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The Way of Love for the Lord
Chapter 39. Sexual harassment (July 8, 1982)
One day I got on the bus to go to the countryside. The bus was so packed to its door that some passengers had to stand on its steps. Standing among many people, I was praying the rosary for the conversion of sinners, when something suddenly poked my buttock. I was so startled that I forcefully shoved it away with my right hand thinking that I had been poked by the handle of an umbrella. To my surprise, however, it turned out to be the genital organ of a man standing behind me. He had taken it out of his trousers. “O Lord! Forgive the man who intended to satisfy his carnal desires regardless of time and place. Let him be freed from the devil of obscenity and become an instrument to manifest Your glory.” “Yes, My lovely baby! You were sexually harassed by him, but you did not hate him. Rather, you have offered him up to Me, wishing him to be forgiven, so that he may be an instrument to manifest My glory. I will grant your plea.” “O my Love, my Lord! It was not done by me but by the love which You had already taught me. Though he sexually harassed me by taking his genital organ out of his trousers, I thought of it as a mere piece of flesh and thus was able to pray for him. So it hasn’t hurt me very much. If he is condemned due to his sin, of what use can it be to my soul, and what difference will it make to me? The most important thing to me is the fact that You are always right beside me and that You are living in me.” “O My little soul whom I love! Yes, Yes. I am always living in and with you. Whenever I see you show love to your neighbors, expecting nothing in return, I can take a carefree rest to the extent of forgetting the sins of the world.” “O my Love, my Beloved! I am just an unworthy sinner with many shortcomings. So, how can I dare call You my Beloved? But You are my only Beloved inseparable from me just as I cannot separate from me the heart which is beating in me. The blood of mankind that has been sick and turbulent is also flowing in me, an unworthy creature. Yet, I will come closer to You, loving You alone even if ten million years were to pass by.” “My beloved daughter! My lovely little soul! I love you with the most sublime and pure love that is by far higher, deeper, and wider than the love you have towards Me.” “O my Love, my All! As I, an unworthy and lowly sinner, belong to You alone, I will become a victim soul who offers up all her pain in reparation for the sins committed by the human race. Please be comforted by receiving all my remaining life and my ardor. Amen.” While washing my hands after I returned home, I prayed that the Lord might wash away his obscene thoughts with His Precious Blood and that he might live a new life of resurrection. I prayed for him, believing that my wish would be granted as it is.
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