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The Way of Love for the Lord
Chapter 35. My husband’s motorbike crash (April 26, 1982) One day, when my husband was coming home from work on his motorbike, another motorbike driven by a drunken man in violation of the speed limit crashed into my husband’s from behind. They both fell to the ground. As the drunken man did not wear a helmet, he was terribly injured. He demanded five million won in compensation from us as if my husband were at fault for the accident. We gave him a million won out of pity after learning that he was a poor manual worker. In fact it was my husband who deserved compensation. I had been leading a life of ‘It was my fault’.* So my husband and I regarded the accident as our fault, thinking that it took place because my husband’s motorbike was running in front of the drunken man’s. We gave him the money as if we were helping a poor person. However, after receiving a million won, he frequently came to my beauty parlor, importuning me for more money. Even though there were many customers, he went so far as to cry out to me, “If it had not been for your husband, the accident wouldn’t have happened.” From an ordinary point of view, his remark was absurd, but I continued to help him without telling it to my husband. A few days after that, I bought some beef and put it in a freezer thinking that I would visit his house to give it to his family. When I opened the freezer door after work to take it out, it dropped onto the floor. I lowered my body to pick it up with the door still opened. As soon as I stood up, I bumped my head forcefully against the door and lost consciousness. A while later, when I came to my senses, I saw my family and the employees crying. They told me that I had a concussion and that I should go to the hospital right away. One employee asked me, “What mistake did you make? Why are you so intimidated by him like that? Why are you trying to be so good to him? You did no wrong. On the contrary, you should receive compensation from him.” I replied, “We have no problem in eating and living. But he had been living from hand to mouth. Now that he is in trouble due to his financial problem, we should help him. If my husband had not been in front of him at the time of the accident, the accident would not have happened.” She said, “Ah, who could stop you? Who could possibly understand such a good heart of yours? What use would it be for you to be approved by the people of the world?” Another employee who had no faith in God said, “God is invisible. What and who could an invisible God approve?” I replied to her quickly, “I am doing this not because I want to be commended but because I feel sorry for him.” I rose and went to his house to give the beef to him. His wife was different from him and kept thanking me, “I am always sorry. Thank you so much.” “O my Love, my Beloved! I am always unworthy. Let all these pains that I suffer become the fragrant oil that is offered to You. I have always been a sinner with many shortcomings in the turbulent waves of this world, but You have cut out again and again the bad habits from me with Your immense love. Likewise, cut out his bad habits too and accept him as Yours.” “My beloved daughter! My little soul! Thank you. I rejoice over such gifts as My children offer to Me by pouring down their whole love to the best of their abilities. Even if they are trivial, they become very precious gifts to Me. Your altruistic love quenches My thirst, giving Me abundant joy.” * The spirituality of 'It was my fault' - See page 15
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