Julia Kim's testimony

during the first Saturday night vigil

  Excerpts from Julia's testimony on February 12, 2011.

It's been a long time. And you  ?  It is really long time since I have given my testimony standing before you. As you know, I used to always sit on a chair because of my sufferings, But I think that the Blessed Mother fed me the milk that came down at the Adoration Dome very early this morning. So, I came standing before you in healthy condition being completely healed.

I offered my near death sufferings even yesterday  and I thought, Ah I am not going to live on today, so I prayed to Jesus  !  I trust in you .anyway. These days, I've been receiving the extreme sufferings once I close my eyes, I felt I might die but was able to open my eyes again.

Upon gazing at the snow falls today, I offered all my severe sufferings and prayed to Jesus !  Please help us to offer our spiritual and physical pains as numerous as the snowflakes today even all our wounds since birth until now. Then I felt that the falling snow became so beautiful just after I offered all my pains. it was....

As we arrived the Blessed Mother's mountain and entered the Adoration Dome, and I was about to stand up after adoration when mother's milk came down. Father Lawrence Jung did not witness the milk came down because he was not present at that time. and he came and said  " Oh poor me , I wish it came down when I was with all of you gathered here" Then the milk came down again on the same spot.

I was so happy that I was able to bear extreme sufferings and I was so overjoyed, I was jumping and running  as I took a step one after the another for the sake of the pilgrims who will come today may they receive graces and be protected from frostbite especially those who are praying bear foot while walking on the snowy road. I felt that I need to do something for their safety protection.

I also prayed for the sake of you and your family when I offered the candles. On our way back from preparation prayer, one of the volunteer helper said . why don't we stop by the Adoration Dome once again ?  So we entered into the Dome together with the priests and Sisters, surprisingly, Blessed Mother's milk started coming down again. We were all amazing upon receiving the milk twice today.

The Blessed Mother said, remain awake and pray because we do not know when the chastisement will be fall on this world just like at the time of the Deluge, and also at the times of Sodom and Gomorrah and the Tower of Babel as well. They did not have the Blessed Mother in the time of the Old Testament , on the other hand Our Blessed Mother is with us at this time.

Therefore, God the Father is about to send down the chastisement  but the Blessed Mother heard the little soul's prayers like yours and  so,while shedding tears She appealed to God not to send down punishment yet, so the time of chastisement has been delayed.

There are two significances of Blessed Mother's tears , one is from Her words " All my beloved children specially called in the world  ! Your way of not the way to live"  the other meaning is from Her words " To live like this by following these words of mine " She has been appealing to us shedding tears so that we live well in accordance with the will of God. The Lord and the Blessed Mother came to Naju are present here and repeating the same words again and again. Do you know that ? 

According to the Bible Matt chapter 25 verse 1 -13, Parable goes like this " The Kingdom of Heaven will be like ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet bridegroom" Five of the wise brought flakes of oil with their lamps before the bridegroom comes , on the other hand, the foolish ones taking their lamps but brought no oil with them.

At midnight, foolish ones said to the wise " give us some of your oil for our lamps are going out " But the wise ones replied " No, there not be enough for us and you. Go instead to the merchants and buy some for yourselves. While they went off to buy it, the bridegroom came and those who were ready went into the wedding feast with him. Then the door was locked.  Afterwards, when they came back with oil, the door was lacked already. The wise virgins went to heaven, but foolish ones were not, because they did not prepare in advance. Everyone who kept awake  and are gathered here tonight are same as the wise virgins.

How the Lord and the Blessed Mother were happy today ?  While looking at all of you who offered prayer, I know that some of you are over 80-90 years old , some are weak and disabled  but you are all walked bear foot on the Way of the Cross .

As you know, Our Lord and the Blessed Mother loves us and even the wicked sinners. He laid down His whole bleeding body for us. Upon looking  at all of you who are praying like this, what could there be that the Lord and the Blessed Mother will not lay down for you  ?

The Blessed Mother gave us Her milk this morning and we were all astounded and we made a sign of the Cross with oil. It was just milk in the beginning, but later on, we found that it was the blood and milk ,I noticed that the Blessed Mother gave us milk and Jesus gave us Sacred blood. One of  the volunteers was astonished and overwhelmed by looking at the milk that was falling down slowly.

