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- Excerpts from Julia's testimony during the vigil
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(February 2nd,2013)
The Love can be displayed graciously only through true
sacrifice rather than just through a word
Praise Jesus, praise be The Blessed Mother !
Let us all receive much love from Jesus and The Blessed
Mother by repenting of ourselves. Is it possible for us to receive Their full love without
repentance?
Today, Jesus and The Blessed Mother will hold our hands
and pray for all of us who are specially gathered here to repent.
That scene was shown to me before, and for the children
as well.
One mother, whose children don't want to come to Naju,
forced them to come.
During the Rosary, kids were playing around and making
noise, but during my testimony time, children were astonished by…..
Because of Jesus and The Blessed Mother appeared at the
time.
So I prayed: Jesus! Please send down boundless blessings
for all of us.
Then, “ He happily nodded, mmmnnn Yes, I will, and The
Blessed Mother also touched all of our hands. The children said " We
saw."
Dear pilgrims!
Just firmly believe and take all of those whom you
haven’t forgiven to the foot of the Cross. And ask for the grace to pray for,
and to forgive them.
We won't be forgiven if we can't forgive others.
Jesus loved all of us even at the moment of death, but
rose again in three days by not giving up His love for us.
We don’t need to be afraid in the hope of suffering pains.
We are able to reach glory only through sufferings, and
love can be displayed graciously through true repentance.
According to the Bible, in the book of Luke Chapter 7
verse 36-50 ; " Jesus invited by Pharisee, called Simon. There was a
sinful woman who brought an alabaster flask of ointment. She stood
behind Jesus at his feet weeping and began to bathe his feet with her tears, then
she wiped them with her hair, kissed them, and anointed them with the ointment.
Simon saw this and
he said to himself “If this man were a prophet, he would
know who and what sort of woman this is ….”
Jesus said to Simon, two people were in debt to a certain
creditor; one owed five hundred days wages and the other owed
fifty. Since they were unable to repay the debt, he forgave it for both. Which
of them will love him more?
Simon said in reply, “The one, I suppose, whose larger
debt was forgiven.”
He said to him “You have judged rightly.” And continued
explaining in details, then he turned to the woman and said to Simon, she shown
great love this much,so her many sins were also forgiven. Even He said to her “Your faith has saved you.”
That woman was St. Mary Magdalene. Let us, today, become beloved children like her.
We were not able to live such a life,
but there wouldn't even be one who isn't able to forgive
others if all of you make a new start from now on.
This is another story, there was a sister Lucia, who, grew
up in conflict with her stepmother and she was always full of anger and
hatred in her heart. She went to a Protestant church while she was
single.
Her mother-in-law said "
you'll go to church over my dead
body".
That’s why she had
to practice shamanism in keeping with her
mother-in-laws wishes. But, she really
hated Shamanism, so she secretly became baptized.
For 10 years she stayed away from the church while she
practiced Shamanism. Everything was
going wrong, eventually their family was facing eviction.
Due to the situation of her husband’s business failures
while practicing and concentrating on Shamanism.
After a while, she found a lump in her breast, and went
to the hospital,and was diagnosed with breast cancer.
There were 2 tumors found that were 2.5 cm in size.
But she thought it
wasn't serious and could be taken care of by an operation, but the hospital instructed her to go to a larger
hospital.
At the
larger hospital, she was diagnosed with tens of thousands of tumors from
her neck to the breastbone.
The
results came from being scanned from her head to her toes while being checked
for any relapse and spreading of the cancer.
At that time she said to herself "Ah, I
will die!" Because surgery was not
possible under such conditions.
When she earnestly repented and forgave others, tens of thousands of cancers were ….
While suffering from the cancer, her sister came and said,
there is a statue of "The Blessed Mother weeping
tears of blood in Naju, let’s go there by somethime.”
She was also recommended to visit Naju by another pilgrim
named Maria, who was healed of osteosarcoma which is a decaying of the
bones, but was healed of her illness after a visit to Naju. So, she made plans to visit Naju in 2005.
During her second visit on June 30th, her hair
had all fallen out due to the
chemotherapy. She prayed and
asked for forgiveness while openly crying with the sincere and honest feeling of vomiting blood.
Dear pilgrims!
Forgiveness is truly important. Sister Lucia restored peace in her heart and her body condition improved as if she was flying.
She went back home and started treating her mother-in-law
well,
even asking for forgiveness to her father who was always
partial to her stepmother. Henceforth, she has cooled down her anger of killing him,
and now they have reconciled by asking forgiveness of each other.
Afterward, she even forgave the person she hated the
most, her husband. Then they went to the hospital for a check up, the 2
tumors the size of 2.5 cm and tens of thousands of other cancerous tumors from her
neck to breastbone were all gone
without even a single one left.
However, she found one more thing was still left in her
next pilgrimage to Naju that she had not yet repented for. But, straightaway she repented of her
sin by watching my sufferings in reparation of abortion.
