even to my companions, but I want them to positively not, sing a song for me.

"Because I, human Julia was being used for a time as an instrument instead, the miracle performed and worked by the Lord and the Blessed, therefore we should only give praise to "Jesus and the Blessed Mother " so please change the words of this song to this as follows:  

O my Maria ~ O my Maria ~  instead of singing my name and they discontinued singing praise to me".

The result of putting all the miracles of the many different cases that occurred in the Philippines, was because they were all healed by repenting of their sins along with their faith.

Let us now gain salvation by repenting along with the faithful in the Mercy and Love of Our Lord and the Blessed Mother.  Also I hope all of you will regain spiritual and physical health by repenting.

I was greatly distressed by feeling that everything is my fault no matter if someone is sick, or someone has committed a fault.

By the way, if we truly acknowledge that we are all at fault, then Our Lord will be happy and you will be healed by Our Lord today.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

The letter " Ne " which means (Your) in Korean and the letter " Nae " which means(My) in Korean are not very different.

Many people in this world are saying " Ne Tat " which, in English means Your Fault, but if we change this Korean letter Ne into Nae, we would be saying Nae tat, which means My Fault in English, the world would also be changed.

If we were to think " your fault " is in darkness, but if we open the door of our heart wide and change the letter "Ne" into "Nae" effortlessly, the world will be seem different, then we will walk into the light from darkness.

The Blessed Mother said that " Even you who are supposed to know me will sew up my Heart that is torn apart. "   Even we, who are supposed to know Our Lord and the Blessed Mother, let us today, work to make Jesus and the Blessed Mother happy by changing the letter " Ne" into " Nae" .

The difference of " 네 “ and " 내 ” are only the difference of vowel " ㅓ ㅣ(Ne) “ and " ㅏ ㅣ(Nae)” means that , Your fault ( Ne Tat )and My fault (Nae Tat ) ,but  the number of strokes are not much different .

No one knows about the day or hour ?  Yes, no one knows.

How many disasters are taking place.........

By the way, I was on my way to Kwangju for some business, when a traffic accident occurred just before us.  I always carry Holy water in my pocket, so I sprinkled some water and took a look inside the car, people pulled out a person who was completely covered in blood, and who died miserably, we couldn't even open our eyes to look at them.

Do you think that this person expected that.   Ah, was I involved in any accident today ?  Not at all ?

No one knows about the day or hour.

That person never thought about death.  There were so many people who died by the earthquake and tsunami, but how wonderful it would be if they foresaw their death in advance, then they would be repentant of their lives and be prepared for death.  However, we are unable to be prepared in unexpected situations.

That's why we are blessed people, because we are preparing like this today. We are most blessed people who completely lay down ourselves to Jesus and the Blessed Mother Who will save us and sustain us who will never be shaken by any difficulties even though we were facing any situation at any time.

It was the Feast of the Baptism of Jesus on Jan 10, 1988.  I've been extremely suffering, even not eating anything for two weeks.  It was 1988, I was still young so it was easy to regain my health just after suffering even if I did not eat well for one month or more.

Anyway, it was too much extreme suffering for me to walk alone to go and see the Blessed Mother, so I contacted my husband after 11 PM and I went to the Blessed Mother with his help.

Since my husband brought me to the Blessed Mother, I was paying the Rosary while lying down and gazing at the Blessed Mother. I finished the 1st decade of the Rosary at 12:40 in the morning.  I was also crying and the Blessed Mother's crying kept me to just one Rosary decade in over an hour.  Then I went into an ecstasy, and the Blessed Mother appeared to me wearing a Crown with 12 shining stars, as a beautiful figure of the Blessed Mother of Naju carrying the infant Jesus.

She wanted me to embrace the infant Jesus and said " All of you also become a child like Him "

Then, She took Him back just after the Infant Jesus passed His hands over my whole body from head to toe, saying to me that it is difficult for you (plural) to go to heaven if you were not become a child like Him.

Upon hearing this, I felt that my body was as light as a birds feathers then, at once I was completely healed even though in my condition at that moment, I felt like fainting, because I had not eaten anything for two weeks not even water.

Suffering also granted healing, but it was also granted like this.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

Let us go back and become a form of a naked baby today.  Then heaven will be ours,  don't be too painful when you suffer. If you offer up the sufferings graciously, the compensation will be much more than you would have expected.

Even with the same sufferings, there is a world of difference between offering the suffering graciously and blaming the suffering.

