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The Way of Love for the Lord
Chapter 60. I received great love today as usual. (February 8, 1983)
My husband and I were due to meet our eldest daughter in Gwangju. Before leaving for Gwangju, I tried several times to call her from the public phone booth in a bus terminal in Mokpo city, but the line was difficult to get through. As the bus headed for Gwangju was about to leave, my husband urged me to get on the bus. So I gave up calling her and put down the receiver. Right at that moment, my coins dropped onto the ground. We were pressed for time, so I could have given up the coins. But for the salvation of those souls who would be lost, I hurriedly picked them up and stood up. While standing up, I severely hit my head against the rigid public phone booth and fell down. I felt extremely dizzy to the extent of seeing stars. But I meditated on the Passion of the Lord on the Cross. Then I could offer up the pain for the conversion of sinners. “O Lord, You have redeemed us through the numerous scourging that You received and through the sufferings on the Cross. Please use this pain of mine where it is necessary.” I struggled to my feet. And when I touched my head, I felt a big bump on it, which caused me extreme pain as if my entire head were bursting. On the way to Gwangju, I was burying my head in my hands due to the splitting headache, not telling my husband about it lest he be worried about me. But he was surprised to see my face turning deadly pale. He asked me, “What happened to you?” I instantly replied, “I received great love today as usual. The Lord will certainly use this pain of love where it is necessary.” Holding my hands tightly, he said, “Yes, you are receiving too much love. I wish that you receive less.” He gave me a look which was filled with pity. I replied, “No, I told you that I would work hidden. It is no longer I who live but the Lord who lives in me. So I am going to offer up my everything to the Lord. You have also offered me up to Him, so please help me more.” Then he willingly said, “Of course, I will.” I prayed, “O my Lord! In order for me to work for Your sake, You should protect my husband and family. But I wish that Your will alone, not mine, be done!” “My little soul whom I love! You have entrusted everything to Me. Therefore, do not worry. Instead, I wish that you accept My lessons, learn My laws, and work in unity so that you may accomplish the mission that I have given you.”
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