She did not acknowledge that abortion was a sin.
That’s why sometimes we say that we have repented all of
our sins, but this is not
true because our sins still remain in us.
Therefore, we need to spare time to mediate on our lives
every evening, every day, we have to repent our sins and then we should
go to confession immediately.
It just popped out 3 months! before I knew it.
One pilgrim, a father of one daughter, had an emotional
breakdown, and was immediately possessed by the devil while in the middle of
studying for the national exam.
So, to cure himself, he went to almost all of the places he could think
of, and Naju was his last resort and or destination.
His stepmother and mother-in-law came to see me in my
apartment and explained that
their son is now in a mental hospital, and they were begging me to allow him to stay with me. So I replied to them "
I could prepare a room for him but one of your family must take care of
him", but both of them were not able to take care of him.
They continued begging me, trying to convince me, to take
of him as well.
There was no way, so I said "No", because I was
taking care of my family and I also needed to receive the pilgrims everyday
without too many volunteer helpers at the time.
And I continued to refuse saying that "Even I could not spare time to set a table for my children…” However, they kept on asking, for me to care for him for 3 months in the beginning,
then just one month, and the just 15 days, and then just one week, then just
only for 3 days, but I rejected all of their requests.
Then all of a
sudden, I just spoke to them "3 months"
before I knew it. Afterward, I
was willing to accept him, because I fully understood that the word speaking out before I knew it was from the Lord,
not from me.
I realized that his mother was kicked out of her house as
his father brought a stepmother who was conceived into a house when he was
young. We may imagine that thats how his
heart was… maybe he was full of anger and resentment at his father and his stepmother by
looking at all those situations while growing
up. He finally had an emotional
breakdown from carrying such deep wounds in his heart while he was studying.
I also found a scar on his forehead, I asked him about
the scar, and he told me that " because of his possession of the evil spirit, he
called on some priest, who was trying to get blood from a wound caused by a
knife to drive out the evil spirit, so a scar remained in the middle of
his forehead."
He has a lot of wounds in his heart and even on his
forehead, he was eventually hospitalized in a mental hospital and was
discharged so that he could come to Naju. So, I kept praying for him and all the while he was giving off the strong stench of
a serpent, due to the possession of the evil spirit.
I prayed with a
member of a Holy Spirit movement, who was living in Gwangju City and
taught about what I say about turning our daily lives into a prayer and she said to me " Julia !, I suppose I
would be a Saint if I were to live with you for only 3 days."
While this woman was performing an exorcism over this
poor soul, by closing her eyes I also joined in in a loud voice, he was lying
on the floor suddenly shouted "
Damn it, crazy bitch! do you know how your son is now thinking about you ?" And continued saying unreasonable things to her.
And then she was calling to me with her eyes wide open
" My goodness, Julia, Julia ! " So I answered back to her "
Don’t be
tempted by !, it is the sound of the devil" then the devil said "
Oh my
goodness, such wretched women!
Your husband is now doing something with a pretty woman in a certain
motel " So I shouted " Stop it! " Then
the devil said " Oh boy, you won’t even fall for this trick."
By the way, one of the pilgrims, Magdalene, who was
living in Seoul at the time came to help me, but just went back home
by smelling like a stinky serpent from him.
She even mentioned to me that he slept just like a serpent.
Amazingly he was completely healed in exactly 3 months.
Meanwhile, I had treated his mother & father
well. Eating together with them and doing any and every thing
they needed every time they visited
Naju at that time.
They forgave one another and reconciled by experiencing
the healing of their son’s illness.
Eventually, they and even the in-laws family became Catholic. This is
a miracle of love.
The Blessed Mother nourishes us by reminding us of our faults and mistakes.
One day, Volunteer Rufino said " Julia! How could you associate with such
people?" So I spoke to him, for what, are
we not working for the Blessed Mother?
Jesus came to us not to call the righteous but for the sinners.
We must be friends of people who are poor, alienated,
sick, weak and those who are committing sins without realizing it in order to
completely carry out our roles as an instrument. Right after that “ he was glad to accept by
saying Amen, Amen!! "We don’t know how important our response of
"Amen" is when we are called from God. It will be so great a blessing for us, if we
could just learn through
enlightenment no matter what faults and mistakes we have committed.
The Lord and The Blessed Mother nurture each one of us
like this.
Therefore, we are not trying to be helped, but help
others who are in need of someone’s help.
Since
that moment, Rufino started to love for those who are worthless, and
sinners.
The
Lord and The Blessed Mother will be consoled and will give us great
compensation while watching our humbleness that we're willing to accept all
such situations as Rufino’s and practice them unconditionally by saying "Amen."
In
addition, if you repent yourselves as Lucia repented with the honest and sincere feeling of vomiting blood and also
forgive others, then, all of
you will receive great compensation as St.Mary Magdalene received.
Thank
you very much and I love you very much !
See
you next First Saturday….
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