The Blessed Mother said " You must empty in your heart then I am able to live in you "  Therefore, She can't come to us if we do not empty our hearts.

Jesus and the Blessed Mother comes to us at every second of the day, rekindling the fire of love, performing the miracle of love and to transfuse us.

Transfuse is not easy said the Lord.  Why is transfusing not easy ? Yes, the reason is, we did not open our hearts.

Is it not possible to transfuse blood into the vessel if it is clogged ? The things that block the blood vessels are because of bad friends in our hearts, and they are pride, selfishness, hatred, unforgiving neighbors etc.

It is no good to love yourself only, instead of loving others,  isn't it ?  Should we love our neighbors ?  Hatred is caused by being full of anger and passion.

Don't let the pride that are not humble will make a short trip but completely kick out of them from our heart for them to run away, then we will become humbly little soul. We will become a humble little soul when we make pride run away from our hearts not for a shot while, but when we completely kick it out of our hearts.

What is repentance ?  It is not only just repenting of our life and being contrite, on the contrary, we must truly acknowledge our faults and accept that it is my fault and do our best to live the will of God, this is a life of repentance.  If we live a life of repentance, then heaven will surely be ours.

Many people blames others even though they, themselves committed a fault.  I am not talking about you here.

The Blessed Mother showed me many different scenes on Jan. 10, 1988, but the 14 stairs was the best for me. There were 14 stairs, and on either side there was a tree of good and a tree of evil.

If we die even though we took a single step up the stairs, we are supposed to go to purgatory.  Numerous people climbed up to pass the 14 stairs on the peak of the mountain.

There were many catholics that were trying to reach the top by going around the mountain, instead of going straight up to the peak of mountain, some were trying to beat people and fighting each other to reach there ahead of others, instead of going straight to the destination without paying attention to others.

Then, some fell onto the ground in the middle of fighting and trying to climb up again and again, but eventually many of them were not reaching even near the 14 stairs.

Are you not like them ? Instead, can you climb straight up to the peak ?

We are not standing still at the 1st stair of the 14 stairs, nay, let us always make an effort to stay in heaven and cross over the 14th stair. However if we did not make an effort we would give joy to devil.

Many of us think that we did a good job, but it wouldn't seem like we thought on the same view of Our Lord and the Blessed Mother.

Whenever we judge, criticize and speak ill of others, a tree of good fruit on the right side of the 14 stairs falls down and transfers to left side and bears a tree of evil on it.

So, when the time of Jesus comes, to separate us, He will just separate us " You go to heaven" " You are in purgatory " "You have to go to hell" by just looking at our fruits.  

And the judge will decide by the record that recorded all of the deeds we have done in the world or we will be separated by weighing the fruits that are from a tree of good and a tree of evil.

By the way, measure the weight of the fruit from a tree of good, will it be heavier when we truly repent, deeply regret ourselves, and come closer to Jesus as a sinner by knocking on our hearts with the spirituality of " It is my fault "?

When we measure the weight, will the weight will be heavier?  The heavier the weight, means the more fruit that is in the basket.  If your basket weighs heavy, then this is heaven.  Let us accumulate the merits.

One of the best ways to accumulate the merits is to make many others repent by spreading the Messages of the Blessed Mother of Naju with sacrifices, reparations and a life of offering up.

Fruits of those merits will be very big.  Because of those who do not know the Blessed Mother of Naju could go the wrong way, but they will be able to stay awake and pray and then they can be saved by accepting the Blessed Mother of Naju.

I was invited by someone in Pittsburgh in America, at that time my big toe was fractured, therefore, many people tried to convince me not to make this trip.

But I made up my mind to make this trip even in a wheelchair without fail because it was a calling from the Blessed Mother.

All of you also, just be strong in your faith and then " It will be granted ! Just be confident.

We may do and imagine that it "Will be granted ? " "Won't be granted ? "  Jesus could also hesitate " Yes ? " "No ?"

It won't be happen ?  Right ?   No ! , pilgrims responded.

I was confident and instead of being healed, nay I laid myself down completely to offer up everything graciously for the glory of Our Lord and the conversion of sinners.

If it is not easy for you to offer up despite your making an effort, you just give gratitude to Our Lord by understanding that Our Lord granted this suffering for me " then, the merits will be accumulated.

There was a volunteer of the Blessed Mother's House, his name is Andrew Park who was healed of cardiac infarction, also a person in charge of general affairs of Dae-Gun Community, the chair was my husband Julio.

