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The Way of Love for the Lord
Chapter 44. "I am a mere instrument used just for a little while."
The next day she brought her husband and two sons to me with her face radiant and smiling. When her husband told me what had happened the previous day, I became tearful, touched by the Lord’s infinite, high, deep and wide love. “Thank you so much for having changed my wife like this.” I said to him, “It was done by the Lord. If by chance there was any good thing done by me, the Lord did it personally by using me as His instrument just for a little while. If there was any wrongdoing done by me, I myself did it. So give your thanks only to the Lord.” He continued to say; “May I tell you how my wife was yesterday? Before, she used to not tell me where she would go, and she had been very brusque with me. But yesterday she told me kindly that she would go to Naju to meet with you. After returning home from Naju, she suddenly spread a blanket, though it was daytime, asking me and our eldest son to sit on it. I was so surprised at her demand. Then she knelt down and made a deep bow to me and our eldest son four times. We were stunned at her behavior, looking at her blankly, when she burst into tears. She wept with a loud voice which I thought was close to a wail. She begged me and our son to forgive her for ignoring me and beating him. Soon the room turned into an ocean of tears. We wept loudly embracing each other. While feeling true love for the first time in ten years of our married life, we could feel that the big vacuum in our hearts created by many wounds and hard feelings was being filled with love, and that the hatred and resentment kept deep in our hearts were turning into love. For the first time, we experienced what the happiness enjoyed by an ordinary family was like, and recognized God’s immense love. While enjoying such happiness, we stayed up nearly all night waiting for the morning to come, so that we could come to you and give thanks to you. We are truly grateful to you.” I said to him again, “As I said before, I am a mere instrument used just for a little while by the Lord. So you should give thanks only to the Lord.” We burst into tears embracing each other. At that moment, I heard the kind voice of the Lord. “My lovely little soul who always gives all glory to Me! You have always longed to set the flames of My love in the hearts of all the souls in the world. Offering up sacrifice, penance, and love for her sake, you wished to turn her sharp sword made up of selfishness, hatred, anger, and contempt into soft, downy love. How could I then have refused your longing? They have already regained vitality, because such tearful longing of yours turned into sweet rain and fell upon their souls. I will nurture you ceaselessly so that you may lead numerous souls trapped in darkness into the light. Therefore, make efforts to unite even your small resolutions to the love of My Sacred Heart.”
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