This lady who lives in Kwangju-City, was diagnosed with  colon cancer at the clinic, she had a tumor size were 3cm in diameter and two tumors 2cm in diameter. Later on, she was examined at Jeonnam University hospital, was also diagnosed with the same result. It was really serious and needed to be operated, so went to Seoul national university hospital in Seoul and also same result came out.

The appointment was made and It was only one month left to the operation, and she prayed to the Blessed Mother of Naju and she did not pray like this " Please grant me healing" but instead she first repented of her sins while entrusting herself to the Lord and the Blessed Mother completely. Prior to this ,she was very liberal and contaminated with a secular lifestyle and she love to wear big earrings and dyed her hair blond.   This was her lifestyle before.

By the way, she started repenting while she sitting before the Blessed Mother just after she received the sentence to death. She repented of her sins while sitting  before the Blessed Mother with tears and then went to the hospital on the date of her surgery, but to her great surprise, they found her 3 tumors had disappeared and her cancer completely healed . The hospital was also surprised and  told her to come for examination again the next month.

As you know, the examination of colon cancer is not easy. A biopsy through endoscopy is quite painful but necessary. And so, she was examined several times more but the results were all negative.

In the mean time, her husband abandoned her and three children and he left her debts 300,000 USD and ran away. her husband was rich businessman and so she was ignorant of ways of the world. It was worst moment of her life having to face lots of debts, take care of her 3 children, diagnosed with cancer etc.

As you know, I had a cancer (Julia kim) and I was discharged from the hospital because my cancer that can not be cured despite they did everything that they can do. I  also had to take care of 96 years old mother-in-law and I had her on my back once in a while and I also had to make a fresh kimchi with newly prepared side dishes every day for my husband in spite of being weak even I was very sick at that time.

Though I did not know God at that time, I just kept thinking , how could I please my husband ?  How could I feed my children to be healthy ?  Though I was poor. I also considered how to care for my in-law's family. I was just concentrating on it. I think it was the power of love.

It's possible I survived because I lived according to the idea that I was like a normal person, even though Ii is not even have a prayer life at that time-turn my life into prayers.

By the way, Juliana was even thinking of trying to commit suicide with her children because of her gloomy situation, but she understood the spirituality of Naju, So she accepted and said  " It is all my fault " and lived the life of self-denial for other people's sake . Eventually, she managed to pay off all her debts and overcome all her difficulties and joy was restored to her family. her children have grown up well and all of them graduated from the university and Juliana is now government official.

She is works 5 days in the office and reserve 2 days( Saturday & Sunday) for the Blessed Mother of Naju.  Friday evening she comes to the Blessed Mother's House and gives her hands until Sunday .In the midst of these,  she also takes care of mother-in-law.

How could she have done all of these like this without the spirituality of the Blessed Mother of Naju ?  we are all human , so, if we hate our husband, we hate to look even at the column of our in-law's house. How she take care of her children and even the mother-in-law who is the mother of her husband who abandoned her and children ?  isn't it  fellow pilgrims ?

She kept on praying for her husband with a forgiving heart even though abandoned his family. Surprisingly, he bought a house for the eldest son even though he did not return to her immediately because he is living with another women. This is one good sign

Her last dream is to live in the Blessed Mother's House. Her son was deeply wounded because he grew up in broken family but he has grown up well and is now serving in the army, one time he joined the youth retreat in Naju  and then he changed a lot.

Now, he is willing to help his mother with kind words and gentle behavior for example ,he would say to her mom ! sleep longer I will cook for you mother ! .  That's why she is now so happy and enjoy her life.

I would like to ask for all of you to be healed and enjoy your life. Juliana also witnessed the scene of the milk falling this morning.

As she promised, she always accompany us for the preparation prayer. but she has never had the chance to witness the drops of milk falling down out of thin air .

Even though she has witnessed the fragrant oil coming down, the stream of water of Mercy and the Sacred blood of Our Lord . It was the first time for her to see with her naked eyes the milk coming down today so she is very happy. Let us now invite her and hear her testimony

(Juliana's testimony)

The Blessed Mother of Naju saved me ,a sinner of sinners. It has been 14 years since my colon cancer was healed. We go back to the year of 1988, due to a painful stomach ache ,I went to the Dongah hospital and to the Jeonnam University hospital , and my friend who worked at Jeonam university hospital ,she insisted that I go to Seoul national university for my cancer surgery, so I went there and they scheduled my surgery right away.