The community gave a charity of 30,000 won (aprox $ 30) for grandfather Andrew Bong, through Andrew Park, but he did not pass this money to him.

Later on, I realized that.

Now I am talking about this story for us to stay awake always.

To Andrew Park, " have you given the money to grandfather Andrew ? " he said, not yet. As a matter of fact, I myself can't stand and hold onto money if it must be reimbursed.

My feeling was so bad at that time and I asked again " have you given the money ?" if not, you just go and give it to him today.  I continued on saying, what if he may die, how are you going to make reparations ?   Then, he answered back to me " Yes, I will give the money " but he didn't

In the meantime, at the dawn of the day, someone was knocking on the door saying, dear Julia ! dear Julia ! , Mr. Bong died. Mr. Bong passed away !.  I hurriedly came down from the second floor and went to his house with a crutch forgetting that my leg was in a cast.

Upon seeing him, who died miserable, I cried a lot and buried him on the mountain with my leg in a cast and crying again over and over again, and funeral condolers, even parishioners were criticizing me saying "how can she can cry like that over someone’s death ?"

My little hope was that, blind grandfather Andrew Bong, will live even only one day with open eyes---.  He regained his eyesight when he was 85 years old and lived 5 more years.

The expiration day of 100 days of mourning came on June 15, 1990.  Francis Bang came to me as a form of Jesus and disappeared on June 30th after staying 15 days.

Just after Francis disappeared , I had been seeking him and asking to the people his whereabouts, and, have you seen such a person ?  I even reported to the police station and even to the social welfare department of city hall for them to contact me if they had any information on him.

I stayed up until 10 AM after the Anniversary vigil on June 30th, and I was informed by the Social Welfare Dept. of City Hall that a similar like Francis Bang is now in the Naju hospital.  I immediately ran to the hospital, he was similar but not him.  He was older and could not speak at all. So I named him Francis Bang and took care of him unconditionally.

No matter that I was so tired due to the vigil, however I was really overjoyed by thinking that I am now taking care of him instead of Francis Bang (who came to Julia as figure of Jesus).

Since that time, I kept caring for him every day, I needed to bath him, he tried to cleanse himself but he was not cleaned, so many parts of his body were covered with dried sheets and I had to soak them with hot water to remove them from his body.   Anyway, I kept on caring for him and helped him use a bedpan and disinfected him regularly and also helped him stay dry, then he became much better.

In addition, I cooked porridge with abalone which is too expensive to buy and cook and I continuously took care of him with my whole heart.  He really recovered.  He used to cry when I was about leave the room.  I might think that he was also Jesus.

Dear fellow pilgrims !

We do not know with what kind of form Jesus will take when He comes to us. Anyway, in the middle of nursing him, one day, the nurses wanted me to discharge him and told me that I need to take him home at once.  I was astonished by hearing that.  I was embarrassed by realizing their ungrateful behavior, and even their shouting to me as if I am a guardian despite them knowing full well that he was homeless.

As grandfather Bong's case was the same, I also brought homeless people to my house and bathed them and clothed them in new garments, Jesus who came to me as a homeless person was Francis Bang.  I swallowed his urine while I was bathing him, how wonderful a grace and I appreciated it.

Because I swallowed the urine of Jesus.  If I had said "OW" when the urine was in my mouth I would have lost a chance to receive a Grace from Jesus, plus I would be sorry and that would be my excuse.

How happy and joyful you would be if you were to offer every situation of having the urine on your head, on your face, on your body and wet on your clothes.

Even though he was not Jesus, but we just regard him as Jesus.  Let us regard all the people around you as Jesus and the Blessed Mother.  Then, how Jesus and the Blessed Mother will be happy.

If we practice love to others and regard them Jesus and the Blessed Mother, this is the way of practicing the love of Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

I never cut anyone’s hair with one hand while I was still running a hair-parlor. I always used two hands thinking that I am now cutting the hairs of Jesus and the Blessed Mother, so I taught others to use two hands.

How can we use only one hand if we are really cutting the hairs of Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

Are you also able to give something to others with two hands by thinking that you are giving something to Jesus and the Blessed Mother ?   Yes , We will , the pilgrims responded.

Now, let us regard those who we thought were our enemies in our minds as Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

We can offer this up if we understand and accept that " Ah I see " Jesus and the Blessed Mother possibly comes to me in different forms.  Aren't you ?  Yes It is.....pilgrims respoded.

Whoever scolds me when I make a mistake are a debt of gratitude, whoever loves me is also a debt of gratitude, the world will be changed if all of us regard all people as Jesus, thus the world could be the most beautiful place.

There are many things to be changed, even the spirit of "it is my fault" can change the world.  Did I tell you about changing " Ne " to " Nae " ?

We can change it as long as we have a will.  Let us practice from now on.

We sometimes feel so bad, but only Jesus and the Blessed Mother can change it to joy.  Jesus and the Blessed Mother will test us as gold is refined in the furnace.

When we renounce our ego and follow the Blessed Mother ,  " When you make my Immaculate Heart that is burning with love known to all the children in the world, you will experience pains.  But your souls will be purified and made stronger, as gold becomes purified in fire.  If you follow me in unity among yourselves, what you have lost in the world will turn into eternal joy by gaining me."  a passage of the Messages of Love must be realized by all of you.

Dear Fellow pilgrims !

There are so many natural health foods, but an overdose of them should never be taken even though it is good. Whatever proper dosage without picky eating becomes a good medicine for us , but an overdose can be harmful to us.  Let us, from now on, keep the law of a nature given by Our Lord and the Blessed Mother.  Therefore, physical exercise is compulsory to keep us healthy. The brain cells are dying when aging, but exercise can make brain cells alive again.

By the way, There are many delicious soft persimmons on a tree. What do we have to do for eating them.  Are persimmons supposed to come into a mouth if we open our mouth "wide" and wait until the persimmons fall off the tree ?

We do not know when persimmon will fall down, even if they are falling onto the eyes, or on the face persimmons will mess up.  So we have to make an effort as human.  As I mentioned before, let us follow Jesus and the Blessed Mother well with strenuous efforts.

You still remember that there is a tree of good and a tree of evil.  Have you made an effort to bear fruits on the tree of good so far ?

Please take good care of them not to fall down. Furthermore, we will have to pick those fruits on a tree of evil. Whenever you do good deeds, a fruit of the tree of evil falls down and bears a fruit on the tree of good instead.

We made an effort to bear good fruits on the tree of good until now but there are many fruits on the tree of evil.  But if all the fruits on the tree of evil falls down completely, we can go to heaven on the last day.

Even if there is one fruit on the tree of evil does that mean while we are still at the 14th stair, reparation is needed to cross over one stair ?   Therefore, we have to make an effort to pick those fruits on a tree of evil without missing one.  Then, Jesus and the Blessed Mother will give us extraordinary abundant graces by looking at us who are making strenuous efforts.

And we should be united with one another with immense love in our lives, let us cut off the relationship if we are still close with bad friends of pride.  Can you cut them off ?

If we become proud, we try to be higher without knowing we are so proud. But we can discern and understand what is pride by reading the Messages of Love carefully, trusting, and relying on and following Jesus and the Blessed Mother.

On the contrary, if we do not make an effort, so strong and tough the root of pride will be growing to our neighbors.

If we don't cut pride in the bud and keep it from growing to our neighbors and not leaping proudly up in our hearts, but grab a root of pride completely up and arm ourselves with love.

Every devil submits to love.

If we arm ourselves with love, the devil will run away, then we can enjoy the love of Our Lord and the Blessed Mother.

If we can't carry the burden of each other at least don't judge and criticize others with your mouth.

Do we have to offer up when we were failing to speak ill of others by remembering Jesus, the Blessed Mother and myself ?

There are many people doing like this " As a dog covered with dung rebuking a dog covered with chaff."

So, let us be united in the love of Jesus and the Blessed Mother today and give gratitude for calling us as an instrument to accomplish the will of Jesus and the Blessed Mother and make a new start.

Amen !

        Julia Kim's Healing song

Children who are being persecuted come to seek mommy
Sorrow and weary hearts, wants to be consoled by
Cry and cry, there is no one to receive me
Oh oh oh mommy Oh oh oh mommy Oh oh oh mommy Oh oh oh mommy
We, who are being persecuted will be attained the tree of eternal life

1. Broken heart by wounds, want to be healed
2. Receive my sick body and soul with love
3. Cry and cry, there is no one to receive me
4. Oh oh oh Lord Oh oh oh Lord Oh oh oh Lord Oh oh oh Lord
5. Broken heart by wounds , grant me healing

1. Deep wounds in my heart, wants to be healed
2. Mother pray for this poor sinner.
3. Cry and cry, there is no one to receive me
4. Oh oh oh mommy Oh oh oh mommy Oh oh oh mommy Oh oh oh mommy
5. Wounded in my heart, accept me completely.