I had a month time to the surgery, so I came to Naju Blessed Mother's House and prayed fervently while weeping copiously, and I went up to the hospital 10 days prior to the surgery for the examination and the result astound me as my 3 tumors completely disappeared. So I pledged to serve Naju Blessed Mother since that moment.

It has been 13 years since I kept my promise working here for 2 nights and 3 days a week. Until 2 years ago, I get a call from the Jeonnam university hospital every year and they asked " Is it okay ? Are you sure, Is it okay ? "

I had witnessed many of unprecedented signs while I am accompanying Julia Kim for the preparation prayer since 7 years ago. As Julia kim mentioned, everything is true.

I really wanted to die at that time ,but I had a hope just after I comprehended the life of Julia Kim. Then I prayed for my husband and even for his good life according to the spirituality of Julia Kim. it is not easy for me to pray for that without the spirituality of Naju.  I even have been good taking care of my mother-in-law who is really innocent. I did not blame her but treated her well unconditionally according to the spirituality that I learned in Naju.

The other day ,my husband contacted my son and promised  that he will purchase a big house for him in Seoul under my son's own name.  I have lived well and overcame all my trials by offering up all my difficulties because of the spirituality of Naju. Otherwise, I would have tried to commit suicide many times because too many trials that I had to endure at that time.

Anyhow, the trials brought me a chance to first repent myself . I have been seeing Julia Kim since 7 years ago during the preparation prayer while helping her, I found it cruel to see her offering up her painful sufferings  so that I hardly look at her with open my eyes.  In spite of her near-death suffering, she would even crawl to come to this place, and giving testimony and she prays and embrace all of you individually. Her pains, sufferings and offerings are beyond explanation and can not be summed up in one word.

For the last 7 years, I had witnessed that Blessed Mother's statue shedding tears of blood, also I've witnessed Julia kim's shedding tears of blood and the Blessed Mother's statue taking a shower by herself   (*)  I have witnessed almost all of the signs here. But I have never seen mother's milk coming down.

Fortunately, today I witnessed it how it fell down it was like snowflakes-minute particles falling slowly and continuously.  I am now very happy. This is the place where we verify everything even heavenly secrets are right over here.

Dear brothers and sisters, don't doubt it at all. Here Naju is just like heaven where there is no falsehood. I made up my mind to devote myself here and help Julia Kim and I will die here in Naju.  I will do my best to live with Julia Kim ,helping her, holding hands with her while practicing the 5 ideals of Naju spirituality.

Thank you

( * ) Annotation- (At about 5 p.m., when Julia was still praying in the Chapel, She saw the stains of tears of blood on the Blessed Mother's statue, which had remained there since December 31, 2005 when she had shed tears of blood, and the stains of fragrant oil, which had continued exuding from her statue, suddenly disappear.  She was so surprised and said, "O my!  Mommy!  How . . .!"  and Julia continued, "Did you have an angel clean your statue again or did you do it yourself ? "  The Blessed Mother did not answer.

(Julia's testimony is continued...) Isn't Juliana pretty ? her heart is more beautiful than her appearance. As you heard, the hospital kept on calling her whether she's still alive or not, because they thought she was a person who would die soon .

 She lived the life of resurrection with faith that she believed 100 % she was healed by the love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother without any doubts either 0.00001 %.

I have a humorous tale, when the Eucharistic miracle occurred in 1994, Pro-Nuncio Giovanni Bulaitis said  "I don't believe 100 %" we were all so surprise. And he continued to say "200 %, 300 % I believe " upon hearing this, everyone around him laughed heartily a lot at that time.

Now, let us be born again by offering up bad things such as hatred, resentment, jealousy, selfishness, pride to the Lord and the Blessed Mother. Yes I knew that there would be a suffering, pains, wounds and mistakes in our life in this world.

Because we love Jesus and the Blessed Mother specially, the devils are always harassing us so that the relationship among us in the love of the Lord and the Blessed mother who came and present with us in Naju will be destroyed. He will harass us all the time, so that sufferings will come to us through the husband or daughter-in-law, or through parents or through the peoples who are most close to us .  It is not too painful if distant ones hurts us, on the other hand, when those close to us hurt us , it brings us more suffering and deep wounds remain in our heart.

I hope that all the wounds that you had been keeping in your hearts will be healed by practicing love and repenting first of your own sins. Amen !!!